The Life Of THE XuXuBan

Chapter 64

2005-11-16T22:43:00.000+08:00

*Flying down to earth from his clouds above* Wat's up peepz..,back again to blog again..,haha..,having that feeling to blog everydae le..,but think sooner or later it will disappear and mi blog will b not updated for quite some time..,haha..,well aniwae tok abt wat happened to dae...

Todae when wake up not much difference from yesterdae..,still did not hab the mood..,but still went to school..,had material science..,kinda liked it cos it's quite simple to understand..,or mayb it's jus the begining..,praying hard that it's ok..,hehe..,hmmm then after that did not hab brunch again cos had breakfast in the morning..,hmmm..,so then went for the rest of the lessons..,till 1...Kinda boring..,also kinda tired due to the fact that mi,rach and johnson chatted online last nite till 1 plus..,adding on to the 5hr straight lecture that we had the previous dae..,so add up to super shagged...So kinda dozing off during the last 2 lectures..,but managed to stay awake..

After school..,went to bbdc wif andrew and mark accompanied by johnson and jj as they were on their way home to sleep..,sooo gd..,sobx (T_T)...Met fang ting there and had a small chat..,she was also on her way to bbdc for practical..,discussed alot of stuff like having a gathering soon and stuff..,so went there together...Anyway topped up mi account so now got enough money to do mi driving lessons le..,finalli...After topping up,waited together wif mark for a while cos he was going to hab his 1st practical lesson at 3.55..,so accompanied him a while b4 leaving around 2..,reached home around 3++ so slacked around b4 heading towards orchard for the ivp celebration thingy wif yq and gang...Though was tired and stuff..,but jus go lor...

Had yuki yaki at cine..,well yq,joshua,edwin and jyu yong was late..,while mi,denise and marcus was on time..,we met angie there hu was accompanied by fel..,was shopping i think..,aniwae around 5.40 we were alreaide inside feasting..,had loads of fun there..,ate alot..,was mi 1st time at yuki yaki but it was somehow like the marina steamboat style..,though more expensive..,think bcos of all the lala and mussles they hab there..,haha..,shared the same table as yq,edwin and jyu yong..,haha..,ate loads man..,while the other table consisting of joshua,marcus,denise and angie also ate loads..,more than us i think..,but our's more expensive cos we took loads of lala and mussles..,haha..,was vry satisfied..,hehe..,after dinner we went to heeren to shop for sabrina's belated b'dae celebration..,took around an hr..,well denise and angie went to do the shopping while the rest hang around HMV and other places..,hehe...

Haizz..,dun understand y..,but y people like to make it hard for others..,sae people machiam they dun wanna go..,then when they go they themselves cannot go..,isn't that quite contradicting..,aniwae some things r not always because of this reason that's y dun wanna go..,it is other reasons lor..,so nxt time if u wanna sae other people..,think about it 1st..,dun reallie wanna create war... =(

Missing you loads dear..,but luckily u will b back in another 24hrs time..,hehe..,then can sms u till the nxt dae when i can c u..,hehe..,hope u r having a great time there..,cos xiao xu isn't reallie having a gd time here without u..,praying for ur safety and happiness..,muacks =)

Think that's all bah..,try to blog tomorrow..,till then everybody take care yeah..,xiao xu is praying for the happiness and safety of those that he loves and cares for... =) *Flying back to his clouds above*

Chapter 63

2005-11-15T21:55:00.000+08:00

*Flying down to earth from his clouds above* Yoz peepz..,kinda unexpected for an early update rite??Well kinda bored now so decided to come online to blog..,haha...Though feeling tired..,decided to blog 1st then after that hab a gd nite sleep...

Start wif the good thing 1st..,like i said the previous time..,the last dae of ivp was yesterdae..,the final dae to decide the champions for this year's champion..,for guys it was a tight match against np..,the winner of the 5 games will decide the winner for the mens catergory while the gals hab to win 4-1 for their game against np to ensure the tittle for the womens..,quite stressful...Anyway..,yesterdae i kinda went for squash thing..,something about big shots coming down to the squash court to see whether we fully utilise them..,haha..,lucky got LOA cos i kinda pon one of mi lesson to go down there..,so i went down there to play for a while after having brunch wif pek and gang..,quite a number of us were down there,kun zhi and gang,xue li,ah ma,nai lin,denise,jyu yong,joshua and zi xuan..,so played for a while but did not reallie see any big shots come down..,then it was time for practical so went back to class..,finished prac in less then 2hrs..,muhaha..,r we gd or wat..,then went to squash court again to put down mi stuff then went to send xiao ai home..,b4 coming back to watch the ivp finals..

Here comes the interesting part..,during the match..,the squash courts area was vry tensed especially the area outside the courts that were holding the matches for SP vs NP..,think bcos it was the matches of the dae bah..,sooo important..,anywae the games were nice to watch and was kinda a tight game..,but we merged as champions..,guys won 3-2 while the gals won 4-1..,making SP both catergories champions..,woah..,the feeling was sooo great when jun kai won his match as we were alreadie 2-1 up..,alas jyu yong's match was not as expected..,but guess u were vry tensed..,so did not reallie play ur game well..,nxt time u shall trash their asses yeah bro..,cheer up...,so after the whole prize giving ceremony..,we went home and on the train home..,yong qi and gang decided to hab saikae sushi dinner for wed to celebrate..,haha..Looks like mi pocket is gonna hab a big hole soon since i intending to save some money..,mi plan is foiled...,argh..,never mind lar..,ask mi aunt to give mi some data entry job to earn xtra money..,yeah... =P

Well here's another thing to write about..,myy darling angel,xiao ai is now in malaysia with her family having holidae..,weird rite??Having school and yet can go enjoy at malaysia..,haha..,but as long as she's happie can safe then ok le..,she's coming back by this thursdae nite..,reallie missing her alreadie ever since yesterdae when i send her back home..,cos that was the last time i will c her till fridae..,todae when i woke up for lesson..,was like no energy as if i had nothing to look forward to when i go school..,guess i am missing her that much..,hmmm,but still ended going to school..,did not reallie tok much todae..,except to mark and rach..,haha..,dunno y..,jus did not hab the mood???Well hopefully it will b gone when i c her on fridae..,hehe..,but i noe that she will come back on thurs's nite so will wait for her to come back..,haha... *Missing you sooo much mi dear,muacks =)*

Well think that's all for todae..,think i mite blog tomorrow..,see how lor..,well till nxt time take care peepz..,mus jia you for anithing u all do..,xiao xu is praying for the happiness and safety for those he loves and cares for... =) *Flying back to his clouds above*

Chapter 62

2005-11-13T15:35:00.000+08:00

*Flying down to earth from his clouds above* Yoz peepz..,xiao xu aka xuxuban back to update u all about mi life..,haha..,been a real long time since i came to blog..,haha..,mani things hab happened...So finalli come online to blog cos todae neber go out and kinda bored at home so decided to come blog..,haha..,hope this makes u all happie now.. =)

Hmmm..,well one happie thing that has happened in mi life is that i found mi angel le and i guess that most of u have met or alreadie know her..,for those hu haben..,well i think it's jus a matter of time..,hehe..,so now xiao xu is no longer single le..,hehe..,vry happily together wif her..,haha..,hmmm okok enough of that..,wat other stuff is there to write..,oh yes school has started..,time reallie flies..,a month of holidae jus pass by jus like that..,well did loads of things during the holidaes..,went for 3 chalets,one for squash,one for ex class and the last one is for present class..,other than that also went to shang hai for holidae wif mi parents and the 2 youngest siblings..,visited loads of places...,like huang shan,xi hu and of cos shang hai itself..,did loads of shopping and site seeing..,china has reallie changed since the last time i went there..,more modernized but i think one thing hasn't changed..,the traffic and the number of smokers there..,haizz..,reallie a problem there..,other than that...,the food is great the prices for stuff are cheaper..,muhahha..,think dun mind to go back there soon..,haha..,but of cos it will b betta if i went wif frienz..,more fun i think though dun hab that extra cash to get more stuff...

Alright back to now..,school has started and it's alreadie the 2nd week coming to the 3rd...,well like always..,school is kinda boring..,haha..,all the lectures and stuff but there's always frienz and squashing that makes it interesting..,also there's also one more thing that makes going to school more fun to go to..,and that is xiao ai..,hehe...,opps i spoke of mi angel's name..,neber mind lar,that's mi name for her..,not reallie her actual name...The modules that i am taking now is less interesting than mi last semester..,haha..,think because it's basically more memorising rather than calculating..,argh..,hmmm besides that the time table reallie sucks..,sometimes will hab 3.5hrs break then we hab to end at 6..,omg..,wat kinda time table is that..,hehe..,oh no one other thing that reallie kinda sucks..,is that the nxt holidae we hab wun b much of a holidae..,cos during that holidae mi and mi frienz will b having attachment to different companies..,so kinda working style but lucky for us it's onli for 6 weeks and i heard that it's around 400 for our pay lar..,haha..,that's gd cos i'm kinda short in money during these few weeks..,birthdaes and stuff..,needa save more money le...

Well 2 daes ago,mi and mi clique of frienz from mi present class went out to suntec's pizza hut to celebrate our class rap,pei kun's birthdae..,he has finally turned 18..,congrats pek..,now in the same group as us le..,mus get a gf soon yeah and mayb get ur license fast too..,haha...,well on that dae..,we ended class at 6 then went to take mrt to chinatown 1st so that he can put a deposit on a phone that he will b getting this coming mondae..,hehe..,pass him our b'dae present..,think he kinda likes it..,cos it was like a hong bao cos we did not noe wat to get for him.,aniwae after that we rushed to city hall mrt station cos gerald and jia yun,johnson's gf was waiting there for us..,omg and we were late lor..,kinda bcos of the hp thing and also cos our train stopped at tanjong pagar for arond 10-15mins for no gd reason..,reached there and rushed to pizza hut..,thout it would b full but turned out to b ok lor..,so there was like 11 of us there..,haha..,ate loads pizza,spicy drumlets and calarmaries..,hehe..,not a bda celebration..,played zhong qi mi mah,toked and crapped alot..,laughed alot as well,that's how a b'dae celebration shld b..,hehe..,then around 11 we were all on our way home..,it was a great dae..,but b4 his b'dae kinda got some kinda arguements lar..,about going where to celebrate his b'dae...,haizz.,toking abt it now reallie irritates mi...

Well it all happened when she sae that she's kinda low on cash and asked us to go east coast park to celebrate there..,cos we went to mi,xiao ai,mark and jy's frien's family store to eat and they thout it's kinda affordable and nice..,but the problem is like it's vry far and it's like onli convenient to her..,cos her bf's place is nearby...,it's like wtf..,can't u jus think abt the rest of us..,well this kinda thing has been happening for quite some time le..,but lucky most of us in the clique can endure this..,but i think johnson's nerve is coming to a limit..,well mine will come to a limit at times but did not reallie flare up at her..,it's kinda like she's controlling all of us..,her attitude,her style of doing things and watever she saes is rite..,well listen up..,though i noe u will never get to read this..,it's not yeah..,u hab to back down sometimes knowing that u r wrong..,not everything u sae and do is rite and fair to us..,if we r ur frienz..,u will understand our feelings and try to do wat's rite and fair to all of us..,reallie hope to c a change in u..,if not i will b reallie worried if we ever get into an arguement wif u and fall out as frienz..,things dun need to b like that..,u r taking us for granted..,and that's not wat frienz do...

Oh ya..,one more thing that jus happened recently..,well it's like last mondae..,IVP for squash has started and it's held in our school,SP..,hmmm well the 1st match both gals and guys did well..,beat TP,but on the 2nd round..,which happened on last wed..,gals had some problems and had a final score of 2-3 losing to NYP..,while the guys has a 4-1 win over them..,now kinda par wif NP,our greatest rival for the guys..,while the gals hab to hab a 4-1 win on mondae..,the last dae of the competition to emerge as champions..,well i noe that u all can do it..,cos we r the best..,rite anot..,we will trash the rest and show them wat r we made of..,so jia you to those that r playing tomorrow in the finals..,the rest of us r behind u 110%..,hehe... SP SQAUSHIES ROX TO THE CORE!!! =)

Yesterdae went out wif her..,go find our dear frien rachael at her working place cos if not think she would rot all the way..,haha..,well her workplace is not that bad..,stayed around 2-3 hrs there..,had lunch together,chat and laughed..,then after lunch..,mi and xiao ai went to walk all the way to china square to find the place that i actually recommended for the celebration of pek's b'dae..,found it..,then walked around..,hehe..,after which we took mrt back to city hall to go to marina square..,now it's much more nicer than last time..,more shops hab opened..,we walked around looking at stuff and toking..,haha..,enjoyed every single sec of it..,then we called rach to hab dinner wif us b4 going to her bf's hse..,hehe..,she came and we ate at esplanade then which we all went home..,this time i did send her back and came back home at around 11.30..,hehe...,life has never been this great till the dae she stepped into mi life..,hehe..,muacks =)

Well think that's all for now..,haha..,think that's alot bah..,haha..,so will update real soon..,if i can..,well take care peepz and till nxt time..,smilez... =) xiao xu is praying for the happiness and safety of those that he loves and cares for dearly..,hehe.. *Flying back to his clouds above*

Chapter 61

2005-09-29T23:46:00.000+08:00

*Flying down to earth from his clouds above* Yoz peepz..,xiao xu is back from his world above the clouds..,hehe..,well i wanna sae now is EXAMS ARE OVER!!!Muhahahaha..,gonna have loads of fun doing all the stuff i wanna do..,and hopefully things turn out the way i wan it to be..,hehe..,mayb bah..

Well aniwae back to enjoy mi holidae..,when got time will come online to blog..,hehe..,till then take care and enjoy the holidaes..,onli one month..,so cherish it.. =P xiao xu is praying for the happiness and safety of those he care and love for..,take care peepz...Bleeh =P *Flying back to his clouds above*

Chapter 60

2005-09-07T21:58:00.000+08:00

*Flying down from his clouds above* XuXuBan aka xiao xu is finally back from a loooooooooooooooooong break to come blog le..,well actually cos ah ma,nu ers and mani other people hab been bugging mi to blog cos mi last entry has been sooo loooooooooong ago..,so that's why i'm here..,haha...Life has been ok bah..,jus busy doing assignments,studying for tests,celebrating birthdays,national day and so on and so on...Well aniwae blog a little lar..,cos i really dunno wat to blog..

Changed mi blogskin if all of u realise..,cos hab been watching initial d the animation and that's thanx to mi dear best frien,edric,haha..,thanx man and tell u this i'm really enjoying it though there's sooo mani episodes and cds to watch..,hehe..,and guess wat i finish watching 1st stage le..,onli 3 daes bah..,not that fast though..,think if reallie pia for that mayb one dae also can finish le..,but due to the upcoming xams so hab to resist..,that's y the remaining 2 stages hab to wait until the xams r over then watch..,also cos mi youngest brother and younger sister going to hab xams..,one is PSLE and the other sec 2 streaming..,so hab to set a gd example and ask them to study..,hehe...Ya so that's y i changed mi blog skin to initial d..,the way they drive and drift the car is sooo cool..,how i wish i could do that..,but the 1st problem is i haben get mi license yet..,haben go register..,then 2nd is no money to buy car..,haha..,so guess hab to wait bah..,oh ya one more problem..,where to find this kinda roads in SINGAPORE..,argh...Oh ya..,now that mi irritating sister is behind mi,she helped mi changed it..,thanx sis..,haha..,bleeh =P

Hmmm..,wat else to write..,oh ya,missed teachers' dae celebration,did not go back to qtss to meet up wif the old gang,so sadz..,long time neber meet them le..,wonder did anione of them change..,haha..,mayb nxt time bah..,definitely will go back and meet up wif u all..,but heard from brother salleh that this year reallie sucked cos it was a food fair..,so not reallie a celebration,not like last time when we performed for them and gave them gifts,still remembered ling xiang,fang ting,kai ting,mi,kc,salleh,des and a lot more of us chipping in to decorate one nice carpet for them..,hehe...,haiz,those were the days,when we could do wat we wanted to do cos we got plenty of time,not like now,rushing reports,study for tests and loads more..,argh...,haha..,dunno y complaining about this again..,haha...

Yesterdae went to the new central national library cos near mi hse and also mi xiao tongz mei ask mi to pei her go study..,she preparing for her promos le..,u wun believe mi but from last time when we 1st met at SLC,she grew alot lor..,abt mi height le and now studying at AJC..,my god lor..,she's sooo much more hardworking and sooo clever..,haha..,but i still become her kor..,hehe..,well aniwae best of luck to u kk tongz mei..,got problem can find mi also..,but not acadamic cos think i wun noe how to do ur stuff..,haha...Then was doing maths there wif her lor..,do until around 7,send her to mrt then go back le..,slept for a while b4 waking up and watch shooting stars lar,the new ice hockey show on channel u,the actor is damn gd and i think the show is damn nice lor..,will continue watching but dunno how come todae dun hab..,thout is 7.30 but when on tv,dun hab...,sianzz...

Had classes todae at 8..,and i woke up at onli 7..,snooze until wake up late..,haha,actually woke up at 6.30 then went to snooze,how piggy of mi..,but in the end made it on time..,had lessons till 12,went to eat at food court 1,had yong dao fu,cheap and gd..,then played a little of dai di b4 going off wif mark and xiao ai...,accompanied them home,well to b exact is mark's home..,bukit batok,cos xiao ai going to buy ingredients for the choc chip cookies she going to make later that afternoon wif her sis..,bought the stuff then after that mark went home while i pei her wait for bus..,then went home and sleep again..,omg these few daes hab been taking naps..,cannot le..,later cannot sleep at nite,then nxt morning sure die le..,hehe..,hab to get back to mi usual habit...

Well think that's all bah..,nxt time then blog more..,after the xams though i know i won't hab that much time cos i will b having 3 chalets in 3 weeks,1 in one week..,haha..,one is squash,the other is previous class and the last one is formal class..,hehe..,sooo fun..,but there goes mi money as well..,but i will definitely enjoy myself..,cos this time onli 1 month holidae..,hehe..,well then take care peepz and those like mi going to hab xams le..,gd luck and strive hard yeah..,XuXuBan aka xiao xu is praying for the happiness of the ones he loves and cares for... =D *Flying back to his clouds above*

Chapter 59

2005-07-25T10:35:00.000+08:00

*Flying down to earth* Yoz Peepz,XuXuBan is back...,sorry arh that past 2 weeks did not update blog,firstly 2 weeks ago is because studying for the 3 tests that i was gonna hab the following week..,so entirely forgot about updating.Last week is because hab squash camp,ended on sundae,came back shagged liao,so think kinda expected lar,slept all the way till todae lor..,damn piggy,some more i was thinking of waking up to chiong report..,haha...Anyway think i will onli update you guys about last week,cos the previous week stuff totally forget liao..,hope it's ok..,here goes...

Study study study,wah study alot for the 3 tests that i was gonna have for the week lar..,sooo stressful..,got sooo mani tests yet sooo little time..,lucky nxt week is the one week break le..,haha..,overall was alright lar the tests..,then wat else did we have..,hmmm,actually nuthing much lar..,same same..,also was planning for nxt class outing during the one week break..,hopefully 1B/22 will also organise one asap..,missing you guys loads,anyway think 2B/21 will b going to sentosa again..,haha..,this time will put loads of sun tan lotion so that skin will not peel le..,haha..,mus season skin so that can b more tanned..,but of cos cannot compare to some people...,haha..,those hu catch my drift and if it's those that i'm refering to dun come beat mi hor..,lolx...Well then xiao kun(pek kun) asked mi whether wanna dye hair anot,chose DIY de cos salon too EX le..,so i was alright lor..,mayb it will turn out nice...,haha..,so we all decided to do it on fridae...

But before that,on thurs,after class,waited for wei sian nu er cos she sae will go pei wo find present for cyn da sao as her b'dae on sat then the IC grp hab tooo mani presentation and test on that week,so up to mi to go find..,dun worrie cindy nu er,it's ok...,then turned out that mark and xiao ai also got pei wo..,so after class went to lib basement and wait..,played chinese chess wif mark..,though he dunno how to play and i got teach him,he still gave his best..,not bad for a beginner..,or am i too lousy..,well aniwae because basement don't hab that much reception so i did not recieve nu er's sms-es and calls..,till i called her..,then found out that she was waiting le..,soooo sorrie nu er..,did not mean it,seriously...Rushed to dover mrt to meet her..,then apologised like mad..,she was kinda angry but over time she ok le..,then went to shop for da sao's present...,walked around in JP..,then found a tigger soft toy,quite big lar and a sweater for her..,hehe..,after that went to hab dinner,treated nu er to make up for her waiting for mi instead of mi waiting for her...,had omlette fried rice...,then after that went home..,mark carriedthe present home cos his house nearer and that the nxt dae i will b going for squash camp so got loads of stuff to carry,thanx loads mark...

Friday,classes starts at 11,so slept till 9++ then carried squash camp stuff and went off,sooo damn heavy lor though got sooo little stuff,mayb it's bcos i chose to carry a sling bag,brought a sleeping bag for nu er,3 sets of clothes,hp charger,torch light,sweater and track pants and toiletries...,little rite??But aniwae went to school,finish 11-12 class then chiong to celebrate da sao's and xue li's b'dae wif 1B/22..,gave da sao her present,she was sooo happy lor when she saw the tigger..,haha..,hopefully did not hab trouble bringing it home,even so it will b fu wen's kor trouble..,hehe..,jus kidding..,then celebrated xue li's b'dae,got her a cake,then after that,me and jy went to meet xiao kun,johnson,rachael and xiao bai(bai jie ying),was going to xiao bai's hse to dye our hair,at dover mrt,xiao bai realise she forgot to take her purse so rushed back wif johnson to Mac where we had lunch and check it out whether there..,here's the part that we wanted to beat them lor..,when came back we thout cannot find cos they called us and said cannot find...,but when came back,xiao bai still can come in,no purse=no ez-link...,wat the hell..,bluff us lor..,haha..,so after that went to xiao bai's hse..,her hse was vry simple sia..,but not bad at all..,so we started doing our stuff..,at first rachael did mine while jy did xiao kun's...,but later ended up that jy did both of our's...,hehe..,result not that bad..,xiao kun's de cannot c that much diff but mine can..,alright lar..,something new..,then we rushed back for class but did not make it for the 3-4 class..,so went for CEP class..,after that i went off for squash camp cos last class was quite boring lar..,not the module itself but how he teaches it..So rushed off to squash court..,had a little training..,then squash camp started...

Like all other camps,we all got seperated into groups,altogher 4 groups,Silent Killers,Halo,Onishi(Holy Shit) & Sunshine Squash Shrine/S3,not S3 but S to the power of 3..,hehe..,was in S3..,the best grp lar..,though did not win most of the games and stuff..,but the important thing is the bonding,well S3 consists of brother kun(kun zhi),alien(marcus soo),mr jye(jye hong),agnes,lolla,joan chua,xue li,angie(leader) and me..,at first angie was not there,cos she got something to do on fridae so onli joined us on sat afternoon..,so glydis was our grp leader..,haha..,not a bad combination..,so we played double wacko 1st wif the other grps..,damn fun lar..,was wacking everyone,occasionally got headache due to the fast calling of other people's name but was fun,nxt was dog and bone lar,S3 and Silent Killers merged into 1 grp and compete with Halo and Onishi...,haha..,was damn funny lar..,everyone trying to get the bone but also at the same time watching the opponent's actions,in the end we lost..,had to do forefit..,did duck walk from one end of squash court to the other..,not that bad...After that wash up and then we celebrated xue li's b'dae again..,haha this time is wif squashie peepz..,got her a cake,sang b'dae song then after that went back to sleeping quarters,play a bit of dai di and then go sleep le..,the place was damn cold lar..,haha..,T11 know for it's cold environment..Managed to survive the night...

Nxt morning(Sat,da sao's birthdae),woke up at 7..,then had morning run on the track..,8 ROUNDS man..,some more is slow jog and as a group..,can kill man..,not used to the speed and such..,but was alright lar..,most of us completed the 8 rounds..,impressed..,haha..,some more last 150 metres..,the guys all chiong..,damn tiring but refreshing..,after that went for breakfast which after we had telematches and other games..,nearly lost during telematch cos of not being able to hit the last can down..,but joan was not bad sia..,hit 2 down all by herself..accurate sia..,and the last can thanx to mr jye..,we made it to 2nd..,haha..,from last to second..,not bad sia..,then watched the losing grp to forefits...,haha..,other games,played fish & bone,posion ball in squash court,captain ball and 3 mins no NG...,haha..,captain ball was vry tiring cos not enough players and quite difficult to block opponents..,was interactive lar..,so-so..,posion ball was a damn fun game lar..,though vry difficult to play but nevertheless FUN..,fish and bone quite dangerous.,cos mr jye got hurt trying to finish the game..,dun b chiongster yeah guy..,relax..,it's a game...3 mins NG was kinda challenging but it cannot beat S3 haha...After games had lunch..,that's when angie came and took over glydis..she was kinda blur and how u sae..,think she feels kinda lost lar..,but soon fitted in..,played more games but cos due to weather cannot play some games..,so slack around and played chop chilli and other similar games b4 going for dinner that's when glydis left cos she had to go back home and celebrate her sis's birthdae,will miss her presence..,after dinner then had to come up wif cheer and think our's was the best,it goes:

We are S3, We don’t care.
We play squash till damn zai leh.
When we drive, *pah pah* you will scared.
If we drop, you will die yeah.
When you see us, you dig hole.
Bury your head in that hole.
Don’t come till you are prepared,
Otherwise you will regret.S3… SAH SAH SAH.

Zai rite??haha the most creative some more played something like the television programme on channel 8,forgot wat it's called when we had to beg for points and stuff..,haha..,then after that played charades and won prizes and stuff lar..,haha..,xue li,ah ma and i then called da sao and sang b'dae song for her...,hehe..,did some reflection thingy then went to wash up..,acutally wanted to play water games or go for nite walk but think not appropiate lar..,getting late and all of us kinda tired..,so cleaned up then played indian poker,all of us lor in the boys' quaters cos it's sooo bloody big..,haha..,forefits were like smelling shoes,squash racket's gribs and picking up underwears..,poor xue li and wan wai..,but overall enjoyable..,after a while got tired of the game then dominic(asshole) told us ghost stories but think it's bcos of how he told them that it was not scary..,so some of us went to sleep le cos kinda sianzz..,by 4+ all of us were sleeping...

Sundae(break camp),woke up at 9,no need go for running and stuff..,so washed up had some breakfast then went to clear up the sleeping quaters till we have de-brief and go home..,after cleaning up the place..,had de-brief toked abt the camp,ways to improve it..,then took loads of pictures..,haha..,jus can't wait for the pictures to come out..,those hu hab in zi dong yi dian hor...,haha..,then after that went to squash court for a while..,some of us stayed to play a while like ah ma,kun zhi they all while mi,nai lin,yong qi,wei sian nu er,xue li,zi xuan we all went home...Was suppose to go eat together de mi,nai lin,xue li,wei sian nu er and ah ma..,but think it's bcos hand to itchy then ah ma cannot resist..,haha..,understandable..,so mi,yong qi and nai lin went to dhoby gout to hab pizza..,saw xiao han there,she was working there for 2 daes..,pro sia..,during lunch,toked loads of crap and stuff then after went home..,actually wanted to wake up in the evening then chiong report but hu knew that after i went to sleep,nxt morning then i wake up..,this proves that camp was damn tiring..,haha..,so now then blog lar pig ritez =P...haha...

Overall for camp was a job well done cos it's the 1st time that we had squash and i kinda think the organising committee did not hab enough experince in this area so cannot expect much..,was impressed by the enthu campers lar..,haha..,think it's bcos of the bonds we formed..,haha..,so that's y i sae squash camp,encore encore..,haha...,hopefully nxt yr's squash camp will b a betta one..,haha..,now can't wait for squash chalet...,muhaha...Well everything/everyone is not perfect,so can't really expect much out of these stuff..,so jus live with it..,accept it..,cos life is like that...Well think that's long enough..,haha..,sorrie arh sooo wordy..,aniwae XuXuBan is now gonna chiong his reports,assignments and revision for tests after the one week break so take care peepz..,XuXuBan is praying for the happiness and safety of those he loves and cares for... =D *Flying back to his clouds above*

Chapter 58

2005-07-10T22:37:00.000+08:00

*Flying down to earth* It's another week alreadie..,man that was fast..,haha and anotehr 1hr and 10 mins it will be a new week..,time seems to pass by much faster than last time when i was in pri to sec sch...Well aniwae how's everyone,hope doing all fine yeah..,haha..,guess wat i'm 18 le..,haha...,jus had mi b'dae last fridae..,and it was a great one..,cos mi frienz helped mi to celebrate..,sooo touched...,well here goes for the weekly update...

Well mondae tuesdae abt the same as ani other week..,haha..,so starting on thurs..,cos due to our lecturers having to go for course..,our thurs class was onli from 8-10 in the morning..,so we decided to hab our class outing on that dae..,go to sentosa till evening then at nite have our dinner at marina south..,lolx..,and also it was ah ma and cindy nu er's b'dae..,wished them and got them their present...,shared with the rest of the DCP/1B/22 gang..,haha..,hope u like the presents u 2..,hehe...Well went to school met wif ah pek they all then went for class..,we were all in our beach wear lor..,class ended in a breeze..,super fast and after that we were like rushing towards dover mrt.,sooo enthu..,haha,had loads of jokes toks and stuff..,but not all were there..,jun xiang,xue ling,pei wen,wei sheng,ai lin,adelene and chia hui did not go for the sentosa thing...,so the rest of us reached harbour front like at 10.45 waited for the rest then had breakfast and after that went into the island...,lolx..,went to siloso 1st cos sat the wrong line..,then we walked and then sat the beach tram all the way to padawan beach where we spent most of the time there...Played beach volleyball,swam,chat,played "water polo",kinda a funnie game,and of cos sun tan..,haha..,had loads of fun there...

Oh ya then ai lin and adelene met us,they went to orchard and got mi b'dae present though i asked them not to..,haha..,but thanx aniwae,they got mi a cake also then they sang mi b'dae song..,sooo touched,was sort of a birthday celebration le..,haha..,then the funnie part happened,mi,andrew and ah pek chased ai lin cos we wanted to drag her into the water..,she kinda promised mi that she will play in the water but she did not bring xtra clothes for the bottom..,in the end,i dragged her down..,she was kinda angry but after a while ok le..,hehe...when going to bathe..,the guys (ah pek,johnson,andrew,jun jie and mi) took pics and stupid videos..,though stupid but damn funnie,too bad i haben got them yet..,haha...,if i get them i put it up here if possible..,haha..,well then after bathing we went on our way towards marina south..,most of us were like shagged and tanned le..,haha but wat the heck..,oh ya we were also vry HUNGRY...,haha..,was late..,mr goh was the earliest but he did not noe where...,we reached there and dinner started..,ATE loads and loads of food..,especially ah pek,andrew and johnson..,these 3 reallie can eat man..,they are like eating machines..,haha..,mr goh had to leave early so we bid farewell but continued eating till around 9++ then we took pics then went for a mini nite walk..,was like telling ghost stories and i was like scarying pple like ai lin,fiona and xue ling..,got beaten lar...,kinda deserved it..,haha..,but overall we had a great time..,went home wif xue ling..,met her sis..,she was sooo tanned..,compared to xue ling..,toked a while b4 mi stop then i walked back home shagged..,some more the nxt dae hab to wake up at 8...

Woke up at 6+ on fridae,It's my birthdae but slept onli like 5hrs..,went to school..,most of us were like shagged lar..,and some of us got sun burn..,the most serious ones are mi and johnson..,we were like getting beaten lor..,haha..,damn painful..,had maths lecture..,then other classes..,recieved loads of b'dae gifts from mi previous classmates..,than u all..,also from mi sec school people..,u all remembered..,sooo touched,actually did not reallie feel like celebrating this year but bcos of u guys,mi dae was much better than expected..,recieved loads of sms-es from friens that cannot meet mi and such..,omg..,wat a great dae..,LOVED IT MAN..,and also to the fact that i'm 18,can drink,learn how to drive and do loads of stuff..,haha..,after classes,went for squash training..,was actually kinda scared going there...,was scared of getting gang banged there..,haha..,some more i tio sun burn sure vry bad le lor..,but it turned out alright..,finished our trails..,then played some games..,pple came wishing mi happie birthdae then dunno how it happened but most of the squash team is going out later to hab dinner to help mi celebrate b'dae..,damn nice lor..,but b4 that they had a IVP team meeting..,was kinda long but alright lar..,so after training went to clementi to eat...was kinda in a rush cos not alot of time till the last train..,was kinda hectic but it's the thought that counts...,got home by 12 then went to sleep at 1...Once again like to thank all those tha celebrated mi b'dae wif mi..,u guys rox...

Sat,shuo lun and eric's birthday,meeting ying tongx mei mei and also kong chian and doreen...,met ying tongx mei at dhouby gout at 11.30 but she kinda woke up late..,so onli met her at 12.30..,man she grew taller..,near mi height le..,i hab to grow taller..,haha..,walked around ps for a while and chatted..,been around 2hrs since we last met at SLC..,haha..,that long lor..,lucky got tok on msn if not sure dunno wat to tok abt..,exchanged our last yr's xmas present..,sooo long still haben give then after that bought her her b'dae present,haben got her's mah then got her a pig soft toy..,haha..,after that she had to go for a course..,so sent her to mrt..,then i went to meet kc they all..,doreen jie was sick so onli met eric and kong chian..,went to holland village..,chat,met kc's frienz..,they were studying while mi and eric were slacking..,haha..,then after that met ling xiang..,man she grew as well..,she nearly mi height le..,lucky they cannot grow animore or else i damn pai seh lor..,haha...went home after that,then went out for dinner..,sort of to celebrate mi b'dae...,haha.,kinda late but thanx to all mi family members..,love u all..,will try mi best not to disappoint u all...Today..,nothing much lor..,did hw and reports then now chatting and blogging..,if dun blog think ah ma gonna kill mi..,haha..,jus kidding...

Well..,dunno isit mi being too sensitive or isit true that the distant between us hab grown much more than i hab expected..,thout that after letting go things will go back to how it was..,but guess not..,now we seldom tok mayb bcos of work and stuff..,u seldom tell mi ur problems animore not like last time..,jus hope u doing well,well hab to accept stuff like that..,not all things go our way..,hmmm..,well kinda noe that u going thru loads of stress from homework,club and squash..,but well i think it's time for u to noe how to take the pressure le cos we cannot b wif there for u always..,i noe and believe that u can do it..,so jia you and take care..

Wat a long entry..,haha..,that's about it bah for this week..,looking forward to the challenges ahead..,noe that all mi frienz will b there for mi and likewise will b there for them..,let's all jia you together..,take care peepz..,XuXuBan is praying for the safety and happiness of those that he cres and loves for...,hehe.. *Flying back to his clouds above*

Chapter 57

2005-07-03T20:55:00.000+08:00

*Flying down to earth* Yoz people..,XuXuBan is back from his clouds above to give his weekly updae..,man does time flies..,so fast and it's alreadie sundae..,haha..,hmmm loads hab happened but most of them are the same lar..,weekly thing and there r still loads to do..,well aniwae i jus get on wif the update..,haha..

Had qaas test on tues..,was lie preaparing for it like siao cos it was the 1st test for this new year..,haha..,so had to give mi best,turned out the test was simple lor..,wat the hell man but still i lost 7 marks cos i read one of the question wrongly and then wrote the wrong answer,same like ah ma lar..,sadz rite ah ma..,haha..,nvm nxt time we get full marks,ganbette...,haha..Squash trials still continued lar..,on tues did not really play well..,think lost all the matches i played on that day..,but was alright lar..,did mi best..,but comfirm i will try harder nxt time..Now we also have training on weds from 4-8..,that's shiong but i like..,haha..,more time to improve ourselves..,haha..,hmm but quite disappointing on the 1st wed training..,vry little pple went for training..,ah ma,ws nu er,samuel,jie wei,yan han,kun zhi,ming zhou,jun kai,wu hao and i-pod marus were the onli few including mi that went lor...,like wat the hell man..Oooo ya,zi xuan and gladice was there for a while..,they toked to ah ma they all,think abt improving and stuff bah..,when i was looking over to their court they were toking in,their faces was like sooo serious then ah ma and nu er's was like abt to explode into tears,hopefully everything is alright...Well aniwae ah ma was especially angry abt the number of people that came for the wed training lor..,cos she wanted to train the year ones..,and sort of this is the time for them to use the courts more lar.,so that we all dun need to hog that much..,haha..,looks like this time it back fired,hopefully the rest of the wed trainings all ok..,hehe...

Well nxt was thurs,everything was normal lar..,waking up early,boring lessons,wat's new..,but aniwae found out that nxt week,we will not b having loads of lessons cos 2 of our lectures will b going for a course for the whole week then their lessons r canceled lor..,like wat the hell..,although yeah was kinda happie but was kinda thinking of the future lor...,later we will b damn packed lor and at that period of time,we mite hab to b preparing for our semestral xams lor..,hopefully all will end well..,i dun wan another worse case senario..,haha...Another thing..,haha..,this is at least a gd thing lar..,cos we hab to plan our class outing asap so we "all" came online and discussed abt it..,was damn fun lor..,think we all bonded abit more..,think we would b a real class soon enough if this continues rite peepz..,haha..,alot of hopes.,pls dun b shattered...Aniwae we kinda decided our class outing le..,cos since our nxt week we will b kinda free,we moved some lecture slots here and there and waaala..,our class outing is on thurs,end class at 10,go JE the swimming complex there to swim till near evening then make our way down to marina bay to hab dinner wif mr goh..,wahahaha..,may everything go well and may all of us get to noe one another better...

Fridae was as typical as ever,but we had no practical cos of our lecturer having this important meeting...,haizz,another make-up,sianzz..,help mi god..,well then had lessons at 11..,lolx was like another class gathering cos all of us met and waited for one another at dover mrt and was late for lessons..,lolx..,jus like 1B/22 last time..,miss u guys again..,after an hour of tutorial was a 3 hr break..,song song..,haha..,so we had lunch together at foodcourt 2..,then after that,some went for gems,mi,both jie yings,ah pek and andrew went to club hse and slack..,haha..,met david there..,then accompanied him to c whether can get squash court keys then start training..,to our disappointment after waiting and chatting for sooo long at foodcourt 5,the guy in charge of the keys to facilities still did not come back,so david went back home while i went back to club hse..,played carrmon wif andrew,ah pek and bai jie ying,close match but andrew and jie ying won..,great game...,nxt fridae play again,ah pek we can trash them..,haha...,after the game ah ma and xiao ai came find us after their gems..,ah ma told mi squash court open le..,so i went and c c..,haha..,samuel they all were there..,sooo gd,end class le..,played a while and played wif samuel..,was another close match..,but due to inconsistency lost..,great match..,mus improve..,by that time needed to go back to class..,so bid ah ma farewell for then..

After classes,met ws nu er cos her class also ended at 6..,then walked to squash court..,trails again..,was like not in the mood after losing to ming zhou when i noe that i can win..,haizz..,won kun zhi,lost to i-pod marcus,ming zhou and won one set out of 3 sets from jie wei..,that was like a miracle..,haha..,then was vry quiet lor,cos kept thinking abt mi match wif ming zhou and other stuff lar..,haizz..,sooo mani stuff troubling..,also got a number of injuries,got them while playing squash think they will heal sooner or later..,ah ma finished her trials and guess she's top of the table..,great job ah ma..,knew u could do it...,all the best to xl and ws..,think u 2 haben finish rite??Aiya all the best to everyone..,think by nxt week will b done..,trials can reallie make people cry sia..,loads happen but if i write here..,will b repeating another time..,but aniwae jia you u all..,dun sad cos u all lost matches or something..,u all can do it..,cheer up..,then when going to end training,zi xuan taught mi how to do proper drives,seems that mi posture not that gd..,now betta le..,and i need to practise that every training..,but hu cares..,it will do mi gd..,haha...After training went back home wif yong qi,angie,alien marcus,nai lin,denise and david...Vry tired...

Sat,woke up at around 7 cos got club training at 9..,and was suppose to meet alien marcus,yong qi,his bro yong hui,david and joshua at serangoon mrt at 8.30..,as usual was early..,nearly waited for abt an hour,they all were late lor..,haha..,aniwae turned out that cos coach was not coming that dae..,onli we all went for training..,found out that hui jie lives there too..,wat a small world..,haha..,then alright lar..,played games..,recored them on video and c where we went wrong..,the biggest problem wif mi is that i always rush mi shots...,mus improve on that,david left half-way cos he has his final year project meeting,so left 5 of us...After that had lunch nearby,then went to PS,go play Xbox..,haha..,cheap sia..,then also vry fun..,haha..,after that yong qi went to watch motor showat expo and the other 2 went off..,so i jus went back home and rot..,haha..,thout alot,then at nite toked to ah ma..,toked alot on the most frequent problem i keep thinking on and finalli came to a conclusion..,to let go,cos if i dun and this continues,we wun b happie,and not that close and some more wif the IVP around the corner,and she most likely being in the team,i dun wan to give her animore stress,later she breakdown again..,so i'm jus gonna b there for u always no matter wat happens,wherever and whenever..,even when u dun need mi..,i wil still b here..,jus wan u to b happie..,at the same time i hab to jia you to forget and get over wif this thing..,i noe i can do it..,dun wanna make ani1 unhappie...

Well that's all i think for this week,look forward to nxt week's entry..,haha..,sooo looking forward to nxt week..,gonna b sooo slack..,hope mayb i can meet up wif the rest of 1b/22...,haha..,aniwae take care peepz..,XuXuBan is praying for the safetly and happiness of those he loves and cares for...5 more days till mi worse training.,shhh.,those hu noe..,haha... *Flying back to his clouds above*

Chapter 56

2005-06-26T20:55:00.000+08:00

*Flying down to earth* It's been a week and nearly the starting of a brand new one..,haha..,not much to sae but like i said hab to come every week to update or else mi blog will look real stagnent..,haha...,well here goes this week's update...

School was as usual lar..,but lucky this week is even week so dun need to wake up and go to school everydae at 8..,if not i will K.O le..,lolx..,hmmm think the 1st 2 daes hab much to sae..,jus normal lor..,go school then go home if not then doing reports and stuff...,oh ya tues during squash training..,trials for the IVP team started and in total for both trainings out of 6 matches i lost 5 and won onli 1..,that proves to show that i need to further improve myself if i wan to enter nxt year's IVP team..,but think it's all a dream jus hab fun in squash lor but when competting dun fang shui..,or else like disrespecting ur oppenent not vry nice..,well ah ma and xue li most pro will enter the gals team for IVP..,as for nai lin and wei sian..,dun think so but dun depressed and disappointed ok u 2..,jus hab fun like wat i sae earlier on..,if u wanna try for nxt yr then mus work hard le..,here's some advice..,nai lin: sometimes when play is play,when serious is serious,dun fool around too much..,i noe kinda stressful but..,that's the way it is..,oh ya and dun swing ur racket too much...As for wei sian: you need to hab much more confidence in urself,everyone of us hab that kinda confidence in u so y can't u??U hab potential jus dun hab the confidence to show it to the rest..,but well no1's perfect so when the time is rite i guess u will show the rest wat r u made of... To ah ma and xue li..,great job so far but dun slacken hor..,u 2 better get into the team and do well..,need training can find mi..,i will gladly help..,hehe...

Well the onli thing i got back in return from tues's training is getting sick due to mi own stupidity lor..,went to jog in the rain then after that go blow under the fan..,no wonder i get sick lar..,haizz..,well hab been sick for the pass few daes till sat afternoon..,haha..,well but on to that later..,wed ended early then had lunch wif wei sian,ah ma and ai lin..,after that i had no where to go so stayed back in school wif wei sian and ah ma cos they got meeting..,accompanied them to business block to get their certs for their previous sem's jap lessons..,at there saw wendy..,she doing her project..,haha..,sooo qiao..,then after they collect,wei sian had to look into some catering stuff so waited there wif ah ma lor..,jus lan there..,haha..,in the end ah ma got mi flu..,sooo sorrie..,hope u getting better le..,if not can get mi back...Soon it was time for their meeting so i went back home lor..,on the way went to action city in bugis to get something for mi frien cindy..,monkey keychain..,after that went back home..,had dinner..,did some stuff for school then went to bed early hoping i would recover the nxt dae...

Guess wat..,it did not happen..,haizz..,think it was worse lor..,went for lessons..,but lucky during our last lesson,mrs yoh let us off early as it was difficult for us to concentrate after 3...,haha..,sooo gd but of cos onli if we understood the lecture..,haha..,so then met fu wen and gang at the mrt and went home together..,muhaha..,been a while since we went home together..,really miss DCP 1B/22 of 2004..,haizz..,lucky we still got some time that we can meet one another...Organise an outing soon hor..,and i dun wanna b the organiser..,can headache de...Well then it was fridae..,did not feel that bad le cos class started at 11 so can sleep for nearly 10hrs..,think had plently of rest lor..,then felt better..,after lessons went for training but did not run cos ended at onli 6 then they were starting trials alreadie.,after trials..,the seniors sent us for some training lar..,wah i did till had a vry bad headache and cos also i did not hab mi dinner yet,sooo i puke lor..,wah mus b more fit le..,think i hab been growing weaker..,haizz..,then bcos of that the nxt dae did not go for club training again..,2nd time le..,this coming week's training definitely mus go le..,i not i will reallie hate myself...,sorrie yong qi and the rest of the members of the club...

Due to not going to training on sat..,stayed at home and did some school work then after that met wei sian for a while to pei her go orchard to find the stuff that she wanted..,a clover necklace at cine and a soft toy bear at taka..,but sad to sae she did not find both..,poor her..,but promised her to look out 4 these 2 items..,then mayb can get for her 1st b4 there is no more again...,ok??So dun upset...After that went to celebrate mi aunt's birthdae..,well an early celebration cos her b'dae is not till nxt tues..,had it at a restaurant at geylang..,not bad lar..,lolx and wei sian was having her MC meeting there too..,haha..,went back home then slack and had tau hui..,also vry qiao nu er and her gang went to mi place nearby to hab tau hui also..,haha...,well after that slack around then went to sleep...Well todae cos mi parents and aunt sae that they wanna go swimming at temesek club so woke up early but we onli left at 10..,then went there but cannot swim cos they were holding a annual children's swimming competition..,sianzz..,sooo played a bit of badminton then went jogging..,after that mi,mi younger sis and youngest bro went to our uncle's hse to swim..,swam and ate there till around 4 reach home..,played abit of mahjong wif mi eldest aunt then had dinner..,now blogging and chatting lor..,haha..,also doing some revision for QAAS test on tues..,1st grp to take it..,sianzz..,hopefully can score well..,i hab to...,1st test... =P

Here's something that i find vry true in wei sian's blog..,about missing someone:
Missing someone is a way of growing up i guess.
It exposes u to loneliness.
It teaches u how to cope with being lonely and let u know that there is actually a feeling known as emptiness.
Sometimes it feels good to miss someone.
U know that u really care and u indulgein thefeeling of loving/caring for him/her.
But missing someone and not knowing if he/she isfeeling the same is terrible.
U feel as if u are being left alone.So if u miss someone, tell him/her and let themknow.
At the same time, ask if they miss u.Don't let the feeling of missing someone become jealousy or paranoid.
If u are the one being missed and u know it, let theother party know.
if u miss him/her too, tell them.Don't let them wait.

It's sooo true..,haizz..,this kinda feeling sometimes sucks..,haha..,but for now..,jus hab to concentrate on mi other trial matches and school work..,but i still wished that i knew how u feel and think,so that i can make you more happy in any way i can...Well that's all for this week,quite a long entry..,well wat can u xpect...,a week's entries in one..,haha..,well aniwae take care peepz..,XuXuBan is praying for the happiness and safety of those that he care and love for... (^_^) *Flying back to his clouds above*

Chapter 55

2005-06-13T22:27:00.000+08:00

*Flying down to earth* Hey Hey peepz..,long time since i came online to blog..,it's been a while so did anyone miss mi???Hope so..,well hab not been blogging cause due to the same usual reasons..,busy,no time(which is the same),no mood but most of the time is lazy so pls forgive mi yeah?? :D

Hope everyone has been doing fine..,well i have,i think..,still single..,haha..,it's a new year,well meaning poly year,now i'm in year 2,kinda senior le and definitely more busier..,dunno how wei sian nu er and ah ma blog everyday..,think it's a habit..Anyway now in a new year,got into mi last option which i did not really like,polymer together wif jie ying,ai lin and mark..,the new class though not the same as the last is still ok...,jus need to know them a little better i guess..,haha..,but wat i reallie hate about school now is my bloody time table..,it is like sooo screwed up..,odd weeks hab to wake up everydae at 8 then also got 2 daes that i can onli go back at 6..,it's reallie pack lor..,lucky mi weds r still intact..,free from everything...Miss the 22 peepz..,it's really not the same..,haizz...But life must go on..

Something new..,joined an outside squash club..,hoping to get better if not quit lor..,aniwae the place we trained is at a condo called cherryhill nearby serangoon mrt..,a little far but so far it's not bad...,haha..,aniwae being taught by robino..,a gd coach..,really hope i can become better..,haizz..,mi pocket is reallie tight now..,onli outcome no income..,alreadie broke but still surviving..,hope to get a job but no time and energy to do so...Jus played squash todae to train ah ma for her match in the dunno wat tornament tomorrow..,all the best ah ma,u can do it.. (^_^)..,but dunno why hab been getting reallie tired these few daes..,mayb still in holidae mood or mayb it's jus the weather..,too hot..,so wat to do..,Zzzzz lor..,haha...

Getting tired now and tomorrow school starts at 8 so i guess going to sleep already..,try to blog as often as possible..,but definitely 1-4 times a month..,so it's like a weekly update...,haha..,hope those peepz of mine that has been bugging mi to update r happie..,well aniwae XuXuBan is still praying for the happiness of those that he love and care for.. *Flying back to his clouds above*

Chapter 54

2005-03-29T21:55:00.000+08:00

*Flying down to earth* So wat hab mi peepz been doing todae??Had fun??Haha..,wat's up peepz..,XuXuBan is back from reality to his own world to tok abt his dae todae..,well quite a rainy dae todae but after that was sunny..,quite tired at the end of the dae..,well now for the details...

Woke up at 8++,then bathed and cleaned up..,packed the rest of mi squash and studying stuff into mi bag..,had a little breakfast..,well onli a cup of milo..,then walked to the mrt station..,took the same old road...,haha..,well then take the mrt to school lor..,on the train while listening to mi mp3 in mi hp..,i received sms from ah ma saying that she will b late cos her papa was toking to her...Well reached dover at 9.40,20mins early from the time we were suppose to meet,so i sat at the spot that wei sian nu er usually sit when waiting for her frienzz..,to make it easier for all the rest to c where i was..Received an sms from nai lin saying that he will b coming to play but will b late..,haha..,cool sia..,thout i was gonna b the onli guy then will b bored...Ah ma then reached exactly at 10..,not late sia..,haha..,then waited for wei sian nu er for a while and also called xue li cos she did not reply ah ma yesterdae...,turned out that both of them jus woke up so will b late..,then mi and ah ma went to the squash courts 1st lor..,went to get the key for the squash courts on the way...Actually wanted to buy some breakfast on the way..,then forget cos was toking abt the jian gui 10 wif ah ma...,so neber mind then go play squash lor...One court each..,haha...

After a while..,nai lin came,asked her to get mi some breakfast but did not manage to buy wat i wan..,onli got mi bottle of mineral water..,so sadz..,but wat to do..,dun hab so dun hab lor...Denise and marcus came and they played for a while wif us b4 going for revision..So left wif the 3 of us..,but soon came wei sian nu er..,then 4 of us lor..,played a game wif nai lin...,2 sets out of 3 cos i won both..,9-1 and 9-3..,nai lin u can do it..,jus need to concentrate more..,jia you..Then after that do mi own drills..,did the forehand and backhand drives that jun kai thout mi..,getting the hang of it..,also did court sprints..,but onli 3 sets..,stamina getting worse..,mus do more le..,haizz..,b4 training resumes after the xams...,mus jia you..Nai lin left around 11++ cos aron and his other frien going to nai lin's place to study..,so hab to leave early..,haizz ps mi lor..,some more i had to accompany him to the toilet to watch over his stuff while he bathe..,then later i hab to follow him to find CRS teacher..,ended up she was not in..,sianzz..,but it's ok lar nai lin..,u owe mi..,haha...Lastly xue li came at 12 o'clock and i did not tell her that we leaving at 2..,but she found out and was kinda disappointed..,but we made full use of that 2hrs..Played king but i was sort of "fierce" dunno wat's wrong wif mi..,sorrie yeah ah ma,xue li and wei sian nu er..,think bcos a little sianzz cos nai lin not there to train wif mi..,so not used to it..,haha..,can sae that he is a part of us le..,so wifout him kinda strange...Happie anot nai lin... =P

Bathed at 2+ and cos nai lin left early nobody to watch over mi stuff while i bathe so i left mi things wif ah ma,wei sian nu er and xue li..,while i bathe..,then when go out met jie ying cos later we going boon lay mac to study together..,they bathe finish le then we went to look for Mr Jeffrey Whey and Mrs Tan for our results for CRS and Apchem..,jie ying and wei sian nu er went off 1st cos wei sian nu er's bro's b'dae todae then she getting something at JP..,so left mi,ah ma and xue li,we went to Mr Whey's office 1st..,not bad..,did ok lar..,mus work harder if i wanna get into IC..,mus do it..,then bcos of the mip reports that went missing..,mi and ah ma went to the com lab at lib and do wat we needed to hand in while xue li did the survey for the lectures that we had to do..,had loads of stuff missing..,so stayed there for like 2hrs lor..,print apchem past year papers also..,then rushed off to c the teacher..,and we found out that he found it le..,argh..,wasted all our time when we could hab been at boon lay mac studying le..,was kinda pissed..,but nvm lar...Some more i told Mrs Tan that we were going to c her like b4 we went to the lib..,wah made her wait for 2hrs.,so paiseh..,then rushed there check all the marks..,sign then off we go le...Oh ya got some chocs from Mrs Tan cos last time we going to c her..,haha..,tomorrow need to distribute to the rest..,haha..,hopefully got enough cos i sorta gave xtra to xue li and ah ma..,xue li cos she hungry then ah ma is later when she studying can take a break..,also can share wif wei sian nu er they all...

In the end i did not go study cos i was not going to stay for long then kinda a waste going sooo far and not studying much..,sorrie arh...Nxt time wun like that le..,reached home..,bathe watched tv..,read some Apchem cos the 1st xam is that sub..,then watched mi youngest bro's frien's naruto..,haha..,onli 3 disc..,mayb another time watch the remaining 3..,haha...Now chatting online and blogging lor like usual...

As long as when i get to b alone..,mi mind starts thinking of all those stuff..,wat a headache..,dunno when will i ever stop thinking..,mus stop for a while especially at this time when the xams r around the corner..,still miss the old daes..,when we laugh alot and tok alot..,but for now jia you for the xams and take care of urself..Big Huggies...

That's all for todae..,so take care peepz and may tomorrow b a better dae for all of us..,hope wun rain tomorrow cos we r going to east coast park to enjoy ourselves and also hab dinner at mei shan's dad stall..,haha..,chilli sotongs and other seafood..,pls dun let it rain..XuXuBan is praying for the happiness of those important to him..,keeping the faith in him..,hanging on... *Flying back to his clouds*

Chapter 53

2005-03-28T21:47:00.000+08:00

*Flying down to earth*Heyo peepz..,XuXuBan is back from reality to tok abt his dae..,well sort of 2 daes..,haben been blogging for the past 2 daes...,well cos no time to blog and sometimes lazy..,so now blogging for both..,jus try to summarize them..,haha..,well here goes nuthing...

2 daes ago: Nuthing much happen..,let's c..,oh ya well woke up at around 10am in the morning cos i thout that wei sian nu er was coming to mi hse to study at 12 while fu wen kor and nai lin will come later lor..,but needed up they all came at the same time..,well not exactly the same time..,jus that they can one after another..,so sadz..,could hab slept more..,haha..,but wat the heck..,so around 1++,near to 2..,cos raining so i went to dhoby gout mrt station to fetch wei sian nu er knowing that she would neber bring an umbrella..,so went there..,fetch her to mi place..,then settle down for a while..,fu wen kor and nai lin came at the same time..,we then started studying for our own test..,wei sian nu er had to study for her ioc test while mi,nai lin and fu wen kor study for our Apchem test..,alright lar..,study halfway i took a nap lor..,too tired i guess..,after which i continue studying a while b4 i finish then we started playing a bit of mahjong..,lastly went to PS nearby the long john's silver to hab our dinner...Then they went home and so did i lor..,then rest for a while..,chatted online and then went to sleep le...

1 dae ago: Also another typical weekend..,stayed at home the whole dae..,study more for Apchem..,then cousins,auntie and mi nephews came to mi hse..,played mahjong wif them..,had dinner..,watched tv,toked to wendy on the phone abt life..,toked on msn then after that went to sleep le..,boring dae it was yesterdae.. =P

Alright now it's for todae..,well had 2 tests for todae..,CRS and Apchem..,so went to school early..,meaning 8+ to go revise for the last time wif tess,jing si nu er,ru long,nai lin and fu wen kor..,study..,had fun,had breakfast at food court 2..,then it was test time..,haha..,was alright lar the test but the qn8 i comfirm wrong le..,still not vry sure how to do..,neber mind tomorrow when go back to school go find him..,hehe...,think ah ma also wan to c him..,ok after Apchem test..,had 1hr of break..,did not eat lor..,went to lib to slack for a while b4 going for the CRS test at LT17b..,haha..,1st time go there..,reach there at 12..,we then found out that the test starts at 1..,haha..,but then we slack some more..,played volleyball wif jie ying's volley ball..,the blow up type...,then 1 o'clock came vry fast..,wat to do when having fun..,time flies...,finish the test around 2.15...

Then mi,ru long and nai lin made a move 1st cos nai lin had to go pray at the temple he usually prays at which is near sommerset mrt..,then went there pray for happiness,safety and stuff lar..,also for other pple..,then rushed to lido cos we as in mi,ru long,nai lin,fu wen kor,shuo lun,cyn da sao,cindy nu er,jie ying,estee,mei shan nu er,winnie and mei zhen alreadie sae go watch ghost 10..,watched it at lido..,damn funnie and scary lor..,but bcos got both not nice..,cos i think ghost show shld b sacry lor..,not both..,haizz..,but overall not a bad show..,so after that ate..,onli mi,ru long and nai lin again..,cos jus now did not hab proper lunch..,cindy nu er had some snack to eat,potato wedges...After eating we went to walk around lor since dunno where to go..,ended up wif the 3 of us again..,walked around again..,bought some things..,ate some snacks..,toked alot then went home lor..,haha..,i bathed and watch tv for a while b4 coming online..,now blogging,chatting online and watching tv at the same time..,muahahahah...

Still hab been thinking alot these 2 daes..,got both happie and sad sides lar..,dunno y..,so confused..,but now i onli can concentrate on mi studies..,for the upcoming xams..,think u also wan to do so..,oh ya sorrie again for not helping u much...Jus hope that u remain cheerful and happie as u can b..,b urself,jus a little bit more confidence..,hab faith that u can enter the option u wanna go to..,believe in urself cos i do..,got thing can find mi though i mite not b ani help..,i still can b a listener...Do ur best...Big Huggies...

That's all for todae..,hope it's ok lar..,well take care peepz and may tomorrow b a better dae for all of us..,think it will b a great dae cos tomorrow going to squash again..,haha..,think last time b4 xams start..,XuXuBan is praying for the happiness of those important to him...*Flying back to his clouds*

Chapter 52

2005-03-25T21:52:00.000+08:00

*Flying down to earth* Hey hey peepz..,XuXuBan is back from reality to write abt his dae..,haha..,todae was a vry tiring dae lar...,think mite sleep early todae...But hu noes..,i mite not..,depends on mi mood later on...,yawnz..,let's get on wif the story...

Well slept at 1am in the morning then woke up around 5.30am..,haizz..,cos needed to go pray for qing ming jie..,that means hab to go pray to mi ancestors and stuff..,onli 4hr 30mins of sleep..,tired sia..But for family everything is worth it lar..,was tired lor..,so kinda moody in the car and stuff..,however everything went alright as usual..,climbed hill for one of mi ancestors..,mi great grand father lar..,then went to 2 other cemetries..,then went for breakfast..,had bing kan lou di..,eggs and prawn mee..,the mee wasn't reallie nice though...,haha...Then on the way home lor..,haizz..,had to bathe and then go out straight away when reach home cos i alreadie give cindy mi word that i will go out wif her todae..,she bored mah..,then long time did not go out and tok to her le...,so went lor..,though quite tired..,but wat the hell...

So made my way to queenstown mrt station..,cos mi uncle was on his way to bras pasah popular book store,he gave mi a ride..,then i took the mrt from raffles mrt..,walked quite a bit..,but it's no big deal..,ended up i was 20mins early and she jus woke up lor..,haha..,so i went to her hse..,then watch a bit of tv b4 she getting readie to go prepare..,so we left her hse around 1pm..,sat the 111 bus to orchard..,dropped off at lucky plaza bus stop and started walking le..,had hot dogs,tori q and tako balls for lunch..,haha..,toked alot wif her,walked alot..,walk all the way from take to cine to herren,post office at orchard point shopping centre there to plaza singapura then lastly anchorpoint where we had dinner wif kc...,haha..,though she did not eat lar..,haha..,sooo mani nice things happen todae...Now reached home..,bathed le..,and now blogging while watching tv..,so sianzz..,not quite a lot of pple online todae..

Elukgnijiyow..,dunnowhetherithashelpedtosoftentheachinginmiheart..,hopefullyitdid.., haizz...,feelingsolow,beenthinkingsooomuch,especiallylastnite.., wonderifanithingwillcheermiupandletmiregainminormalself... Realliewishedtherewassome1thatwouldjusbthereformi...,tohearallmistuff,helpmi, butitseemsthatmostofthetime,ihabbeendoingthisstuff..,sonotreallieeasyforsome1todoso..., anywayitsnotreallieeasy,ivebeenthereb4..,jushopethateverythingwillbalrightintheend.., butfornow..,ijusfeellikerunningawayfromrealityandeverythingrelatedtoit..,haizz..., watswrongwifmi..,reallieisnttherealmi...Pretendingtobmiusualselfisalsovryhardwhenidunfeelmyself... Dididoeverythingwrong..,plsgivemiasigncosiwannanoe...Ifurreadingthisdunworrieitsnoturfault... Big Huggies...

That's all for todae..,dun think i will b sleeping early tonight..,haha..,dunno y bah..,well take care peepz..,may tomorrow b a better dae for all of us...,XuXuBan is praying for the happiness of those important to mi... *Flying back to his clouds*

Chapter 51

2005-03-24T22:02:00.000+08:00

*Flying down to earth* Wadsup peepz..,haha..,XuXuBan is back from reality and into his own world to tok abt his dae...,well todae is not a bad dae i suppose and there's onli 1hr and 50mins more to go..,haizz..,but looking forward to tomorrow...

Well todae woke up around 10++ cos todae onli got one lesson then is the AE&E quiz le..,althought CPPA lecture starts at 1...,we decided to go early to hab lunch together..,we meaning mi,ru long,jing si,mei shan and cindy nu ers,nai lin,fu wen kor,mei zhen,winnie and estee..,as usual fu wen kor was late while dunno y mei zhen also late..,so when the rest of us reached dover,we left for food court 4 as we agreed on yesterdae..,cyn da sao,xue li,ah ma,jie ying and ai lin not joining us as they r studying in the lib...So we reached food court 4 and man was it packed..,lucky we found space jus enough for the 10 of us..,all except nai lin ate jap..,not bad lar the rice bowls..,for the udon,u can ask ru long..,haha..,well there's always a first time for anithing..,so take it easy yeah ru long..After lunch went for CPPA lecture lor..,she went thru the last 2 qns for the test then after that teach us a little of AE&E..,wah she damn pro lor..,everything also noe..,but too bad i dun understand..So off to the lib to study for the AE&E quiz lor..,asked fu wen to teach for a while then revise by ourselves..,wah got loads of info needed to remember..,then study study study till 5 lor then went to the classroom that we were suppose to go for our test..

2nd time we sat in the same room for test..,meant class 1A/22 and 24..,haha..,quite alright the test..,but we all knew that we pass le..,but if wanna do well mus do well for this test lor..,did not noe how to do the last 2 parts of the last qn.,sianzz..,but i tried mi best..,that's all that matters...,after test went straight home lor..,cos no more money.,haha..,and quite sianzz lor..,nxt mondae going out wif the class le so this weekend mus stay in to study for the xams..,haha..,sooo looking forward to mondae..,going to watch jian gui 10..,ghost show..,so nice..,well leave that to monday..,tomorrow mus go and pray to mi ancestors early in the morning so mus wake up early tomorrow..,dunno whether ah ma wanna play squash tomorrow..,hope wan..,then i can relieve some stress as well...

Dun reallie wanna argue abt anithing..,or tok anithing..,but jus wanna sae that as long as u happie can le lor..,even if it's not mi to b the one beside u to keep u company..,cos u said that there's no chance..,dunno whether it's true anot..,but dunno y..,i still believe..,how come u can't..,different thinking bah...Dunno how to let go..,mayb i jus dun wan..,but i reallie dunno y...,haizz...Big Huggies...

That's all for todae..,gotta sleep real soon and escape reality..,well take care peepz..,may tomorrow b a better dae for all of u..,hopefully mi dae will b better as well..,XuXuBan is praying for the happiness of those important to mi... *Flying back to his clouds*

Chapter 50

2005-03-23T22:04:00.000+08:00

*Flying down to earth* Aloha peepz..,how has ur dae todae??Anywae it's that time again when XuXuBan comes to talk abt his dae,anithing interesting happening or wat so ever..,haha..,well wat can i sae.,reality reallie stressful lor..,haizz..,aniwae on wif mi story for todae...

Well todae woke up at around 8.55 and rushed to bathe and wash up cos i was suppose to meet mei shan nu er,jing si nu er and mei zhen early todae..,especially mei shan and jing si nu ers..,cos i usually meet them earlier like 30mins b4 our actual time at raffes mrt...Then rushed to bugis mrt and was lucky to board the nxt train..,haha..,met them and headed for school..,some more at raffles..,thout they could c mi le..,neber did i expect them to b sooo blur that i had to walk out and show them it's time to go..,haha..,mayb it's the story that jing si nu er was telling mei shan bah..,too interesting..,haha..Reached dover mrt around 9.57 then needed to wait for mei zhen..,she was late for 5mins..,haha..,sort of scolded her bah..,but jus for fun lar.. =P After the so-called scolding we headed for the business block where our GEMS teacher is lar..,went to find her to c whether we can retake our test..,and after climbing all the steps cos it's on a hill..,she was not there lor..,so left her a note and went to food court 2..,all the way to the other side of campus where we study lor..,we talked and laugh alot on the way down..,then had "breakfast" at macs..,onli thing was that we had xtra value meals instead of the breakfast meals..,cos no more le..,i had double mcspicy burger meal while mei shan nu er had fish mac dippers meal and mei zhen had an apple pie and ice lemon tea...Jing si nu er did not eat..,kope some fries here and there..,haha..,we then headed for MIP tutorial at t4A..,quite early the few of us..,cos we did not wait for the rest...

During MIP tutorial,Mrs LKY did not hab her PMS lar..,was kinda nice..,then gave us pass year xams for us to do..,quite simple bah..,discuss the qns wif shuo lun and learnt a few things that i missed out during lesson..Then the bad news came..,Mrs Fok,our GEMS lecturer called mi and i asked whether we can retest..,then she sae cannot cos we got invalid reason and that she was not in charge..,but she will ask the director and c whether we can retake but most prob is gone le lor..,but we pass le lar for GEMS..,but not that ideally...,sianzz..,spoil our mood..Classes ended after MIP tutorial..,onli one hr again..,haha..,cindy nu er,mei shan nu er,mei zhen,estee,winnie,ah ma,xue li,cyn da sao,nai lin,tess and shuo lun and mi went to food court 1 to hab something to eat..,while ru long and fu wen kor went to the lib 1st to study AE&E for the test tomorrow..,did not hab anithing to eat..,same for mei shan and mei zhen..,we all drank while the rest ate..,saw jun kai,i-pod marcus,felicia and her gang..,all from squash..,miss those squash daes..,after xams then can play..,well actually can still play but dun think i will..,mus concentrate on studies...Ailin came along half-way..,did not go for MIP tutorial but cos of her GEMS got presentation that's y come..,haha...

After lunch..,went to the lib basement where we all studied while some went for their GEMS..,study study and study AE&E..,some of the chapters i can le..,but some still dunno..,tomorrow think will go early to study lor..,haha...Waited for tess to finish so that we,meaning her,mi,ru long and elaine can go c Vicky,lao chu nu..,abt CYA stuff...,wah she talked alot lor..,talk can talk for 2hrs lor..,abt all sort of stuff...,told her that i was gonna quit CYA le..,then she ask mi to write an e-mail to her..,so ok lor..,mayb later or some other time i write..,then after that went to collect mi AE&E book cos i forgot to take it back in the lib when rushing to meet vicky..,sorrie kor for making u wait sooo long..,and thanx jing si nu er...Went back wif ru long...,talked on the train abt CYA and other stuff..,then got off at mi stop and went home lor..,on the way bought ice-cream and eat..,haha..,sooo nice..,then reach home and watched some tv b4 having dinner..,after dinner watch a while more..,study AE&E again then now blogging lor...

Missed the chance to c u in formal dressing..,sianzz..,haha..,nxt time bah..,aniwae congrats on getting A for ur presentation..,knew u can do it..,haizz..,dunno wat to sae..,everything i sae is abt the same like the past few entries lor..,that all i wan is to b wif u and stuff..,to b there for u..,make u happie,but dunno whether is it possible anot..,can u give mi a chance to do so..,hope there is still this chance..,but for now u jus concentrate on the xams coming up..,we all need to do well...Big Huggies...

That's all for todae..,and i also wanna sae that this is mi 50th entry..,haha..,nxt target..,100..,not that big..,but alright to mi lar..,take care peepz and may tomorrow b a better dae..,XuXuBan is praying for the happiness of those important to him... (^_^) *Flying back to his clouds*

Chapter 49

2005-03-22T22:35:00.000+08:00

*Flying down to earth* Hey peepz...,how's life??Doing alright i hope..,well those hu r suffering loads of stress due to tests,xams..,watever shit lar..,take care of urself yeah..,u all can do it..,XuXuBan is back to tell abt his dae todae..,and also yesterdae cos forgot to blog lar..,was kinda late in getting back home...

Well start from yesterdae bah..,yesterdae started wif apchem..,forgot to do the tutorial so was kinda blur in the 1st few moments..,but after that understand everything lor..,last dae of apchem lesson..,mr whey was not looking too alright lar..,think he sick...,last dae that he sees us gets sick..,well not reallie the last dae,cos nxt mondae still got his quiz..,so will c him bah..,take care yeah...After Apchem,cos it ended early..,went to foodcourt 1 to hab lunch..,had tomato pasta wif mushrooms and hot dog..,not bad lar..,dun quite like the creamy chicken..,cos dunno y when i eat too creamy stuff..,will feel like vomitting..,well aniwae after stuffing ourselves..,my CRS group rushed to the lib to book a discussion room and then we discussed abt our presentation lor..,discuss alot..,then after that headed for CRS..,was the 1st grp for the 2 grps presenting that dae..,not bad lar..,loads of "discussion"...,everyone was shooting here and there..,haha..,quite fun lar..,after CRS cos it's salleh's b'dae and he going to hab meeting in school at 5-7..,decided to stay in school wif tess and jing si nu er...,went to book coms in lib..,stayed there for around 2 hrs b4 salleh came..,then accompanied him to club hse b4 heading to orchard to meet mi other sec frienz hu's going to help him celebrate..,meet them then soon went back to holland village's swensen's to celebrate..,had a great time there..,in the end around 10++ reach home..,haha..,nxt time let's do something like that again yeah???

Now for todae..,hmmm,was suppose to meet mei shan nu er,shuo lun and mei zhen at 8.30 to play badminton but woke up slightly late..,met them at 8.45..,then played a while b4 CPPA tutorial started at 10..,came for school for onli one lesson lor..,went thru our test papers..,did alot of careless mistakes lor..,sigh..,hopefully during xams i wun do the same thing..,haizz..,after that mi and shuo lun accompanied tess to go find vicky quek,lao chu nu..,sianzz sia..,toked wif her and stuff..,damn sianzz..,tess got out of CYA le..,then we tomorrow still hab to go c her to discuss abt our expedition..,dreadful sia..,also found out that we missed our GEMS test..,how careless,tomorrow going to find our lecturere and ask whether we can retest..,after that everyone,meaning ah ma,jie ying,mei shan nu er,mei zhen,estee,ai lin,cyn,fu wen,mark,shuo lun and nai lin came to mi hse to revise ae&e..,haha..,got loads of shou huo...,i revised finish GEMS while mei shan and mei zhen haben..,the rest of them sort of understand the remaining chapters of ae&e,the chapters that we will b having for test...,this thurs..,sianzz..,i not reallie sure lor..,haizz...Think tomorrow after mip lesson if no GEMS test..,will study for it bah...May tomorrow b a gd dae...

Fariy tales are not true??Is that true..,can the love in fairy tales not b found in this world??Not reallie sure abt it..,but i think there is always a chance that there is..,cos i believe..,like the way i believe in u..,to b able to overcome all these obstacles and smile,being ur cheerful self..,if u ever fall down and cry,pls let mi noe..,i wanna b there for u..,to cheer u up...,to b able to lend mi shoulder for u to cry on and finally wipe ur tears and sae,everything is gonna b alright..,that's my wish for now..,dunno will it bcome a fairy tale or anot..,haha..,hope bah..

Think that's all for todae..,write in tomorrow..,so take care peepz and may ur tomorrows b much better than todae..,XuXuBan is praying for the happiness of those important to him... *Flying back to his clouds*

Chapter 48

2005-03-20T21:45:00.000+08:00

*Flying down to earth* Muhahaha..,XuXuBan is back from yet another boring dae in reality..,haha..,came back to blog abt how his life has been for this dae...So let's not waste time and start le..

Was woken up by the noise in the house at 11..,well mi dad was kinda scolding mi younger bro and sis for some reasons lar..,then so i woke up,cleaned up,packed the bed and went to hab breakfast..,at breakfast..,cos i was taking mi iron tablets which the blood donation drive gave to mi to eat to replenish the blood..,then mi father was telling mi not to eat too much..,then i sae i noe..,but i guess i said it in the wrong tone then he went off scolding mi lor..,sianzz..,early in the morning get scolding le..,well then had breakfast and read the newspapers...Began tutoring mi younger siblings..,mi sis and youngest bro as they hab important xams this year..,one habing PSLE while the other habing sec 2 streaming..,so hab to coach them...The great thing is i get paid..,haha..,not alot lar..Tutor them for around 2hrs while myself revise mi AE&E cos got test this coming thurs and there's alot of chapters to b tested...,so hab to start early....

After tutoring..,went to use the com..,mi younger bro,the one waiting for posting for their O levels..,went to work again..,so went to use the com and chatted wif tess aka bah bah and nai lin..,toked loads of stuff..,fakkiee..,chalet,ghost and movies..,haha..,also helped wei sian nu er wif her rwp..,poor her sia..,dun understand how come we last sem not that busy and now she sooo busy..,jia you nu er...,lao pa is here to help u if u need it...A while later..,mi two little nephews,cousin and aunt came to mi hse...Long time did not c ryan,the much younger nephew..,but dunno y todae he like to cry sooo much..,dun let mi carry him or anithing lor..,haizz..,sooo sad..,but think that it will not last long bah..,mayb nxt time he will like mi to carry and play wif him..,haha...dunno when will that come though =P So played mahjong wif them..,did not win much lar..,then played the com..,watched tv..,had dinner together at home..,had loads of stuff...After dinner..,watched a bit more tv and mi cousin,aunt and nephews went home le..,so now using the com and blog lor..,well to b specific mi aunt's com..,cos mi younger bro is back from work..,haha...Well quite a boring dae lar todae..,luckily tomorrow is the start of a whole new week..,hehe...Oh ya tomorrow is mi brother salleh's 18th b'dae..,so i wish u happie 18th b'dae in 2hrs advance bah..,dunno whether celebrating tomorrrow..,if we r then most prob going holland village's swensens to eat..,treat him..,haha...,now more looking forward to tomorrow...

Though i sae that i will b there for u always..,i somehow feel so useless..,to b unable to relieve ur stress.,or at least lighten ur burden..,dunno how to do so..,trying my best...Wish i could b a breeze that can blow all ur troubles away..,vry tian zhen rite??All i can do now is jus help u in aniwae and also pray that u will b happie always..,always ur cheerful self..,not crying...Jia you...Big Huggies...

Think that's all for todae..,tomorrow will b a much better dae to blog..,haha..,take care peepz..,XuXuBan is praying for the happiness of those important to him... (^_^) *Flying back to his clouds*

Chapter 47

2005-03-19T21:46:00.000+08:00

*Flying down to earth* Wat's up pple..,haha..,XuXuBan is back from reality and now coming down from his clouds to write abt his dae..,well nuthing much happen lar..,typical weekend..,damn sianzz lor..,but jus blog lor..,so dun find it hard to believe that i blog vry little todae..

This morning slept around 1 lar..,then woke up at 8.20 cos i needed to go to the temple in toa payoh..,Shuang Lin Shi..,the one that mi mum and grandmother always ask mi and mi siblings to go to pray for studies and stuff..,so cleaned up and changed mi clothes..,cos mi youngest bro was also going wif us..,he also woke up early.,watched tv together for a while..,cos nuthing better to do so watch Kids Central..,well kinda still like cartoons but animations are better especially japanese ones..,haha...So yeah,around 9++ went down and got into the car and drove to toa payoh...As my parents did not hab a proper breakfast due to an early appointment..,we went to a hawker centre near the temple..,they ate while mi and mi youngest bro shared a ice milo..,haha..,the hawker centre and temple is nearby tess's hse..,haha..,if u read this think u shld noe where it is..After breakfast went to pray lor..,as unsual...,burn joysticks and pray to the gods..,pray to one specific god..,not the wen chang shi.,think is guan yu..,cos got different statues of him..,the one i pray to is the one holding a book..,after that burn the offerings..,then went to chou qian..,not a bad one bah..,but important is that i need to work hard lor..,then i will get results..,think it concerns mi options bah..,so hab to work hard for this xam...

After that cos mi youngest bro was not feeling well due to over tiring his body yesterdae when he went to play at mi uncle's hse..,ten went home lor..,think he fall sick le..,down wif gastric and stuff..,nxt time dun force urself to play too much yeah kuang..,take care of yourself..,played a little mahjong cos mi little sis wanted b4 mi parents go out for another appointment in the afternoon..,ok lar..,then wei sian nu er ask mi go watch soccer match in school..,since sooo sianzz then went lor..,the match starts at 3 but i reached dover at 4 and waited for her to come from jp's lib as she had to do her IDEAS stuff wif her grp mates..,when she reached went to watch the soccer match lor...It was a match between her club,CSCC against the environment and design club..,cos she dun reallie noe the rules of soccer,so xplain to her while we watched the game..,haha..,long time neber watch soccer le..,still prefer squash and basketball..,soccer is alright onli..,haha...At the end of the match,sad to sae her club lost...,but we onli watched around 30mins of it..,after that we went to the squash court to go c the united condo club play..,our senior nicholas is there as he is in the club and we watched them play lor..,so much better than us.,and some much younger..,we picked up some pointers on how to improve lar..,taught wei sian nu er how she can improve also..,but soon cos she sae she tired due to sleeping at 4am this morning and waking up at 11..,onli 7hrs of sleep..,she wanted to go home and do her reports le..,so we headed to the mrt station..

At mrt station cos we a little hungry s went to the small provision shop there to get some snacks..,ate on the train..,send her back to boon lay mrt but not ani further cos she sae will gen wo jue jiao..,haha..,always using the same thing to threaten mi..,but nvm lar..,so went home lor..,then the stupid thing was that on mi way back home..,i dozed off in the train and missed mi stop by 2..,and ended up in kallang when i awaken..,took the train back to bugis then went home lor..,reached home had to go out again to hab dinner..,went to fetch mi aunt from her place..,got to c mi cute nephew..,then went to tanglin mall to eat..,after that came back and now blogging lor..

In this busy world..,where we are all trying our best to finish our stuff and accomplish our goals..,i will always make some time to b there for u,to help u or jus to b wif u..,and this offer stands not onli for todae but forever...Another 2 weeks and our xams will start..,we will b quite busy..,but hopefully that after the xams will get to spend more time even if it's vry little i wun mind at all..,but jus take care of urself yeah..Big Huggies...

That's all for todae..,wah..,quite alot..,think i got into too much detail le..,haha..,neber mind lar..,then got more things to read lor..,reallie dislike weekends..,cos there's nuthin much to do..,so looking forward to nxt week le..,haha..,till the nxt dae which is another 1hr and a half more to go..,take care peepz... (^_^) XuXuBan is praying for the happiness of those important to him... *Flying back to his clouds*

Chapter 46

2005-03-18T22:05:00.000+08:00

*Flying down to earth* Aloha peepz..,had a lovely dae todae???Aniwae XuXuBan is back to blog abt how his dae went todae...Quite a lovely nite it is tonight..,got loads of stars..,but in Singapore not reallie that nice cos everywhere the lights also vry bright cannot c much...,aiya back to todae..,haha...

Well todae woke up around 9+ though todae no school but hab to go to school much later in the evening for mi CPPA quiz..,b4 that..,mi,nai lin,ah ma and xue li decided to come to school to play a little of squash then after that go study a little bit more for CPPA...Woke up and rushed to school cos i thout i will b late lor..,then reach there jus on time of our meeting time at dover which is 9.45..,in the morning ah ma sms mi le sae she will b late and xue li will not b joining us..,asked y then found out that xue li this morning 2am sms ah ma telling her that she wun b going cos she still haben study finish..,c lar xue li..,mus learn how to study b4 hand kk..,dun reallie blame though in school i keep saying u..,haha =P So when nai lin came we went off 1st,went to food court 5 to hab a small breakfast 1st..,nai lin had zinger "meal" while i had a hot dog bread from CO-OP...,eat a while then slack for some time cos the person in charge of the keys was not there..,then went ah ma come kinda sae her lar..,haha..,dun blame u lar and ya u did alot le..,always booking courts for us...,she asked mi whether i got bring wei sian's racket cos she's coming..,lolx..,lucky i bring cos i told wei sian nu er that i will bring for her todae...,even though she mite not play lar..,heng i got bring..,haha but bcos she finished her ppt slides for her part she came and play lor but meet us later..,so i went to collect key lar.,and some more is from that guy that ah ma and nai lin sae keep scolding them..,haha..,but he neber scold mi leh...After that rushed to squash court and changed...

Did some stretching b4 going into the courts and play..,haha...,vry long did not touch mi racket le..,so did forehand and backhand strokes..,tried to do the way jun kai asked mi to do..,did around 100 of those each b4 playing game wif nai lin..,during mi stroking time..,wei sian nu er came and she stroke in the same court wif mi while nai lin played game wif ah ma...,b4 playing wif mi..,by the time nai lin come play wif mi game..,marcus and joshua came by..,they wanted to play lar...,haha..,expected..,hu dun wan sia..,think all of us addicted to squash le..,but it's fun lor...,muahhahaha..,won nai lin lar..,but he getting more serious le..,think he also dun like keep losing during our laddering which haben reallie finish lor...,gd for u...Zi xuan also came..,let him stroke a while cos he also like us neber play for quite some time le..,after which we played king together..,fun lar..,though got some "accidents"..,funni but also some quite painful..,nai lin got one time tried to return mi service then did not consider to call "let" when he was sooo close to wei sian nu er..,that he hit her lor...,take care of that wound hor nu er...And nai lin..,watch out of the situation b4 u swing..,u dun wanna hurt anione rite???

Around 2..,we stopped though ah ma did not..,she kinda..,how u sae..,not that normal lar..,haha..,then wei sian nu er tell mi that bcos this is the last time she will b playing squash till the xams r over..,so she wanna play until vry shuang..,haha..,hope u had ur fun ah ma..,if not then wait until xams over..,sun zi will play wif u..,i also hab to stop squashing for some time..,cos xams another 2-3 weeks time le..,mus start to mug...Ah ma played the last game wif mi b4 we all headed for the showers..,haha..,bathed le then we went to food court 5 again to hab lunch..,met shuo lun there again..,cos during squashing he came and ask us for admin cards to book a room for studying later..,we had kfc this time..,ordered alot and ended up wei sian nu er and ah ma cannot finish their's so mi and nai lin helped in lar..,haha..,nai lin has a big appetite..,but dun stuff urself too much nxt time..,met fu wen kor and cyn da sao also but they headed off to the lib b4 we finished..,we were soooo bloated lor after eating sooo much..,then we walked to the lib..,found fu wen they all..,and studied..,wei sian nu er cos she got class from 3-5 left us soon...,then study study study and clear our qns lor..,after that then went for the quiz..,alright lar..,but some marks i noe gone le..,haizz..,hopefully i will do quite well for this....

The test ended at 6.20 then mi,ru long,nai lin,mark,mei shan nu er,mei zhen,ai lin and estee went off to holland village to hab dinner while fu wen kor and cyn da sao went to attend a guitar concert,his frien performing..,then xue li and ah ma went home..,jie ying and shuo lun had to go for songs prac..,then jing si nu er also got stuff for her club bah..,so left we few..,had the la mian again..,tried something different todae..,had the chicken curry la mian..,not bad..,but the bad point is got loads of bones..,if no bond and more meat it will b much better..,finished dinner and chatting around 8 b4 we walked to buona vista mrt station to take the mrt go home..,reached home..,bathe then watched the last episode for the 9 o'clock chinese show on channel 8..,everyone had a happie ending..,typical..,but there can not b another ending that fits sooo well..,haha..,and now blogging lor while chatting online also..,had such a fun dae..,hope tomorrow will b much better...

Still as busy as ever u r..,cos due to the reports and ppt that u hab to do..,jia you yeah..,though i wanna help u wif it..,think u will not like it...,if it was mi,i wun cos i would rather do it myself..,at least i achieved something..,think that's how u feel as well..,but if u need help u can find mi yeah...When tired mus rest..,later fall sick then even worse..,wonder will it b a cloudless nite tonight..,perhaps i can look upon the stars,thinking of u at the same time pray that u will smile always...Big Huggies...

Another 1hr and 10 mins b4 a new dae arrives..,well that's all for todae..,haha..,hope that tomorrow will b a better dae for all of us..,XuXuBan is praying for the happiness of those important to him... =D *Flying back to his clouds*

Chapter 45

2005-03-17T22:57:00.000+08:00

*Flying down to earth* HiHi peepz..,XuXuBan is back from his clouds to tok abt how "interesting" his dae has been..,count down to nxt dae is 1hr..,so mus hurry write le..,haha..

Well todae everyone had to go to school..,muhaha..,then 1stly was MIP lecture which was sort of presentation lar..,for mi grp and the other remaining 3 grps for our CA abt materials application lor..,but b4 that we had a short lecture lar jus to finish up wat's left..,dunno y but i think MIP is the most boring lesson lor..,think that's y i chose polymer as mi last choice for mi options for yr 2...,hope i get into IC or FOOD..,pls...Haha..,aniwae at during lecture dunno wat's wrong wif that LKY..,she habing PMS har???like everything also blame us..,think it's bcos of some one complain abt her bah...,keep scolding us..,sianzz...,but after a while it was presentation time..,haha..,not bad lar...,overall a vry gd job done guys..,haha..,fu wen,jing si nu er and ru long...

After that lesson ended a little late lar..,ru long went to donate blood 1st cos he going to meet his frienz after school..,jie ying accompanied him while the rest of us went to eat at food court 1..,had chicken rice todae..,vry filling cos plus chao shao,tou fu and ru tan...,haha..,then chatted wif gang for a while then go for CPPA lecture..,she went thru the past sem's papers wif us..,now kinda understand much more better..,though not vry confident wif tomorrow's test will try mi best...,haizz...,hope can do well..,jing si nu er u can do it..,noe u can...

Classes then ended and mi,fu wen,mark,shuo lun and nai lin went to donate blood at SAS there..,accompanied by jie ying,cyn and ai lin..,jing si nu er was there for a while onli...But wif their support and company everything went well lar..,haha..,met marcus and denise from squash coincidentedtly..,they also went to donate blood but end up onli marcus cos denise got low blood pressure..,nxt time eat more hor..,then can donate le..,haha..This time like last time..,i can onli donate mi blood plasma cos i got G6PD..,sooo sianzz...,mi blood type is A+...,same as fu wen..,haha...Dunno y shuo lun sooo scared of this kinda things..,haha..,always lar him..,but after the thing he act tough like that..,cos this time he managed to donate one whole packet of blood wifout not feeling well like last time..,haha..,gd job shuo lun... (^_^) Went to eat a little at food court 5..,they ate kfc while cyn and ai lin bought some stuff at CO-OP...jing si nu er and her lao gong..,sat wif us..,toked a while b4 they went for their meetings..,haha..,not long after..,left for home..,on the way to the mrt station..,met wendy..,she made mi wait to go wif her..,alright lar..,cos not always get to c her and go home together..,but the bad side is that i had to take bus..,and i hab mrt concession..,haizz..,wat to do..,frienz r there for one another..,so bou bian..,haha...

Went home wif her..,got bitten and bashed up..,haha..,jus kidding lar..,had loads of laughs and jokes..,but she got off the bus sooo soon lor..,quite a waste to take bus..,after that sat on the bus..,listen to mi music in mi hp..,dozed off...,lucky woke up jus in time for mi bus stop...,walked home..,had dinner,watched tv..,did some revision..,and now blogging..,at the same time toking to wendy on the phone...,toking abt our lives..,haha...Oh ya..,tomorrow to go play squash in the morning wif xue li,ah ma and nai lin as we got no lessons tomorrow and the test is at 5++..,mayb marcus will come along..,wei sian nu er cannot come and play cos she hab to do her IDEAS ppt..,so sadz..,free u come join us lor...

Everything around mi is still changing...,moving around..,haizz..,but i'm still the same..,but no1 reallie understands..,still carrying that out of love face..,dunno y..,jus hope that everything will b better..,dun wanna go back to the same old path again..,haizz...,it's reallie painful lor...,u vry busy..,so dun think too much abt this..,jus do ur stuff lar..,finish still got xams..,mus do well kk..,u can do it..,i noe u can..,hab confidence in urself and when u got problems can come find mi kk...??Take care of urself as well...,got time go watch movie lor...Big Huggies...

That's all for todae..,i guess..,so take care peepz..,may tomorrow b a better dae for all of us..,XuXuBan is praying for the happiness of those important to him... *Flying back to his clouds*

Chapter 44

2005-03-16T23:22:00.000+08:00

*Flying down to earth* Hey hey peepz..,XuXuBan is back from his clouds to tok abt his life..,well todae was an alright dae bah..,i guess..,so let's get on wif wat happened todae..,onli got 30mins then a new dae le../

Well todae kinda pathetic lar..,onli needed to come for GEMS and todae was the last dae b4 nxt week when we hab our test...,argh sooo scared sia..,hope i will do well..,dun wanna get a D for GEMS..,haha..,aniwae woke up around 9++ cos wanted to catch yesterdae's animation full metal alchemist and wei qi..,how u sae leh..,chinese chess.,u noe the black and white de..,if dun understand then neber mind..,haha..,around 10..,went to bathe and left the hse by 10.45 to go to bugis mrt to take the mrt to buona vista where i was suppose to meet mei shan nu er and mei zhen at 11.30 to go to holland village for lunch b4 going for GEMS...As usual mei zhen is late..,or else y give her the nick slowpoke rite??haha..,but vry surprising is that mei shan was early..,haha...,then passed her dear boys act 2 book 10 & 11 while waiting for mei zhen..,she arrived a few mins later and we headed for holland village...We ate la mian again..,haha cos introduced by wendy mi frien..,so tried out new stuff..,mei zhen's time eating there..,haha..,vry nice and filling..,toked and joked alot..,then we headed for school lor..

At school went for GEMS..,quite fast lar todae cos teacher was teaching the last topic which onli consists of 3 pages lor...,gonna miss seeing her..,haha..,on the other hand wun mind ending early on wed to go home early or go out wif the rest of them..,but i gotta wait one more week cos nxt week still got the test..,haizz..,jus thinking of it scares mi...,haha..,after class onli 2.30++ and was gonna wait for wei sian nu er..,she was going to end at 4++ cos got test..,so i went to club hse 1st wif jian yang..,then hang around the squash court..,marcus was there playing wif his classmates i guess..,then yi min came and we played lor..,got ah ma,xue li and wei sian nu ers' new re-stringed racket..,xue li came and collect while i bring home the rest...,not bad lar..,but i still prefer mine...Played one match wif yi min..,lost cos kinda not used not wearing the proper attire lor...,sianzz..,think the courts will b closed for a while..,think they gonna renovate all of them..,especially the walls..,haha..,but later still will bcome the state it is now in cos of us..,waited till 4.15 like that then met up wif wei sian nu er and headed off to mi hse as she is gonna use mi com to do her stuff due to her crashed com...Fu wen,cyn and nai lin also coming to revise CPPA..,fu wen can teach while the rest of us learn..,haha...

Reached mi hse around 5..,then she started work..,not long after we reached fu wen and cyn came..,waited around and slacked around 1st while waiting for nai lin then can start revision..,after that he came and we started lor..,haha..,wei sian did her reports while we all tok and listen to music while doing revision..,learnt almost every chapter le for the test all except chapter 7 which fu wen will teach mi tomorrow..,haha..,after that we went for dinner at sim lim square..,not bad lar..,haha..,chatted for a while b4 going back for more revision and reports..,oh ya also television..,cos they watched the chinese show on channel 8..,haha..,not bad lar..,but seldom watch these shows..,we also discussed and decided abt which chalet at changi aloha we going to book le..,hopefully this time the chalet more pple will come and stay thus making it b much more fun compared to last time..,then cos wei sian nu er's mum asked her to come back le..,so they left around 10+,sent them to the mrt station then came home by myself lor..,bathe and now blogging lor..,tomorrow class at 10 sia..,can sleep a little more than usual..

How come when i'm wif u..,sometimes i will feel both happie and sad at the same time..,haizzz..,think too much le bah..,wan to forget but can't seem to b able to do so..,some sae that i need time..,wonder wat's that for..,for mi to heal and then get hurt again..,dunno mayb..,but all i noe is though i mite feel hurt and sad plus happie being wif u..,i still wanna b wif u..,to b there to protect u and stuff..,take care of urself..,and jia you..,noe u can do it...Big Huggies...

That's all for todae..,so take care peepz..,hope tomorrow will b a much better dae than todae..,hehe..,XuXuBan is praying for the happiness of those important to him (^_^) *Flying back to his clouds*

Chapter 43

2005-03-15T22:53:00.000+08:00

*Flying down to earth* What's up peepz..,always love coming down from mi clouds to tell everyone abt my dae..,haha..,yes XuXuBan is back...,todae nothing much happen cos we hab been going back home early these few daes due to our finished lessons...Anyway here goes...

Today woke up at 8++ to get readie for school unlike those hu hab gems todae..,hab to wake up at 6++ i guess..,then went to school,met mei shan nu er on mrt at raffles mrt station then travelled all the way to school together..,wah early in the morning got morning flu then dunno y pass to mei shan nu er and since the morning she has been sniffing throughout the whole dae..,sorrie leh..,hope u recover soon..,passed her mi mp3...,sooo gonna miss it..,but reallie alright lar..,cos i can't reallie upload the songs i hab in it's removable harddisk and transfer into mi mp3..,not till i get mi eldest bro new com..,hurry leh bro..,install ur com and pass mi ur's..,muhahaha...,then reached dover and waited for those hu did not hab gems on tuesdae..,late as usual..,then had 2 hrs of APChem lesson..,at 1st was not vry sure wat was going on..,but later on..,all become better e..,understand when mus use wat formula and y le...Quite confident in getting gd marks for mi nxt test..,but cannot b over confident...

After APChem lesson..,jing si nu er went off to meet her lao gong at lavender cos he needed to make his passport..,so pon CPPA tutorial..,went for tutorial wif the rest,this time i sat alone cos usually jing si nu er will sit beside mi..,but alright lar..,was paying attention in class while she went through wat mite come out for the test this fridae..,got the consent form for blood donation..,dunno whether to donate tomorrow or thurs wif the rest of them..,cos i will b coming back for school tomorrow jus for gems as MIP tutorial was cancelled..,sianzz sia..,then the rest dun need to come..,onli thoes hu hab gems on wed hab to come..,all except shuo lun and ai lin cos their gems doing presentation lar..,then they finish le..,haha..,so left mi,tess,mei zhen,mei shan and xue li..,oh ya and not forgetting the mountain...,haizz sianzzz...

After tutorial went to food court 1 again to hab lunch..,sat there and we discussed abt our class chalet after our xams..,cos the holidaes are approaching le and we hab to book soon...,or else poof,our chalet is gone..,decided to go changi le..,but dunno which type we renting...,hoping that this time will b as fun as the last time mi,nai lin,ah ma and xue li go that time..,when we had our squash chalet wif wei sian,sisi and the rest of the team...,damn fun..,get to c shooting starts...,went to pulau ubin to cycle..,not bad lar overall..,onli thing is that changi hospital is close by and it is said to b haunted..,i dunno whether true but it's seems like it...After eating for around 1 hr..,mei shan nu er and gang went off 1st..,then after that is mi,ru long,nai lin,fu wen,cyn,shuo lun,tess and xue li..,shuo lun and tess were staying back for a while..,so left us..,then xue li also going to do some gems stuff..,so went off as well..,left we 3 guys and the loving couple..,haha..,but alright lar...So went back home together...,we 3 guys sat the same line while the other 2 went the other way...

Actually ru long wanted to go out but was not in the mood and sooo little pple so decided not to..,so went home revised some APChem and chatted online wif cindy nu er hu is at school cos of her cca..,and others..,watch a little of tv..,helped prepare dinner wif mi siblings and maid..,had dinner then read some more APChem..,read comics..,oh ya bought book 10 & 11 of dear boys act 2..,jus finish reading 10..,going on to 11..,haha..,mei shan sure kill mi..,then now blogging lor..,haha...

Always c u sad over ur results and loads of other things..,want and tried to cheer u up..,but it's not that simple..,sometimes u jus need to hab confident in urself...,u can do it de..,dun doubt urself..,i dun doubt u...,jus jia you and b as happie as u can b...Big Huggies...

Well that's all folks..,haha learing that ending of looney toons..,sooo lame..,aniwae that's all for todae..,quite long actually cos i wrote loads of details bah..,haha..,take care peepz and may tomorrow b a better dae for all of us...XuXuBan is praying for the happiness of those important to him in his life *Flying back to his clouds*

Chapter 42

2005-03-14T22:45:00.000+08:00

*Flying back down to earth* HiHi peepz..,XuXuBan back from his clouds to elaborate abt wat he has done todae..,haha..,kinda weird right..,but dun always wan the same old sentence over and over again..,so trying something new..,well it's gonna be 11.20pm soon..,lucky school starts at 10 tomorrow..,but not all of us lar..,those hu got gems hab to wake up around 6-7 as their gems starts at 8..,poor things..Well aniwae back to mi day...

Class started todae at 9..,9 O'CLOCK..,that's like sooo early lar compared to the previous mondays as we hab no more practical...,that is like sooo bloody early lor..,and it's all bcos our buddie class discussed wif Mr Jeffrey Whey abt the make up lessons..,and put it on monday 9-11..,wah so hab to wake up early lor..,haizz..,lesser sleep for mi and the rest..Was late as usual and the lesson took place at MLT5A at first..,place was stuffy..,but later the aircon turned on..,when we were getting used to it le..,we had to change place..,walked to MLT1 1st..,but Mr Whey did not wanna wait so we tried T1..,he went to check the room whether avaliable..,but ended up we went back to MLT1..,make us walk around lor..,macham making us do morning PT..,haha..,then had lessons lor..,APChem is my most fav among the other modules lor..,cos vry interesting but dunno for wat reason i cannot score well,weird rite..,but i swear that mi nxt test will score..,muhahah..,Mr Whey,get readie to b shocked...

After the early APChem session,had lunch at food court 1...,had western again..,chicken chop,cheap,gd and large serving..,muhahah..,toked a while and found out that tess had a qing di..,wah damn bitchy lor her..,and she happens to noe mi fake lao po,winnie..,wah scary sia..,but wat for rite??If u can't hab wat u wan..,wat for make things difficult..,CRS was nxt and was at the lib again..,damn shiok..,wah todae Miss Tan wanted all the remaining grps to present our presentation but ended up that onli xue li's grp presenting..,and the topic they did was "Should Singaporeans Employ Foreign Maids??" Wah their presentation was like having a war in the classroom lor..,cos after they present,the rest of us were like "shooting' them on how they present it..,being bias..,blah blah blah..,well to sum up..,their presentation too negative le..,and also they shld not sterotype lor..,can lead to conflicts..,also mus b more presuasive...,ok..,if those that is in xue li's grp like ai lin,xue li,jie ying,cyn and ah ma..,dun get angry hor... (^_^) Then after that my grp which consists on fu wen,tess,jing si,ru long and myself were vry scared that nxt week will happen the same thing,so we r planning to build a "line of defense" meaning to cover up ani loop holes in our presentation..,hope we can succeed...

CRS was the last lesson lor..,so not used to being dismissed sooo early..,usually we would onli b done by 3 or 5..,but we ended at 2..,though not that early,still early,then i was sianzz..,so asked around pple whether they wanted to go out..,ended up,mi,nai lin,ru long,mei zhen and estee going to mei shan's hse..,hahaa...,actually could hab winnie,xue li and ai lin to go..,but ai lin dun wanna so the rest also dun wann..,nxt time bah..,hehe..,reached there around 3..,went to tian di to get dear boys act 2 book 9..,then went to her place lor..,played mahjong there as there was nothing better to do..,that was the longest game of mahjong i had ever played mayb cos due to the 2 so-called "newbies" nai lin and mei zhen playing..,but alright lar..,let them get the basics then nxt time can play much faster..,after that around 5 leave her hse..,on the way...,ru long got another 2 comics from tian di..,then went to toa payoh interchange as he wanted to withdraw money and buy concession..,onli mei zhen,mi and estee accompany him cos nai lin took a bus home..,after that left mi and the 2 gals take mrt home..,haha...Reached home,had some dinner..,slack around and then now bloggin lor...,quite an ok dae..,now waiting for nai lin and fu wen they all to come online...Sooo sianzz...

Dunno y i hab been writing those things for u..,thinking that i mite change ur mind??But in mi mind and heart..,i noe that writing those stuff is like hurting u bah..,dunno wat to do..,wanna forget but it's difficult..,though i sae i will try..,it's not as easy as saying it..,haizz...But my promise to b there for u to listen to ur problems and protect u will always b there...Big Huggies...

That's all..,haha..,summed up the things that happen todae..,so take care peepz..,for those that need to wake up early tomorrow..,sleep early...,muhaha..XuXuBan is praying for the happiness of the those who are important to him... *Flying back to his clouds*

Chapter 41

2005-03-14T00:15:00.000+08:00

*Flying down to earth* Hey peepz..,XuXuBan is back from his clouds to give an update about his dae..,well think shld b about his dae,meaning yesterdae cos it's alreadie pass mid-night..So i will be quick..,wanna sleep soon,actually can sleep till late one but Mr Whey our lecturer for APchem added additional classes for both my class and buddie class..,so tomorrow hab to b at school at 9..,haizz..

Today was an alright dae lar..,slept at 3am this morning due to watchin ghost show on channel 8..,the girl ghost was pretty lor..,but the story was very nice..,too bad i cannot tahan then at 3 i went to sleep le..,dunno how it ended..Sadz..,but wat to do..,gotta do reports todae..,2 some more..,one to be handed up tomorrow(today) and one on tuesdae(tomorrow)..,sianzz..,nxt time watch all the way lor..,even hui wen ah ma stayed up to watch..,can sae that she reallie like watching ghost show..,but dun like seeing them in real life..,hu does..,haha...Well then woke up at 9 today then snooze till 11..,can tell that i am reallie a pig le..,dunno y..,think bcos of mi comfty bed bah..,haha..,woke up,cleaned up and watch a bit a tv before going for brunch..,every sundae also the same..,went to sim lim square wif mi 2 aunts,grandma,younger bro and sis as mi eldest bro went back to camp and mi other younger bro working at the IT fair i went to on fridae..,working for logitech..,and of cos mi cousin...,had ee fu min..,haha,vry yummy..,but while i was ordering,there was this lady,she was the cleaner lar for that foodcourt..,she was returning some dishes to the stall i was ordering from then she while cleaning the tray,some of the sauce spilt on mi leg lor..,not alot lar..,i did not complain..,but was irritating lor..,after getting mi food..,went back to the table and rubbed it off lor..,sianzz..

After brunch went back home and did mi CPPA report..,though suppose to be handed in on tuesdae(tomorrow),i did it 1st cos i needed the ppt for mi other report,actually an argumentative essay lar..,so had to wait later on to get it from fu wen..,did it in less then 2 hrs..,so happie..,cos for the 1st time in this semester i compile one whole report..,muhahaha...Then took a rest...,played the com and after that played wif mi cousin and siblings...,watched some tv and then it was dinner time le..,time reallie pass by real fast..,had take outs from Fatty restaurant which is also near sim lim square..,the food todae was no reallie nice,especially the hor funz..,not that salty..,lucky i ordered salted fish fried rice..,haha..,the other dishes were ok..,after dinner,watched some more tv,then played a little of mahjong and then headed to do CRS essay...now finish le and now blogging lor...,muhahaha..,this week got CPPA test...,hope i can do well,though now i understand much better wif Mrs Tong's help..,but still need to buck up...

U r still a closed book to mi,as i dunno much abt u..,but still i still treasure u..,even though sometimes u might jus snap back at mi...Even though i noe that u say it is not meant to b..,the feelings r still there...,jus that i dun wan u to noe..,as i guess it mite hurt u..,blame urself for everything when the fault lies in mi..,jus hoping that u will let mi b by ur side always to get to know u better,protect u and listen to ur problems...Big huggies...

That's all..,hehe..,well gtg sleep le so take care peepz and may tomorrow be a much brighter day..XuXuBan is praying for the happiness of those important to him... (^_^) *Flying back to his clouds*

Chapter 40

2005-03-12T23:07:00.000+08:00

*Flying down to earth* Hey Hey peepz..,XuXuBan is back from his clouds to tok abt his dae..,aniwae yesterdae too tired due to squash training then did not blog so will b including yesterdae's entry in this..,but still think it will b a short entry...

Well yesterdae dun need to go to school for lessons cos we ended one module and shifted the other to thurs..,so all we needed to go to school for is for cca lar..,for those hu hab that is mi,nai lin,ah ma,xue li for squash,jie ying,estee and cyn for CLS club,fu wen for aikido training and mei shan nu er,mei zhen and cindy nu er for takeonedo...But b4 that..,mi,fu wen,nai lin,ah ma,jie ying,cyn and shuo lun went to suntec to go check out on the IT fair..,well actually we went there to check out the MP3s for ipod and creative..,compare lar..,c which one better..,nai lin and jie ying has decided to get ipod mini while xue li and ah ma getting creative..,ah ma got her's alreadie while xue li has to go there again to get her creative zen micro..,haha..,sooo funni cos when i called her in the afternoon to tell her to come or else no stock..,then when she came later..,after we left reallie no stock..,damn funni..,but she got a new phone..,kinda cool..

After checking out the IT fair..,nai lin and jie ying said that they wanted to go sim lim square to try bargain the price of the ipod mini..,but fruitless..,so after that went to guan yin miao pray a while and headed for bugis to walk around for a while b4 going for squash..bought dear boys act 2 book 8..,wif mei shan now..,think on mondae can get it back and read..,now the story getting more and more interesting...,well squash had 2nd stage of laddering..,think another 2 more weeks and finish..,but xams r around the corner so kinda worried whether it will b finished b4 the xams..,well this time laddering..,played wif ming zhou,marcus aka alien and jun kai..,lost all..,ming zhou i could hab draw but dunno y second set i kinda lost mi strokes..,so disappointing..,but wif jk was ok..,as i went all out..,dunno y...,after that jk is gave mi training..,need to improve...,well other than that..,wei sian nu er got hurt on the head while getting her racket knock against the pillar..,nxt time b more careful hor..,take care...Waited for mei shan nu er,cindy nu er and mei zhen..,was suppose to go for dinner but was too late..,so went home..,sooo sad..,nxt time bah guys if u all get to leave early..,haha...The worse thing was that wei sian's com crashed and now she's finding way to get help as she has reports and project to do...,jia you and cheer up kk...,too bad i dun hab a lap top or else lend u le...Well that's all for yesterdae...My left arm the muscle dunno y pain sia..,think over stretched it..,haizz..,hope it recovers soon..,muahahahha...

Todae was a boring dae lar...,did not go out or anithing..,jus stayed at home and rot lor..,stayed at home the whole dae to revise a bit..,played some games...,watch tv..,played wif mi nephew ethan hu came along wif mi aunt...,haha..,alright lar..,hope tomorrow will b a much enjoyable dae..,need to get solution for mi contact lenses..,or else i am sooo in deep shit..,haha..,some more mi mrt consession ending on mondae..,need to get money from parents again..,better start studying hard..,xams like i said r around the corner..,mus ask watever i dunno le...Another dae and it's a brand new week and i still got 2 more reports to do..,one is CPPA the other is AE&E..,think will hab to ask emmeline to do the last AE&E report while i do the CPPA..,then still got CRS presentation and argumentative essay..,think tomorrow better start work le...,or else cannot finish..,haizz...,so mani things to do..,shld hab started todae...Got mi eldest bro's com cos he got a new one..,hope to set it up soon so that i can use it to do mi assignment and stuff..,haha...,finally mi own com...

Toking to u now is sooo much easier..,things r going back to the way they used to b..,but somehow i still feel empty inside..,a hole that cannot b filled out wif these stuff...,but wun bother abt the hole for now..,wat i hab now is gd enough..,cos as long as u r happie..,so am i...Though sometimes there r some words u sae that makes mi unhappie..,being by ur side is gd enough...,to b there to protect u and listen to u...,even though i mite not get anithing i wan back in return..,think it's worth it...Big huggies...

Guess that's all..,muahaha..,write in tomorrow..,so take care peepz...,may tomorrow b a better dae..,XuXuBan is still praying for the happiness of those important to him *Flying back to his clouds*

Chapter 39

2005-03-10T22:19:00.000+08:00

*Flying down to earth* HiHi peepz..,XuXuBan is back from his clouds to tok abt his life again..,yesterdae dun hab much to write sooo did not blog..,but todae kinda different..,haha..,jus write some highligts from yesterdae 1st..,muhahah...

Well yesterdae hab GEMS like every wed..,but we onli went for 30mins then left le..,haha..,it was suppose to b a 2hr thing lor..,guess u r all shocked rite??Cos all we needed to do is to hand in our assignment then can leave le..,so our grp jus did some editing and handed up le..,sianzz..,test is coming soon lor..,hab another thing to revise le...Then after that went back to the lib to find the rest..,haha..,they were also shocked..,some of them went for their GEMS test which after we went to find crystal nu er...,long time neber c her le..,grow much prettier le.,haha..,aniwae we all noe wat is happening..,but still bless her wif all the happiness she will ever hab..,all the best yeah nu er..,glad to c u again..,come visit us again...We went to orchard after that to hang out..,suppose to go for CYA but thout that crystal was joining us so pon..,but she did not..,sadz..,neber mind lar..,getting tired of it aniwae..,had fun then around 6++ left lor..,that's abt all for yesterdae...

Now for todae...,todae class started at 10..,MIP lecture..,had Mrs Leong's boss coming in to attend the lesson and c how she teach..,alright lar..,everyone behaved themselves todae..,did some presentations then lessons..,nxt week is mi grp's turn..,some more the 1st few lor..,or should i sae the 1st one..,haha..,hope we do great...After that break an hr..,sat at our usual spot in lib and relaxed..,toked alot of crap lar..,that's us..,then after resting and time to go for classes..,went to CO-OP to get somethings to eat and drink,went for classes..,sianzz sia but lucky i understand more on CPPA le..,like i said..,this relief teacher teach better..,after that had AE&E tutorial cos we did not wan to come back on fridae so we shifted it to thurs after our lessons..,found out that i hab loads to do..,dun reallie understand after that time when i feel sick during chinese new year or was it b4..,whatever lar..,need to work hard le..,so fu wen dun b surprised that i will find u more often..ask u more qns and stuff...

After classes go back home lor..,b4 leaving wei sian nu er asked fu wen to teach her some microbio stuff at mac..,then we were like teaching her but cos it seemed like she was keeping us up..,she did not wanna ask much..,dun worrie lar the nxt time..,well then on our way back home..,got mi,shuo lun,ru long,nai lin,cindy,mei zhen,mei shan and estee..,we all discussed abt wat we shld do b4 our cca starts tomorrow..,thout of going ktv or watch movie..,then still deciding now while i blogging..,the rest still discussing..,haha..,well hope that it will b a great dae tomorrow..

Been busy all these daes..,seeing that u r working hard for all ur tests and stuff so that u can go into the option u wanna go..,putting sooo much pressure on urself...,saying that it's the way to survive..,think that perhaps u r rite..,but on the other hand..,think that as long as we try our best..,it's ok le..,no1 can blame u for anithing...,but if u wanna put sooo much pressure on urself..,i can do nothing abt it..,jus stand behind u and support u all the way...,i believe that u can do it..,hab confidence in urself...In life..,u can neber hab everything..,cos in life there are ups and downs..,and if u wan to make the one u care for..,love..,happie..,u hab to b readie to make some sacrifices..,though it mayb hard to do so and hurts sooo bad..,u hab to sooner or later...,jus keep in mind that doing this can bring greater joy to the person u like and care for wif or without u...haizz..,Love is all abt giving and not having ani intention of getting anithing back in return..,u will find that the greatest gift u will get is the smile on that's person's face...Dun wanna give u animore pain... (^_^)

Well that's all for todae..,hope u peepz hab a wonderful dae..,or wat's left of it...,all may tomorrow b a better one..,haha..,take loads of care...XuXuBan is praying for the happiness of the people important to him especially that person.. *FLying back to his clouds*

Chapter 38

2005-03-08T22:49:00.000+08:00

*Flying down to earth* XuXuBan jus returned from squash training..,haha..,hihi peepz..,well xuxuban is kinda tired so make it short todae..,so that can hab more rest for tomorrow's classes which STARTS at 8AM...,argh...

Well today was an alright dae i guess..,todae woke up at 8.15 then snooze till 8.30 b4 i bathe and prepare for school..,then went to raffles mrt station to meet mei shan nu er..,passed her dear boys act 2 book 5..,now she's bugging mi to buy book 6..,haha..,waited a while b4 jing si nu er came..,then off we go towards school...Reached dover around 9.50 i think then onli got nai lin,jie ying and cyn..,nai lin earlier than us sia...,for once..,haha..,so they waited a while more for the rest while i made a move 1st to get breakfast for tess...,was late for class as expected..,but ap chem class was vry fast lor..,mayb it's bcos of the lesson being sooo interesting..,haha..,love apchem..,but cannot neglect mi other modules..,haizz..,mus jia you..,dunno how mani time i said that le...

After apchem headed for cppa tutorial..,the relief teacher teaches much better...,at least i understand much better le compared to last time..,hope that this goes on then mi cppa no problem liao then left wif mip to worrie abt..,muahahah..,well how to sae leh but in class kinda scolded ru long..,think it's bcos i dun like to make sooo much noise during class when we listening..,he some more sleeping lor...,haizz..,sianzz sia...aiya hu cares...,aniwae after cppa tutorial..,went to hab lunch at fc 1 wif mei shan nu er,mei zhen,winnie fake lao po,estee,cindy nu er,shuo lun and mark..,had western..,vry long did not hab that le..,was yummy...,then after that went to lib and book com for doing GEMS assignment..,do do do..,then jian yang and mag came along..,they were having lab so later then meet us..,haha..,do finish le..,then went over to jing si nu er's side to do a little on CRS...Not reallie finish then hab to rush off to go for squash training...Sorrie argh jing si nu er..,nxt time we do together...,wif the rest of cos...

Squash training was abt the same lar..,jus more tougher especially the physical training...,but somehow our bodies are like used to it le bah..,after that did drills..,wah now then i noe that making a perfect drive is not simple..,mus practice more...,then after that the relief coach also taught us new stuff lar..,did quite well there...,then after that had game wif yong qi..,and other stuff lar..,quite tired..,but not as tired as last time...,today did not reallie tok wif the rest meaning xue li,ah ma,wei sian nu er and nai lin..,oh ya i forgot..,i caused an accident...,cos when i was doing backhand drive while playing king against nai lin..,i swing too much then hit his nose..,bleed for a while...,nxt time mus watch out for mi swing le to avoid such accidents...Did not leave wif nai lin they all..,left wif yong qi,yi min and 2 other members that i dun reallie haben familiarise their names..,sorrie yeah..,nxt time will de..,haha..,then reach home,had something to eat...,bathe and now online lor...

Where ever i go..,as long as i look at one particular place for sometime i will b drifting off alreadie..,dunno thinking of wat...,then all of a sudden come back..,how come har...,haizz...,everything around us happens for a reason..,but for now i dunno the reason but hab an idea of y this is happening..,think too much le..,try not to do sooo much of this le..,later pple sae i vry blur then mayb get into accident then even worse..,haha...Miss the old days..,but wifout new ones..,life will bcome boring... Not forcing le..,jus hope for the best and let fate lead the way...

That's all for todae..,so take care yeah peepz...,xuxuban going back to his clouds to sleep le..,haha..,lala land..,XuXuBan is praying for the happiness of those important to him..,hoping that he's will come soon... (^_^) *Flying back to his clouds*

Chapter 37

2005-03-07T19:09:00.000+08:00

*Flying down to earth* Yoz peepz...,XuXuBan is back to tok abt his dae..,todae came back home early...,cos after classes had remedial then neber go out lor..,so sianzz..,but kinda glad that i did lar...,well here goes mi story for todae...

Woke up at 7++ todae..,wah then realised that it rained last nite no wonder sooo shuang to sleep lor..,haha..,so reluctantly woke up got changed and went to bugis mrt to meet ru long..,then after that meet mei shan nu er...,cos we planned to play basketball todae..,as classes onli start at 12pm..,mite think we r crazy bah..,well that's us..,reached dover at 8.55..,then i rushed to meet salleh to get mi basketball from him as i asked him to bring back the other time..,then went back to basketball court to wait for the rest..,in the end onli,mi,ru long,mei shan nu er,mei zhen and fu wen kor came lor..,nai lin and shuo lun pang sei us...,nxt time better not hor..,haha...,then we played for 2hrs straight..,took quite some time playing ABC..,haha,getting much worse in basketball..,vry long neber touch le..,now all is squash and squash...Then after that around 11 went to clean up while ru long went to bathe..,damn stupid lor..,mi and fu wen inside waiting for him to bathe finish..,feels sooo perverted..,haha..,well aniwae after that went to fc 3 to hab something to eat..,mi and fu wen had some dessert while ru long had noodles...

Library was the nxt stop for us..,where we met cyn's grp for CRS..,they were getting prepared then miss tan called fu wen and told us that CRS lesson was in the library...,sooo cool..,haha..,1st time sia..,then actually was suppose to b mei shan nu er and cyn's grp to present but onli mei shan nu er's cos cyn's grp haben ready..,abt abortion...,tok tok tok..,cos it was a discussion cafe..,then toked finish we went on to another topic..,tok until the topic abt arranged marriage..,wah..,quite interesting topic..,but the part that interest mi the most was the last slide where it said: It's better to have loved and lost rather than not having loved at all...,is god trying to tell mi something..,haizz..,then after CRS..,went for APChem lesson..,new topic in chapter 5..,not bad lar..,oh ya i forgot to mention that jing si nu er had rebonded her hair trim it also..,and it looks like emmeline's aka auntie..,but i tell her..,she looks much better..,cos i reallie dun like how emmeline presents herself..,sorrie for being sooo direct..,b more lady-like..,that's an advice for free...After APChem lesson had to stay back for remedial due to mi last test..,haizz..,but alright lar..,at least i now got all the concepts and basics rite..,i better do well for the nxt test..,then went home wif shuo lun...,bought dear boys act 2 book 5..,think mei shan nu er is going to b over-joyed..,haha..,tomorrow got squash training..,and i'm still sooo tired..,due to the late nights i hab been having..,think tonight sleep early bah..,try..,haha.. (^_^)

I'm sooo sorrie..,think u shld noe hu i am referring to bah..,aniwae reallie sorrie..,did not want u to feel sad or anithing..,i'm such a fool..,saying that i will take care of u and stuff but ended up hurting ur feelings..,think i hab been thinking too much thus coming up wif all these rubbish that made mi hurt ur feelings..,well i will try mi best..,but i cannot reallie gurantee that i will lose mi feelings for u though i noe that the relationship u wan wif mi is jus lao pa and nu er guan xi..,haizz...I noe that u dun mean it..,sorrie once again..,aniwae i think it's not ur fault...,it's mine..,has always been mine..,cos i think too much le..,thus hurting myself more...I believe u can still care and treat mi as a frien bah..,if u wan..,if not i dun reallie blame u..,but blame myself for everything...Hope u can forgive mi...

Think that's all for todae...,vry tired le..,think will go sleep early todae.,but hu noes sia.,haha..,well take care peepz..,XuXuBan still prays for the happiness of those important to him in his life... *Flying back to his clouds*

Chapter 36

2005-03-06T23:13:00.000+08:00

*Flying down to earth* Hey peepz..,XuXuBan back again to tell u guys abt mi dae todae..,well wat's left of it of cos..,onli got 47mins left so better write faster..,haha...

Well slept at 3am this morning cos watching ghost show on channel U and 8..,both were showing the same kinda show jus different episode i think..,haha..,not bad bah...,but also stayed up quite late..,looking at the stars from mi balcony and thinking of stuff..,then after that went to sleep le..Woke up at 11am this morning..,usually will wake up around 10..,read newspaper and stuff..,but todae after wake up..,quickly bathed and changed then go out to hab branch..,tian xin..,haha..,at raffles city wif mi family,aunts and grandma..,not bad lar the food..,stuffed mi quite well..,haha..,think need to exercise soon..,later go back squash not fit le..,haha...After brunch..,walked around a while b4 mi,mi parents and mi youngest bro went back cos mi bro needed to do hw while i hab to go out soon..Cause it was sooo boring at home that i sms-ed some frienz asking them whether they free then found out that fu wen habing aikido combine practice at buona vista cc...,so asked mei shan nu er and mei zhen to go as well..,cyn and ai lin were alreadie going..,so we planned to meet one another at 3.30...

Stayed at home for a while b4 going out again..,wah todae Bugis is packed wif pple..,dunno wat's going on..,traffic jam for both vehicles and people..,ren shan ren hai sia...,lucky managed to get to bugis mrt by 3...,knew i was going to b late..,reached buona vista mrt by 3.35...,haha..,and as expected everyone else was late but soon came along mei zhen and mei shan nu er..,then after them was cyn and ai lin..,haha..,while walking towards the cc,met wendy..,haha..,sooo qiao to meet her..,then toked all the way to buona vista cc where she left for her work place to get her pay..,while the rest and i went to find fu wen..,thout the thing would end soon but it ended around 5-6++ lor..,sianzz sia..,then mi go borrow basketball from the people there and started playing wif mei shan nu er and mei zhen..,wah sooo shiok...,while the other 2 sat there and toked while watching the aikido thing...,called wendy to come play wif us,never did we expect that when she came we had to return the ball...,lucky another grp of pple came and then we played 4 on 5...,wah damn tiring man but enjoyed it alot..,but was kinda displeased wif the girl on the other team cos wendy mark her tightly then she not happie le lor..,then wendy got blister and twisted her ankle..,poor u..,jus take care of urself yeah...

We left the cc at 6.30 i think then went to holland village together to hab dinner..,haha..,mei zhen and wendy did not eat..,the rest of us had ban mian but different flavours...,lucky wendy intro gd one to mi..,jus nice..,the rest had either too hot,too spicy or too much..,haha..,finished dinner and then decided to head to mei zhen's hse to discuss abt the class t-shirt and chalet..,reached there around 8++..,mei zhen had her dinner 1st while the rest of us stayed in her room and started to discuss abt it..,ended up onli complete the class t-shirt but now got problem..,dunno hu to get to help draw..,cos xue li hu we think is the best choice dun wanna do..,wonder y..,hope she can do lor..,left the chalet thing to b discussed another time..,then went home...,mei shan nu er and mi sat the same line while the rest sat the other side..,poor ai lin..,u had to b the light bulb for a while more...,haha..,jus kidding...,then now reached home,bathed and now online..,and blogging lor..,overall not a bad dae...,onli when i think of that something then feel vry sianzz lor..,haizz...

The things that i reallie feel like doing now..,to go to mi rooftop to go c the nightsky or to walk along the beach to do the same thing and let all mi troubles b blown away by the wind..,haha..,another tian zhen idea..,but i would reallie like that to happen..,if it could reallie happen..,i dun mind trying...,haha..,wat am i toking...

I dunno wat u trying to do..,dunno whether u r jus trying to b concern for mi or jus trying to hurt mi..,hope it's the 1st one bah..,cos i think that no1 can live without love...,dun try to b strong when u r not..,sometimes showing that u r not strong as u said u are is not that bad..,haizz..,dunno lar..,or mayb i'm jus thinking too much...I had came out from hiding and trying mi best to b wif u but it's vry difficult to do so..,like u said..,it will bring mi pain and stuff..,but dunno y i jus wun give up..,guess i'm crazy,or mayb...,haizzz...

That's all for todae..,tomorrow will b another new week..,sianzz...,and xams r coming much nearer and nearer...,better start revising..,haha..,well take care peepz..,tomorrow playing basketball again..,muhahaha...XuXuBan is praying for the happiness of those important to him..,and still hope wat he believes in is true and will make it through... *Flying back to his clouds*

Chapter 35

2005-03-05T22:05:00.000+08:00

*Flying down to earth* XuXuBan is back to write about his dae..,well not reallie a gd dae bah...Loads of things happen,but most of them unhappie stuff...,sadz...

During last night cum this morning sorta argued wif wei sian nu er abt something..,then after that...,went offline stayed up around...,1++ bah,actually did not intend to sleep de..,but never did i expect that onli lying down i can fall asleep le..,think is bcos of the laddering bah,cause mi whole body to b tired and require the rest...,but this morning was not reallie pleasant lor b4 going to bed.,haizz..,was stoning lor..,haizz...,did not feel like doing anithing,dun like arguing wif people that i care for..,reallie hope things will work out...

Then today woke up at 11..,slept like a pig man..,thout for a while how come i slept sooo fast then think it's bcos i thout that todae will b a better dae...,still thinking abt last nite cum this morning's argument wif wei sian nu er..,like that pass my dae lor,went to mi grandma's hse to sorta celebrate mi eldest bro's b'dae which was yesterdae and i forgot,sorrie yeah...,happie b'dae to u...,haben bought u anithing yet but will soon...,when i go out...,so yeah b patient..,was quite a gd visit lar,played mahjong wif them and won $20..,unexpected sia,watched vcds,toked loads,play card games..,wat a family would do lar..,till the leaving part..,cause it was around dinner and mi dad wanted to go out for dinner,but mi and mi siblings were kinda full..,well a misunderstading btween mi younger bro and mi dad broke out then quarrel lor..,reached home still scolding here and there..,then mi younger bro went to get his own dinner...,soon after he left mi mum ask mi to follow him and also go buy dinner lar..,so i did wif mi 2 other younger siblings..,came back but mi dad ate le..,think he angry bah...,so nvm lar..,we ate..,then watch tv le lor..,think now ok le bah...So now got nuthing to do so blog...

Of all of us,i think that mi younger bro is sooo much like mi dad but it seems that they cannot compromise wif one another..,sadz sia..,hope that their relationship will b better in the future..,dun like these kinda house fights..,some more plus mi having a vry not in a mood..,get scolded jus add on to mi sadness...,sianzz...,hate these kinda daes...,but jus ren lor..,hope that tomorrow will b a better dae...,dunno whether mi kinda thinking is tian zhen anot...

Because of u..,i feel pain,happiness,loneliness and every other feeling in this world that can b felt...,though i wanna share and do more stuff wif u..,i can't..,is this destiny..,i dunno..,but it's vry painful lor..,to hear that kinda stuff..,noe that u dun wanna lose the relationship we hab now..,and there's no special feelings..,but wif time i think there will b..,and i can promise u that wat i hab now will not b lost...,can't u trust mi on that??Is my whole life about waiting but ended up finding out that everything i believe in is a lie..,if so..,i find that my life is vry pathetic...,haizz...=(

Think that's all for todae bah..,dun reallie feel like writing animore..,jus brings mi more memories of sadness..,hope that tomorrow will b a better dae..,take care peepz..,XuXuBan is praying for the happiness of those important to him and may everything he believes in come true... *Flying back to his clouds*

Chapter 34

2005-03-04T22:56:00.000+08:00

*Flying down to earth* Yoz peepz..,XuXuBan is back to write abt his dae..,haha guess i'm not that tired after squash laddering todae,well actually i'm quite tired...,but i will continue writing..,will b more detailed about the laddering later...,haha...Well here i go...

Today was not like the pass 2 daes..,todae was sunny lor,vry hot,met ru long at bugis mrt station b4 going to meet mei shan nu er at raffles...,wah he sae by 8.15 will b at eunos mrt station but when i called at 8.25 he jus reach there...,then onli at 8.35 did we meet and then headed towards raffles mrt..,we met mei shan nu er and estee..,surprising sia..,haha...,then on our way to school lor...Last lesson for Character Development...,muhahaha,sooo happie..,we did the usual and ended around 10mins earlier i guess...,then on to the nxt class...,AE&E tutorial..,haha,this time lecturer was late..,usually is like that lar..,if i remember correctly...,lolx...,then did tutorial 8...,shit man,i from chapter 6 onwards not reallie stable...,mus work hard le..,ganbette...,haha...,then we ended early lor again..,nxt time dun need to come for classes on fridae le..,cos we shifted tutorial to thurs after 3...,muhaha...,can sleep later...,then come for squash training...,sooo happie...

Well after school,everyone went to their own places lar..,ah ma,xue li,cyn,jie ying and ai lin went to the library to book com so that they can do their CRS presentation which they hab to present nxt monday...,mark and jing si also went to the lib a little bit later...,tess went home...,then left mi,fu wen,nai lin and ru long..,we had lunch at Mac and toked loads of crap lar...,damn fun...,but around 12.30...,mi and nai lin had to make our way to queensway to get our squash balls...,so we left 1st..,think ru long went back while fu wen went to find cyn they all..,reached queensway when wei sian nu er sms mi..,think she wanted to come bah..,but did not...,we looked around queensway for abt 30mins then got the squash balls..,a whole box of them,12 in total..,then went back to school...,i and nai lin toked loads in the bus on the way back to school...,reached school and went to the lib to find the rest of them..,met them then went to the squash court...,wah alot of people were there alreadie lor...,practising for later laddering..,mi and nai lin cos eat le so started off 1st..,while the rest of them went to eat at fc5....

So..,started squash..,nearly had court sprints...,but lucky in the end dun hab..,haha,can perform 100% le..,then laddering began..,wah todae played 4 matches in total...,1st to wu hao..,he's new,so got mi 1st win..,then after that the nxt 2 matches played wif zi xuan and marcus..,both lost..,haizz...,then last match was against samuel..,could hab lost but lucky did not give up and ended in a tie...,hope the nxt laddering dae will b better...,but think not bah..,hab to b against wif tough competition...,like jun kai,alvin...,omg...jus try mi best lor...Nai lin and xue li are the poor ones among us 5...,hab not win a game yet..,jia you nai lin and xue li..,as for ah ma and wei sian nu er...,they did quite well,well better than mi lar for nu er's case,dunno abt ah ma..,think the same bah...,all the way kkz gang..,we can do it...

After the laddering vry tired lor..,decided to send wei sian nu er home..,but it ended up sending her onli to boon lay mrt station..,sadz...,but nvm lar..,nxt time if got the chance..,haha..,then went home lor..,on the way there was a commotion on the train lor..,dunno lar...,2 men were arguing abt hu touch hu..,but i think the indian or was it malay hab a little problem lar..,up there u noe...,but it ended off at buona vista mrt..,heng sia..,but i was thinking y can't pple compromise wif one another..,is it that diff..,make the wife soo paiseh and stuff lor..,haizz...,reached bugis mrt around 10..,then something wrong wif mi right eye's contact lenses so walked wif one eye close..,haha..,now ok le...

Y do people think that it's a waste of time in pursing the heart of the person u like...,it's not lor..., to mi it's not a waste of time,haizz...I dunno wat to sae..,all i think i can sae is that...,there's nothing more important to mi but to c u smile...,and hab u by mi side..,but y is it sooo difficult..,is loving someone that diff..,guess so bah...,it has been all this time..,jus hab to accpet it...,and i will not give up lor since i made the choice le...All i wanna b is the person hu's shoulder is there for u to lean or cry on whenever u wan to..,to b there to listen and accompany u always....

Think that's all for todae..,too lazy and tired to write animore,think i mite write more tomorrow..,c how the daes go..,haha...,well take care peepz...XuXuBan is praying for the happiness of those important to him and wished that everything will b alright... (^_^) *Flying off to his clouds*

Chapter 33

2005-03-03T22:57:00.000+08:00

*Flying down to earth* Heyz peepz,XuXuBan is back to blog again,hab been blogging the past few daes,think i got back the blogging mood again..,mayb alot of things to write bah or mayb jus a habit i picked back up from reading blogs belong to mi frienz...,haha...,here goes:

Today was not a bad dae lar...,whole dae was raining till the evening...,it started off with AE&E practical wif 69 practical teacher,think mi classmates shld noe the meaning of 69 bah...,haha,aniwae this time the experiment was the longest among the rest...,think bcos the machine was at emmeline's side and she was not reallie interested lor,keep fooling around...,so we were like the slowest,but lucky later catch up...Well after practical was MIP,todae we had to do presentation for our projects but onli the 1st few grps did...,haha,lucky mi grp is 3rd last,can edit a bit here and there...,alright lar most of the grps,but i c like most of them hab 20++ slides while mi grp onli got 16..,but the other class grp which is doing the same topic as us also 16...,haha,that proves that our topic difficult to find content...,but we decided to get some info from our fellow classmates on some stuff to do wif our topics,hope that it will turn out fine...And the last lesson for todae was CPPA,miss foo taught us for the 2nd time and went through chapter 4,cos from chapter 4 onwards,we had no clue lor as siaow taught too fast,cannot understand,now it's much better le,can understand,think shld not b a problem when the xams come...,muhahaha...

Todae's class ended and me,ru long,fu wen,nai lin,shuo lun,mark,mei zhen,mei shan,estee,ai lin,cyn,jie ying and cindy went to catch the movie: A series of Unfortunate events,at cine at 5.30..,actually wanted to ask wei sian to go,but in the end failed to convince her...,nxt time bah...,the show was not bad but i was kinda disappointed and think that it was not worth $7.50 but mayb onli $6.50...,watever lar,nxt time watch a better show,nai lin sorrie that we did not trust u..,haha...,hope to watch hitch soon..,looks interesting...,haha..,then after the movie,we went to hab dinner at the food court at the basement then after that went to walk walk around heeren b4 walking back to douby gout where everyone went their own ways and i walk back home...,reached home around 9.30...,did character development hw and now blogging lor...,haha...

Tomorrow will b having laddering for squash le,hope i can make it bah..,jia you to every1 especially to xue li,ah nai,ah ma and wei sian nu er...,u all can do it,i noe it...Todae was not a bad dae at all like i said but it would b much better if u were around...

Think that's all bah..,mayb sleeping soon cos need the rest for tomorrow..,tomorrow try to blog after squash laddering if i got the strength..,haha...,take care yeap peepz... *Flying back to his clouds* XuXuBan is still praying for the happiness of those important to him (^_^)

Chapter 32

2005-03-02T22:47:00.000+08:00

*Flying down to earth* XuXuBan is back to write in again,yesterdae cos got squash training then was vry tired le,so came back,bathe then sleep le,around 12++ bah...,haha,lazy to blog,now to make up for it...

Well yesterdae was an alright dae lar,well was the last cppa practical with Dr Sotong Ballz..,haha,no lar,his real name is Dr Sooo,did not reallie like his practical compared to our former teacher in charge,Miss Tan Hwee Bin,she was sooo much better than him...,guess it's bcos of his long nagging and crapping..,haha,try to break some cold jokes with us,can tok until 30mins for each grp lor....,super sianzz...,but alright lar,cos for the last pract,he gave us chocs as sort of "farewell" gifts..,hopefully it is reallie farewell..,or else i will b vry sianzz....,haha...

After that went for squash training,as usual,it was like hell,but bcos of being trained every week,we are getting used to it le,especially the physical...,mus jia you le...After that did 100 forward and backward drives then play games lar...,played with nai lin and marcus,won both but reallie surprising was marcus,won him for the 1st time...,haha,think he tired bah,but he say i improve le,dunno whether true anot...,hopefully can make it during laddering,dun wanna b the last few,but if i become last few,does not matter,that means that i mus improve,nu er,go ok??Lao pa support u,no matter what the outcome mite b..,lose or win,lao pa will b there for u...The people i worry the most are kun zhi and gang,they improve alot lor,scary,hopefully can play against them and not lose that bad...,well nu er was not in a gd mood yesterdae..,but todae ok le..,that's gd...,gave her the debbie i bought for her,actually wanted to give her yesterdae,but cos she was in a bad mood due to some reasons..,then did not take lor...,nu er,hope u stay happie always...

Today was an ok dae i guess,but the stupid thing was that we hab onli one class todae lar,technically cos the rest dun hab GEMS,onli some of us did,such as mi,mei zhen,xue li,shuo lun,tess,ai lin and fuji...,so the onli class was from 8-10 lor...,after that go home liao...,but most of us stayed in school to prepare our ppt for tomorrow's mip project presentation,hope mi grp's finish le,jia you fu wen,sorrie that i cannot help u...,hab to finish AE&E...,nxt time kk,CRS u dun need to do le...,i cover...,hehe...,then i went for GEMS wif mei zhen lor...,it wasn't the same as mei shan nu er wasn't there due to some personal reasons...,tomorrow will b back le..,then GEMS also end early todae lor...,haha..,so shiok,after that went home and take a short nap b4 getting readie to go out to hab dinner to celebrate mi eldest bro's 20th b'dae,chinese is 21st,big le..,happie b'dae to u in advacne kor..,haben got u ur present yet..,will soon,so wen yi u all,should noe wat i mean le rite??Now doing AE&E at the same time blogging lor...,hope can do finish soon,wanna sleep...,haha....

Reallie hope that this time it could happen,reallie hope that i will b the one to give u a shoulder to lean or cry on..,to give u happiness,protect u from ani harm and of cos to b wif u always...Think that's all for todae bah,tomorrow write more,haha..,take care and smile always peepz...XuXuBan is always praying for the happiness of the people important to him... (^_^) *Flying back to his clouds*

Chapter 31

2005-02-28T21:30:00.000+08:00

*Flying down to earth* Yoz,XuXuBan back again from his clouds,cos mi "ah ma" ask mi to keep on updating or else she will have one lesser blog to read le...,haha...Well on with todae's stuff...

Today lesson starts at 12 lor...,sooo shuang,can sleep until 10 which i did,got changed then meet jing si nu er at raffles then go to school together,toked alot lar,abt one another and how's life...,haha,long time did not tok to her like that le...,well aniwae was late for CRS again...,so bad sia,thout todae can go early...,oh ya another thing..,b4 i went to school,went to bugis to buy dear boys act 2 comic books,but i ended buying book2 & 3,when i was suppose to buy 3 & 4...,argh,wonder still can change anot,but i doubt lar..,haizz...,aniwae back to school...,then CRS was ok lar,but most of the time i was discussing other stuff wif fu wen they all,haha...,After that the most dreaded lesson cos we got back our test paper todae,APCHEM..,haizz,bcos of careless mistakes again,i did badly lor...,think i hab been slacking too much le,mus wake up,xams r nearby le...,and i wanna get into the option i wan,promised wei sian nu er le...,rite??Then after that bcos i dun hab mood,so asked fu wen and nai lin to go out wif mi,walk walk lar,actually wanted to watch movie,but ended up at ps,walk around,brought along mei zhen and estee,cyn was obviously there lor...,haha...,walked quite a bit then went home lor...,haha,bought something too...

O level result out le and it turned out that all mi juniors did well,proud of u all guys...,haha,get into the choice u all wan kk and all the best in everything...,bro did well too..,haha,expected lar,he's much smarter than mi,13 points lor,compared to mi onli 17 for L1R5,aiya hu cares...,as long as he can make it to is choice can le...

Hope that everything goes out well this time,nai lin and fu wen,think u 2 can guess le bah..,haha,tell mi secretly then i tell u whether correct lor...,mayb can give mi advice...,haha,well think that's all bah,tomorrow write again...,take care peepz... *Flying back o his clouds* XuXuBan still prays for those important to him to be happie... :D

Chapter 30

2005-02-27T18:19:00.000+08:00

*Flying down to earth* Weeeeyeeee,yoz pple,back from a long break of not writing my blog,haha,jus kidding,jus that i have been real busy and hab no time to blog,loads of things hab happened,good and bad,but nuthing has changed,xuxuban still single and wat's important is i'm still here and so are the pple important to me.Due to the boring time i am having rite now,i rather come online to blog then jus rot in front of the com,haha,sooo sad,no1 to call xuxuban out...,haha..,jus kidding...

Let's c,well Xmas is over alreadie,so is chinese new year,real long time sia...,haha,both of these celebrations were great,xmas not alot of prezzies,but loads of fun,chinese new year also the same,hab been visiting every classmate's hse,reallie hab been loads of fun.Oh yes,valentine also over,not much to talk abt...,cos dun reallie hab a gf or dui xiang..,haha,some more schooling,so jus spend it wif mi frienz lor...Yes,school is back and hab loads of homework,assignments projects and other stuff,life is good.Nxt fridae we will be having our squash laddering,meaning that we will compete with one another to see where we stand in the team,hope we all can make it,haha,but i doubt i can as the other guys hab been improving loads,haha,nu er mayb we 2 will not make it bah,so will nai lin,jus try our best yeah,oh ya mi wei sian nu er's b'dae passed by not long ago...,3 daes to b exact,was quite an alright b'dae for her,could hab been better but we were all too busy...,sorrie arh nu er...,make it up to u one dae...

Oh ya,well mi kor has finally stead wif cyn,congrats to u 2 yeah,sure that you 2 will go a long way,all the best,as for mi like i said earlier,still single,haha,typical lar,i kinda noe...,wat can i sae,not fated to hab a gf sooo soon..,those hu noe mi for vry long le and always nagging at mi,i'm working on it..,haha,trying mi best...,but it's reallie difficult to find a gal/guy that will love u the same way u love them...,so mite take some time...,but actually single is not that bad,not that much problems also,onli bad point abt it is sometimes u will feel reallie lonely and jealous at times when u c couples holding hands walking down the street..,on the other hand,some of those that are attached wished they were single...,complicating sia this relationship stuff...,will jia you though..,haha,made a choice jus a few daes ago,now wondering will i ever make it...,hope i can...

O level results are coming out tomorrow and guess wat mi bro hab been going out these few daes jus in case that he does not do well and will b grounded,wat so scared to b abt bro...??If u noe u did well,b confident in urself...,u hab all mi support no matter how ur grades go...,jus remember to stick to ur piorities 1st...,All the best to mi juniors and frienz that are going to take their results tomorrow,hope u all get the points u all wanted and no matter wat choice u all make whether it is to go jc or poly,one advice go wif ur interest and neber regret it...

Nearly dinner time...,still dunno wat or where we are going to eat,hopefully nearby and yummy...,feeling lazy...,haha,think later then i blog again..,nuthing much to write le..,haha,take care pple..,may everything turn out alright yeah?? *Flying back to his clouds,XuXuBan is still praying for the people that are important to him to be safe and happie*

Chapter 29

2004-11-08T19:40:00.000+08:00

*Flying down to earth* Yoz pple,XuXuBan has something to say,guess what,my exam are OVER!!!Muhahahahaha,after racking my brains for 2 whole weeks,it's finally over..,well it was sort of over last friday and now then i start talking about it so stupid sia...,well that's because i was having sooo much fun straight after the exams that i totally forgot to blog for last week and now i'm here to do so... =P

Well when all ended on last friday,11.10am to be precise,all of us including those not from my class were crazy already.Haha..,we were super happy that all is over and the time for us to have fun has arrived...Right after the exam,my classmates (ah ma,jie ying,estee,mei shan,ai lin,ah nai,fu wen kor,rulong and mark) and i went straight down to PS [Plaza Singapura] to watch The Princess Dairies 2,was not a bad film...After the show,we slacked around in PS for a while before ah ma,jie ying and ru long went off cause of their own reasons,the rest of us continue slacking around...Till we got so sianzz and decided to walk all the way down to the Herren,while walking there,we stopped at Burger King near the old OG building for a while and discussed about our class chalet,lolx,we can do anything now,muhahaha...After a while,we continue walking to Herren and there we walked alot also.Ended up in Taka for our dinner,had some pan-fried japanese noodles,was alright to me but one bad point was that we had to sit on the floor near the multi-purpose hall near the fountain cause everywhere was packed,well it was not that bad lar,played zhong ji mi ma,haha,SUPER FUNNY,especially mei shan nu er and fu wen kor,haha...,after that went home lor as i needed to pack me bag for squash chalet the next day...,haha,sooo much fun programmes ahead of me....

1 day after the last exams and already a chalet,pro right??Haha,well it's my cca chalet so it was alright lor,overall the chalet was also alright,it was located at Changi Aloha which we took a 1/2 hr bus ride for tampaness mrt station and that was not before we met at 5 and went to tampaness mall to shop for the bbq stuff for the next day...,we had our dinner at Changi Village not long after we reached our chalet.After that we walked back to our chalet which on the way that time,me,ah ma,ah nai,sisi-le and xue li visited the meriden changi hotel and used their toilet,well not one time bah think about 3 times,well who would blame us,their toilets were the cleanest at that part lor,lolx..

To me,the best part of the chalet was during the 2nd early morning, there were me,ah ma,ah nai,wei sian nu er and sisi-le still awake and we were walking again,this time xue li said she did not want to go as she is afraid of mosquitos bitting her,so we went to walk,walk till Changi Village Park,wei sian nu er was very scared as she scared dark lor,held me sooo tight,but i understand lor,just tried to make her feel safe as much as possible,but when she saw the swings,her fears all flew away,started playing for a while then continued walking till we reached a place near Changi Airport's airfield and that's where we laid down to watch the shinning stars in the dark blue sky above us,there was even a shooting star,we were like OMG...,haha,it was sooo magical,so fantastic,wished i could have taken a picture of it or perhaps lived in that moment forever,everything was great.We talked alot,then ah nai needed to use the toilet so walked back to the part of the park which had it,after that went to the beach there to watch the sun rise,too bad loads of clouds around,or else it would have been a better day.After that we took a different route to go back,haha,was it a twist of events,cause it was near the jetty that we could take boats to Pulau Ubin,that's when ah ma and ah nai suggested to go there...,haha,and we did,went there to cycle and sort of teach ah ma how to ride a bike,too bad haven't succeeded yet...,jia you ah ma,don't you worry,class chalet sure ask you to cycle again...Had some stuff for bbq before going home with ah nai and gang (lazy to write all their names again),all of us were tired,wei sian nu er and ah ma were sleeping on the train,at my stop,sisi-le and xue li got off as well to take bus,made sure they got on their bus before walking home and Zzzzz,some more i was going to have my first CYA (Changi Youth Amassador) training the next day at 8.30am,best sia... =D

Today,had CYA training in the morning like i said,was alright lar,slept for 7hrs,but still was tired,but who cares,it was very interesting lor and we walked the whole Changi Airport,both terminals and it was not outside only,inside too and it took like 5 whole hours lor...,man that is how big Changi Airport is,leg now very suan,lucky it did not break..,haha..,imagine the the few batches after us,with terminal 3,think they can faint liao...Well tomorrow i also have training from 8.45-5 again and some more wei sian nu er going to fly off to China tomorrow for holiday, enjoy hor nu er and please take care of yourself...,don't get me a present,i won't take it...,this thursday will be my class chalet..,so looking forward to it,hopefully i will be able to see stars again..,please make it happen god,going to have sooo much fun.Looks like the holidays for me is going to packed with fun,going out with my secondary school friends and also squash training,hmmm,busy and fun,haha...,but that also means more money needed,and i think i'm going to go broke soon... =P

Here's a song that i find it very nice and meaningful and beside that,i would like to thank those that have been supporting me like fu wen kor,ah nai,ah ma,sisi-le and also wei sian nu er all this time...,hope you all will like it:

Ronan Keating:
The Long Goodbye
I know they say if you love somebody
You should set them free (so they say)
But it sure is hard to do
Yeah, it sure is hard to do
And I know they say if they don't come back again
Then it's meant to be (so they say)
But those words ain't pulling me through
Cos I'm still in love with youI
spend each day here waiting for a miracle
But it's just you and me going through the mill(climbin' up a hill)

[Chorus]
This is the long goodbye
Somebody tell me why
Two lovers in love can't make it
Just what kind of love keeps breaking a heart?
No matter how hard I try
You're gonna make me cry
Come on, baby, it's over, let's face it
All that's happening here is a long goodbye

Sometimes I ask my heart did we really
Give our love a chance (just one more chance)
and I know without a doubt
I turned it inside out
And if we walked away would make more sense (only self defense)
But it tears me up inside
Just to think we still could try
How long must we keep riding on a carousel
Going round and round and never getting anywhere?(on a wing and prayer)

[Chorus]
This is the long goodbye
Somebody tell me why
Two lovers in love can't make it
Just what kind of love keeps breaking a heart?
No matter how hard I try
You're gonna make me cry
Come on, baby, it's over, Let's face it
All that's happening here is the long goodbye[Chorus x2]

The long goodbye
The long goodbye
This is the long goodbye
Someone please tell me why
Are you ever coming back again
Are you ever coming back again
Are you ever coming back again
Guess I'm never coming back again

Nice right,anyway here's also an sms that my friend sent me last time and as i was reading it also found it meaningful so i'm going to type it down here:

Sometimes i hate asking myself,what would make me happy?To think that,i have everything else,i get what i want...Then i realized it was YOU,too bad,cause its you that i can't have...I can't choose who i'm going to love and i also can't just love who chooses to love me...And you can't balme me in choosing to love you as much as i can't blame you for not learining to love me.I'm sorry if you can't love me the way you love the one before me,so i'll let you go to find him or her.And hope someday you will see that the one true love you are looking for was the one who set you free...

How can i say goodbye to someone i never had?Why do tears fall for someone who was never mine?Why is that i miss someone i was never with and i ask why i love someone who's love was never mine?Isn't it funny we are just trying to catch the attention of the one we think we love;we hardly notice the one we are really looking for was just there...You don't notice them till they are in the arms of someone else...

Food for though,think of this...Have you really cared for someone more than you expected?Have you ever tried to love him or her depite of all the pain?will you keep loving him or her as he or she whispers someone else's name?Will you??It's better to lose your pride with someone you love rather than losing that someone you love with your useless pride.When you love some one,don't expect that person to love you back the same amount.One of you will be ahead,the other behind.It's either you catch up or the the other waits.When you love,you mus not accept anything in return,for if you do,you are not loving but investing.If you love,you must prepare to accept pain,for you expect happiness,you are not loving but using...True love hears what is not spoken,and understands what is not explained,for love doesn't work in the mouth,nor the mind,but in the heart...

Love is like standing on wet cement,the longer you stay the harder it is to leave...And you can never go without leaving your prints behind..Don't love a person like a flower,because a flower dies in season.Love them like a river because a river flows forever...Love doesn't have to have a happy ending,cause love doesn't have to end at all.Never be afraid to fall in love.It may hurt alot,it may give you aches and pains,but if you don't follow your heart,in the end you will cry even more for not giving love a chance.Love may leave your heart like shattered glass,but keep in mind that there is someone who will be willing to endure the pain of picking up the pieces so you could be whole again...

Haizz,think those who knows my situation well should be able to understand bah...Think that's all for this week,quite long as well,haha,well going to have as much fun as i can during this holiday before going back to school and face all those problems..,haha,XuXuBan is now flying back to his clouds above to have fun,look over his friends and family and also pray for the happiness of his family,friends and love ones... (^_^) *Flew back to his clouds above*

Chapter 28

2004-10-28T19:57:00.000+08:00

*Flying down to earth* Yoz...,XuXuBan/Shark is back from his clouds above and he is feeling rather stressed about loads of things.Well one thing is finally after all the presentations,projects and lab work,the exams are finally here.Haiz..,exams = stress,but think it's a must i guess to see whether we really understand what we have been studying for the pass 3 months or so,ya like what i say,3 MONTHS,that's a short period of time.But the topics were not that difficult i guess..,haha,think some people out there is gonna kill me real soon...,better hide... =P

Monday,went back to my secondary school,queenstown sec to go watch the talentime finals with my bandmates k.c,des and brother salleh,michelle and enen also went to watch it with us since school has ended for them,lucky them for being in ngee ann poly...,but i don't care,SP RULES!!! Well back to the topic,well talentime..,a time where people come out to display their talents vocally,in dance or perhaps in playing an instrument.(Something like Singapore Idol but not that BIG if you know what i mean)This year was alright lar,well i think the solo vocals and dance category was the best among the 4 category,the instrumentals were alright but the vocal groups were a major disappointment,ONLI 2 GRPS..,what the hell man,last time when my band and i joined,there were like 5 grps i think..,anyway it's really disappointing.After that caught up with my juniors and played captain for a while before heading to school to revise IOC with cindy nu er.And kc they all went to play pool,best lar you all,tempt me sooo much,but i'm glad that i went to study. =D

I just had one of my exam 2 days ago,on tuesday and the subject was IOC(Inorganic and Organic Chemistry).For that exam,studied loads with cindy nu er at school,keep refreshing my mind with the notes and trying to find anything that i missed and hopefully i did quite well for this exam.I felt that there was not enough time for the exam,not enough time for me to finish all the questions.So did my other friends.After the exam,was outside the examination room discussing about it with my Sl@cK3rS gang...,ah ma and jie ying was there as well,asked them about it and they say that they kind of did not do questions worth of 20-30 marks,omg,i could see tears in jie ying's eyes but did not know wat to say to comfort her,all i can say is that everything will be ok...Haiz hopefully all of us will pass and not repeat this module,right anot guys??Here's something to ah ma and jie ying and all those that are quite Ups3t about IOC exam:Cheer up and stand up again,everything is gonna be alright,believe in yourself yeah???

The hectic week is coming ahead,3 exams in a week and only a day and a half to get ready for the next,well plus of course the rest of this week,that's what i'm using the rest of the week for,to study and prepare for the upcoming 3 exams.Gladly after those 3 exams,it's FUN time for all of us..,haha.But for now,studies come 1st like always.Sooo looking forward to next friday,when all "hell" will run loose,haha,meaning us having loads of fun.Argh..,must stop thinking of all this and think only of exams,exams and exams.Well since i'm blogging means i'm resting,so what the heck..,haha,gonna have squash chalet on the 6th,one day straight after the exams,sooo good,it's fun time and maybe a time for me umm humm...,yeah those who knows what i mean should get it...,haha,then after that on the 8th-10th got CYA training,think it will be fun and interesting though it's long hours,after that 11th-13th it's my class chalet,sooo looking forward to that chalet,a time where me and my classmates get to know one another better,and also another time for me to...,umm hummm...,haha,wish me all the best for me exams and this. (^_^)

Well i'm not the only one having problems,my friends also do have problems such as wei sian my another nu er,well i don't think i want to explain but i know that she's going through loads of pain...,haizz,nu er,jia you yeah???papa is always here for you,must be strong.Well think i will write another thought of mine...,or not..,not inspiration so i think i will end todae's blog here.XuXuBan is flying back to his clouds to concentrate on his studies for his exams,paying for his wish to come true and also the happiness of his family,friends and love ones.Gd luck to me for me exams and the other thing. *Flew back to his clouds*

Chapter 27

2004-10-19T13:07:00.000+08:00

*Flying down to earth* Weeeee,haha,XuXuBan/Shark is back from his clouds above,well it has been ages since i came to blog,can't be blamed,got loads of assignments,projects and test to do and prepare for..,super sianzz,well lucky after this week,we just need to prepare for our semestral exams,after that we will be FREE!!!

Well now i'm in the school's library using the com to blog,suppose to be doing group presentation powerpoint slides with my group but it seems that we have given the task to tess,poor you,help you soon yeah,let me finish this.Just finished our lame and useless(to me lar) test,jingsi nu er is like kinda sad as she feels that she has not done well and does not want to repeat this module,nu er dun scared yeah,i'm sure you will pass.Have faith in yourself!!!Lao pa is here for you... (^_^) Well the past week was kind of hectic,got loads of test to study for,did not really have time to rest...,sianzz,well got back my IOC 3rd test and i ONLY pass it..,sianzz,i was quite confident but it turned out like that ~Ups3t si@~ lucky for some of us (the ones that did not do well or fail), we will be given a retest,and that's tomorrow.Going to study for that later,after the group thing.Hmmm,well i did play squash last week with ah ma,ah nai,jing yu (yu jing,new found frien cum ah ma's sun nu), wei sian nu er,xue li and sisi...,was fun and tiring. There were these kind of old people that came to play and they sort of coached us to play better,can say that they are pros..,need to become stronger,i want to be stronger. (^_^) After that,we went to jurong point which is at boon lay there,omg,it was kind of far for both me and ah nai,especially ah nai who leaves at hougang.But it was ok lar,we ate al LJS (Long John Silver) then went walk walk around and i finally bought my shoe bag,going to be broke soon or perhaps i can really say that i'm BROKE!!!Soon we were heading back home,well only left ah nai,xue li and me cause we took mrt home.

I got an opportunity but did not grab hold of it,maybe it's because i felt that now is not a good time to show my feelings bah..,haha,once again crapping.Think now it's clear that i like someone once again,haizz,foolish XuXuBan is always falling in love,ah ma don't scold me hor,anyway thanx for being there for me and this message goes out to all those that were there for me like fu wen kor,ah long,ah nai,wei sian nu er and loads more.Hopefully it will succeed this time :P Well onto other stuff,my other nuer,jingsi,fell down and hurt her leg,to be precise between her third and fourth,dislocated 2 bones,and all this was caused by just jumping down a chair,that's like sooo scary,just a jump and like that,must take care of yourself hor nu er.Another nu er of mine also got problem,seems that everyone around me has problem lately,well anyway she got back her group's project marks but it turned out quite not up to her expectations,60/100,and now she's feeling guilty about it,nu er don't feel guilty,it's your group members that should feel guilty for not chipping in lor,haizz,just continue with life.Think i will stop here for now,need to help poor tess now,she's like having loads of problem,try to blog again later.Here's another one of my thoughts:

~Ups3t si@~ XuXuBan
No one in this world is perfect,
So don't blame yourself for anything.
All you need to know is that you have put in your best,
And that no one will blame you for that.
Love is one example,
It's a strange thing,
It comes and goes as it pleases,
Leaving us behind with sorrow and heartaches.
But there are times that it stays forever,
Giving us what we possibly cannot obtain,
Happiness,with the one we love the most.
Thus we have to believe in fate,
It will bring our angels to us no matter what,
Though it might take some time,
It's worth the wait.

Quote from wei sian nu er:
Whatever is yours will be yours,
And those that don't belong to you,
Will never be no matter how hard you try.

XuXuBan/Shark is flying off to his clouds now to finish the powerpoint presentation slides with his friends,studying hard for his semestral exams,keep praying for his family and friends' happiness and hoping that his wish will come true. *Flew back to his clouds above*

Chapter 26

2004-10-07T19:39:00.000+08:00

*Flying down to earth* Hiz there,XuXuBan/Shark is back from his clouds above the sky.Well though it's not a week yet,i've kind of decided to come and do some blogging,to write down stuff and especially the way i'm feeling now.

Well actually today was an OK day for me,for RWP(Report Writing Presentation) today,all the groups in the class had to do a presentation on SARS,well it's sort of easy as most of the information is already given to us.This was just a practice to our presentation skills and perhaps help us improve on it.As it was sort of graded,most of us dressed in semi-formal attire,well excpet for Ah long,Auntie,Baby,Tess and Maro.Most of the gals looked pretty and some of the guys looked more handsome than they used to be.Haizz,she was one of the few that looked pretty.Anyway,we did our presentation,was ok at first,but only after ah long reminded me something did my whole day become a bad day.Don't really want to say it as it might only remind me more and perhaps give me more pain.Well after that,my mood was not really ok,in microbio class,i was not in the mood to study so i just slept through the lesson,lucky for me that the chapter she was teaching today will not be included in the upcoming semestral exams.Was really in the mood to beat things,.lucky for me,ah nai and ah ma went to book a squash court in between microbio lesson and IOC,so i went to play and de-stress.Lolx..,when we were about to finish,a lecturer came and "scold" us for using the court and not being in proper attire,heck sia. Well ended up skipping maths tutorial and went and hang out with ah nai they all.Before we actually decided to go where to hang out,ah long said something that was very unneccessary lor,in front of sooo many other people that did not know about it.After that mood was even worse,it seemed to everyone that i was very blur,not wanting to do anything,think it's because i was thinking alot of things in my mind.But surprisingly i somehow managed to come home safe and sound.Haiz,ah long,can you tell me,do i deserve that???

I'm now thinking as i write this,thinking what have i done wrong or right to deserve such a thing. I don't really want to talk about it,but the thought are buried in my head,making both my head and heart ache.Haizz,really wonder what will i become of if i get more of this kind of stuff to handle,think i will explode.Think i will be going up to my rooftop later to go have some fresh air,try to clear my mind and forget everything,that is if i can.Luckily tomorrow is friday,and on fridays i have squash training,man am i looking and not looking forward to it.Tomorrow Ngee Ann Poly will be coming down for a friendly match,we will win right guys.Hope that in tomorrow's games i will be able to learn more stuff and also get myself distracted from all these thoughts in my head.Think i better go clear my head soon,must stop believing in finding my happiness now and concentrate on my studies.~Ups3t si@~ (T_T)

Well think that's all for today,can't write anymore,guess i will go revise my work and perhaps come back in to blog some other time. XuXuBan/Shark is returning to his clouds above to forget the thoughts in his head,prepare for his semestral exams and to pray for his love ones' happiness. *Flew back to his clouds*

Chapter 25

2004-10-06T19:37:00.000+08:00

*Flying down to earth* Woah, it's been more than a week and i did not realise it(well actually i did,but was jus too busy to come and blog),well anyway,XuXuBan/Shark is back from his clouds. Sorry for the delay yeah,traffic jam up there,haha,just kidding,what really kept me from blogging is the never ending assignments,presentations,homework and cca.Yeah wei ye,i know how it feels like being in JC.Haha...,well onto my life...

Nothing much special happened over the weekend other than i bought my new squash racket,weeee,$120,i know the price is nice,but so is the racket.Some more bought the same as Xue Li,one of my classmates/squash mate,haha,now you cannot quit squash that easily already.Haha..,don't really know why but i sort of got into the sport really well,liked it ALOT!!Besides basketball,think this is one sport that i really enjoy playing alot,perhaps it's because i can really let out all my feelings,problems and stress that i have inside on me(So sorry wall,haha).Want to thank ah nai for "asking" me to join this sport. :P Hmm,well though i have to spend some extra cash in the nearby future for all the correct equipment,think it's worth it.

Promos/Preliems/Streaming Exams/End of Year Exams are already taking place and that is the stupid reason why i cannot find my friends to go out with,besides those who are in poly of course,haha,miss you guys man,hope to get back together soon,yeah??Besides,my semestral exams are approaching as well,man that's the only thing that i'm not looking forward to,exams,haizz,so sianzz.But come to think of it,after the exams,it's HOLIDAYS,haha,soooo looking forward to that,got loads of chalets(especially my current class's one,wei fu wen,better do some planning le.) and got loads of time to slack and do the things i want to do.Now is not the time to slack though i wish it was,must study hard and score well for the semestral exams,don't want to repeat any module ever again,haha.Sianz,and i thought poly would be much more slack,think i said this a thousand times,but who cares.

More tests coming up,such as microbio and IOC(Inorganic and Organic Chemistry) wah,how am i suppose to survive yet more enjoy this weekend,argh.Think squash would have to subsitute the fun i'm suppose to have over the weekend,sad.Lucky one of my projects is done and that is the BLOODY STUPID IDEAS module's.Man i think it has nothing to do with the course i'm doing now lor or any other course.Well yes,we have to be creative,but you can't really expect us to be creative under such tight conditions like:financial,tight scheldule,it's like how can i come out with something new with no freedom.I sometimes wonder whether i'm in the right classrooms at some point of time.To add on,we have to pay for all the materials and do the A1 panels with our own money,no subsidise from the school.What a waste.Enough of that already,think i'm really go sick if i talk anymore on that.

My Jing si nu er is still sick cause she has been sleeping late and having loads of stress,haizz,how to recover,but still take care of yourself yeah??Haha,one good news that i have is,over the last weekend,i got myself another god-daughter,haha,and i only known her for 2 months plus or less. Haha,anyway thanx wei sian nu er for that nice message at your blog site and also for the great testimonel you gave me.Will write one for you soon yeah??Haizz,not myself today when i went to school,i was kind of not in the mood to go to school but i still chose to go in case my friends get worried,but in the end,no difference,my close friends were asking me whether i was ok,cause i did not talk much and had a sianzz look on my face.So sorry guys for making you all worry.Think there are somethings on my mind that i was thinking about,perhaps about life,so become like that.I don't really know whether there is something wrong with me or what,am i rushing things too fast,when i guess only those that understand my problem now would understand what i am writing about.Haizz...

How i wish i could express what i am feeling,thinking about now in words,but i think there can never be words that is capable to fully express it.Well here's another one of the things that i have been writing on the tables at school (^_^):

~Ups3t si@~ XuXuBan
There are sooo many questions in my mind right now,
Questions that i wished i could just ignore them,
Throw them away.
But i can't cause the only way to get rid of them,
Is to answer them,
And I know that the answers are within me.
For now i can't really see or find them,
As time passes by,they will slowly show themselves,
And leave me here either in pain,
Or happiness.
Wonder which one would they leave me in.
Is life really that unfair and painful to live in?
Feeling lost once again,
Though i have my friends around me,
Being there for me.
How i wish life could become much better,
To make it so,
I have to find my Angel.
Thus i'm still searching for my Angel.

That's the end of it,wished i could write more,but think that's all for today,hopefully next time,i got some good news that i can share,write about.For now,XuXuBan/Shark is flying off to his clouds to revise his homework for the upcoming tests,get ready for his presentation tomorrow,continue to pray for all his love ones' happiness and also to continue his search for his other half.*Flew back to his clouds*

Chapter 24

2004-09-23T22:17:00.000+08:00

*Flying down to earth* Yoz..,XuXuBan/Shark has finally returned to earth from his clouds above to talk about his life.Well due to some work,being sick and other stuff,was delayed to come down to earth..,so sad,life is becoming more and more busy.Loads of things happening in life,new and old things.Many decisions to make,some painful,some happy,well that's the way of life i guess.On let's get on to the update of my life.

Well this week has been like all the weeks i had been living ever since i came into poly,BUSY!!!Agrh..,sooo many projects,homework and test,and i thought that after entering poly,life will not be as stress as the life it would be if i entered JC,guess i was wrong,very wrong,it's about the same.Think the only difference is that how much time we are given to complete our education there,and perhaps the size of the school,haha,SP is like sooo big.Sooo many food courts to visit everyday,sooo many food to try,haha,getting lame already.

Like what i said early,had many test, 3 altogether,man that's quite alot for one whole week,haha,not quite lar,it's alright.Haha,but i do not regret taking my Inorganic and Organic Chem test,cause this time i did very well,a very big improvement from a fail to distinction..,muhaha,guess that if i really concentrate,i can do it,like what my dad always say.Today had 2 tests,report writing and math cad(a programm that we can use for maths,why didn't they allow us to use that in secondary school,drawing graphs would have been sooo much easier..,haizzz).For RWP,i guess it was alright,made a few mistakes but i think i will do quite well,haha,worse thing was that i could not print my answer script due to the fact that i kind of logged off earlier than expected cause of my stupid choice of not extending my time,ended rushing to the library to print,thanx Jing si nu er for your cash card.As for the other test,it was easy like nobody's business,well i did make a few mistakes,who doesn't man,but it was really easy and i thought it would be difficult.Oh ya forgot to mention that today is my nu er's best friend,Yvonne's birthday,happy birthday to you yeah,sorrie arh never get you any presents (err also don't scold me if i got your name wrong :P)Hope you enjoy your day.

Earlier this week,nothing much really happened,life was normal.Except for the fact that my nu er got sick..,haiz,take care of yourself horz.Talking about her reminded me of yesterday when i atteneded her CCA's AGM(Annual General Meeting)....,well what can i say,was kind of disappointed as i thought alot of people would have come and attend due to the screening of the movie "50 first dates" but not many turned up.Try harder bah next time,know that you all can do it.Actually was really pissed with her as she was sick yet she came down for the AGM,don't really understand her,is her health less important than her cca...,only she will know.Haizz..,know your limits,that's what i believe in.If you are sick don't force yourself to do things that will make your condition get worse.Well nothing can be done to change le,it's now up to her to take care of herself.

Hooray,tomorrow going to catch BLUE's concert at the indoor stadium with my Quest Blue gang,haha,kc,des and salleh,we're going to catch our idols live,though the seats are not that good(what can you expect,the cheapest) think we will enjoy it to the fullest,have not been out with them for quite some time too.Here's once chance to get back and talk about one another's lives. (^_^) sooo looking forward to tomorrow.

Here's something that i just thought of and decided to write it down on this entry,haha,enjoy.

XuXuBan
There are many decisions in life that one has to make.
There are easy ones,difficult ones,happy ones,
And of course there are heart-breaking ones.
Now i have to make a decision,
A decision that i had made before and it's a painful one.
Though it does not affect anyone around me,
It affects me greatly.
You already got him,
Someone to occupy the space in your heart and soul.
And i have been thinking to myself,
Asking myself to let go off you,
But somehow,i don't know why,
I don't have that energy to do so.
As i'm afraid what would happen after that,
Could we continue being what we were?
But now,i cannot think like that already,
It concerns your future happiness,
And perhaps mind.
Thus i need to make a decision,
A painful one but worthwhile.
Just for your happiness,
I won't mind this pain.

Don't know why but i have been writing alot of these on the tables in school,lolx,kinda crazy but what to di man,when the inspiration comes,nothing can stop me,well guess that's it for now,need to rush report le,so i catch up with my blogging another time.XuXuBan/Shark is now returning to his clouds to rest for a great day ahead of him tomorrow,to think of what he should do and continue praying for his friends and love ones' happiness. *Flew back to his clouds*

Chapter 23

2004-09-11T18:10:00.000+08:00

*Flying down to earth* Hey hey,XuXuBan/Shark is back from his clouds to write about his life...,muhaha,lame sia,actually did not really feel like writing,no inspiration i guess,but due to the boredom around me,think of writing some things to keep me occupied.Well here goes...

1 more day to a week,why can't i wait till then to blog,haha,boredom i guess though this whole week has been quite an alright week for me.Had loads of fun with my friends as this whole week is a holiday for SP students...,did i mention this in the previous post??Hmmm..,who cares...Anyway a week free from lectures and tutorials,but also a week away from a place where all my friends will be there,to joke around and slack...,haha,missed you guys.

The week of holiday is about to end soon,just another day to go and back to school for me,damn, once i get back to school,there's gonna be a mirco-bio test,argh,do i hate that...,haha,but luckily we've got time to study or else...,we are sooo dead.Other than that we have to hand in homework,man that sucks but i guess without them,i will be really bored at home and might rot to death.Hmmm,what else has happened over the week,well monday i went back to my sec school with salleh to play some basketball and meet up with juniors.Ended up,we went to watch "a cinderalla story",not a bad show but salleh was too tired from school in the morning that he slept,or maybe it was too boring for him,lolx.And i even met Ah Ma there(Hui Wen),my classmate..,haha.After that went out to eat and then salleh came to my house to slack again.

The next day,went to sentosa with eunice and wendy to get ourselves tanned and also to play.Haha,was alright but was kinda boring cause there was like only 3 of us.At one point of time,we were like trying to call our other friends to come join us,save us from the suffering of boredom...,haha,but to our dismay,none can come..,so we just continued having fun by ourselves.Sun tan and play beach volleyball..,lolx,wendy did not know how to play so was kind of hurt cause she don't know how to hit the ball the right way..,but she was ok after a while.After the whole day,we were all tanned except for eunice and she was complaining,next time bah eunice mei...,hehe..,had pastamania for "dinner" and went back...(Woohoo,got tanned...) (^_^)

Ok now,next day..,hmmm oh yes,went back to school to meet fu wen kor,ru long,cyn and xue li to study together or so we thought.Ended up,we studied for a while and crapped alot,we even went to queensway to eat,look at squash rackets and bought chocolates from ru long's god sis...Haha,after that went back to school and crapped and "study" some more and then left.Great day thoug,glad to see them... (^_^)

Thursday=>slack at home,did some homework.Nothing much.Friday went back to school for CYA(Changi Youth Amassador,if you all have forgotten)group bonding,played few games and got to know one another better.There were more gals than guys,kind of expected as most of the time,you would see more female workers at the airport than male,right??The better part came later,1st SQUASH SESSION..,haha,decided to join squash and salleh,fu wen kor,hui wen ah ma and her friend,hui xian,nai lin,xue li and her friend,cecilia were there.Muhaha...,what a gang.Think i'm gonna enjoy playing squash.,rather than bowling cause it's more expensive.Right brother salleh??? (^_^) After that went out again to kc's hse to have dinner,that idiot,he had secret recipe for dinner while me and salleh had KFC...,haha,jus kidding kc...Watched a little naruto,crapped alot again,talked about life again and aroun 9++ went back home.Another OK day for me.

Don't know what's wrong with me,keep putting the (^_^) smilies in this post..,haha,perhaps i'm happy or too high bah.But the reason is unknown,haha.Just heard that my friend Jing Si,now i call her xiao si is back from camp and she enjoyed it,glad to hear that...Hmmm anything else,arh yes,my life,think everything is ok bah,hoping that everything will be the same as last time next week,for some of my friends that is reading this should know what i mean...,haha,anyway hope that life will remain this way,HAPPY,CHEERFUL and full of HOPE,like how it is suppose to...,hehe,now here's a song that is nice and i have been listening to it quite often these few days,perhaps it's because it kind of expresses the way i'm feeling now and i think it may show something to those who understand my situation now,but just to let you guys know,I'M OK!!! (^_^)haha...,here goes:

Usher - Burn

[Intro]

I don't understand why
See it's burning me to hold onto this
I know this is something I gotta do
But that don't mean I want to
What I'm trying to say is that I-love-you I just
I feel like this is coming to an end
And its better for me to let it go now than hold on and hurt you
I gotta let it burn

[Verse 1]
It's gonna burn for me to say this
But it's comin from my heart
It's been a long time coming
But we done been fell apart
Really wanna work this out
But I don't think you're gonna change
I do but you don't
Think it's best we go our separate ways
Tell me why I should stay in this relationship
When I'm hurting baby, I ain't happy baby
Plus theres so many other things I gotta deal with
I think that you should let it burn

[Chorus]
When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might ruin you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
We know that it's through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

[Verse 2]
Sendin' pages I ain't supposed to
Got somebody here but I want you
Cause the feelin ain't the same by myself
Callin' her your name
Ladies tell me do you understand?
Now all my fellas do you feel my pain?
It's the way I feel
I know I made a mistake
Now it's too late
I know she ain't comin back
What I gotta do now
To get my shorty back
Ooo ooo ooo ooooh
Man I don't know what I'm gonna do
Without my booo
You've been gone for too long
It's been fifty-leven days, um-teen hours
Imma be burnin' till you return (let it burn)

[Chorus]
When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might ruin you
Let it burn (let it burn, let it burn, you gon'learn)
Let it burn (gotta let it burn)
Gotta let it burn
Deep down you know its best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
We know that it's through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

[Bridge]
I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (ooooh)
I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (yeah)

[Breakdown]
Ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooohOoh ooh oooh (can ya feel me burnin'?)
Ooh ooh ooh oooh ooh oooh
So many days, so many hoursI'm still burnin' till you return

[Chorus]
When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might ruin you
Let it burn (let it burn, let it burn, you gon'learn)
Let it burn (gotta let it burn)
Gotta let it burn
Deep down you know its best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
We know that it's through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn...

Well another long entry and again,it's time to end it,haha,hopefully i willhave greater news yeah??Till then all of you stay cheerful and always believe in fate yeah??Even those that has been experiencing some problems,good things will come their way,you'll see.I'm still believing in it. :D XuXuBan/Shark is now flying back to his clouds to continue with his homework(SIANZ...),to watch over and pray for the happiness of his love ones and to believe in fate. (^_^) *Flew back to his clouds*

Chapter 22

2004-09-05T13:23:00.000+08:00

*Flying down to earth* Yoz XuxuBan/Shark is back from his clouds above,it has been a very busy week,there have been ups and downs,fun and sad times in this week.But luckily the next week is a break week for all SP students,hurray,at last time to relax and also catch up with friends and homework,perhaps time to get back to my normal self(you will understand later,after reading)So i guess this is going to be another long post.Haha,so sit back relax and enjoy reading...

Hmmm..,where should i begin,ok here goes,wednesday my class 1B/22(ROCKS!!)had to go to the NEWater plant in changi for our industrial visit.Guess it went out alright,been there before,was kind of boring for me.But it was different from last time as my classmates/friends were there,so was very funny and entertaining,lucky they were there or else i might have rot to death.Other than that i learnt new things maybe because the other visit i wasn't paying much attention to the speaker,lolx.There was another thing that sort of made my day that day,happened during the trip there,but don't really know whether i should be happy or sad over it,haiz...After the trip went back to school,then went to find eunice mei and wendy,we went out together and decided to head for one of my friend,Jia Hao's house.It was rather a surprise visit and it turned out alright,around 8++ left for home.

For the next few days,i realised that i have not been myself.Even my friends think so.They say that i look more serious,more troubled unlike the old me,always sooo cheerful,so hyper-active,don't know what's got into me.I guess it's the things that i have been thinking about the past few days,more stress??Doubt so,but if it really is,it is one that i brought upon myself.Have been having slight headaches now and then,sometimes,it may get really pain,but after a while,it just subsides.What has been causing these,think i'm the only one that knows the answer.But i don't know whether the thing that i think that caused the headaches is actually the one.Think i better not think about it or yet another headache will surface and ruin the starting of my week break.Other than that on Friday night,my friend Ru Long called me and asked me a shocking question.Asked me whether i could call cheryl(a friend from the partnering class) and ask her whether she saw our friend,crystal at microbio "remedial" lesson that day.He explained....,woah was that a scary experience,but luckily we found her.She was staying at her aunt's place..,phew,thought something bad might happen to her.Anyway she's also another god-daughter of mine.Crystal Nu-er,if you read this,don't go off disappearing like that again kk??Wanna disapear also should call me..,haha,just kidding...,stay happy always yeah??(^_^)

Ok now down to yesterday.Weeeheee,it was the day where my old classmates from secondary school gather again..,muhaha,and boy was it fun and memoriable.It all started in the morning, michelle and i met up and went to KC's house to have some fun first(don't think dirty hor,fun meaning playing table-tennis,going for a swim).Anyway salleh was already there as he stayed over the previous day.We played table tennis like nobody's business till another 2 of my friends came,Kaiting and Jason.Soon after which we left KC's house and went to edric's house(the venue where we were to have our gathering).Reached there and left to buy food for the bbq,came back and started the bbq.More friends came such as ling xiang,fang ting,desmond,serene,felicia,pei ying,hao ren and jia hui.Had loads of fun there,talked about our lives and the guys played basketball.Muhaha,gonna remember yesterday as if it was today.Hmmm then kind of left early as my parents came to fetch(was not really the idea i had in mind,cause needed to help edric clean up the house with KC they all,but still left early leaving some of the mess for them to clean,sorry gang,promise to be able to stay later next time yeah??).There were also sad parts yesterday,was telling my story to 2 of my best girl friends...,haiz,reminded me of sad times....,but other than that,that day was a special day.

Ok..,the week's happenings have been written out.Now..,sad parts.Read my friend/band-mate cum god-bro,salleh's blog.Found out that his life is about the same as me,miserable and pathetic,cheer up bro,i'm also in the same boat as you.It seems that both our lives were destined to be like this,painful and worst thing is we can't do anything about it.Haiz...,ain't that sad.Oh ya i have been writing in a special book of mine,something where i can write my thoughts and feelings inside.

Well think that's it for this week's entry,really feeling super sad now after reading somethings...,nvm guess that's life huh??Lolx hope life gets better for both salleh and me and of cause to those who is sharing the same fate as us...,haizz...XuXuBan/Shark is flying back to his clouds where he can find comfort for the pain his heart is suffering,where he can try to forget and of cause to pray for his family and friend's happiness... *Flew back to his clouds*

Chapter 21

2004-08-30T21:42:00.000+08:00

*Flying down to earth* Wei wei,XuXuBan/Shark is back..,back and kicking again,as you all can see,he's back to his normal cheerful self,the reason,tell you all later in my post.Lolx,realise that i have been blogging frequently these pass few days,don't know why...Heck lar,got something to write then write..,muhaha...And now the story for today begins(feel like i telling old grandfather story,haha) :

Today,like i said,i will return to my old self after 2 days of,errr,how should i put it,troubled with somethings.Now i'm ok le,so guys dont' worry yeah??Also like to thank my good bros Fuwen and Ru long for being there for me,listening to my problems and helping me overcome this obstacle in life.Ru long,dont' worry,i will still treat you,patiently wait for tomorrow bah,which is another 3hrs or so,haha...Found a new meaning to life today,found a task that i should do,must do,as for what the task is,i won't say it.Maybe in the future,i shall disclose it,but for now,hush...

The reasons that brought me back to my original self is,firstly,got great pals like ru long and shuo lun to accompany to "pon",(skip)maths lecture to play basketball,helped me destress alot and chase all my troubles away for that period of time.Once again,THANX ALOT YOU TWO!!! 2nd reason is that what i wrote above,found a task that i needed to do in life,so had the will to continue being cheerful again as there are people out there more worse than me.Want to make them happy,before getting my own happiness.Hope i can succeed in doing this.God pls bless me with the strength to give happiness to the people around me.3rd reason is that i got back to one of my nu er,something sort of happened and were not that close for a period of time,but now,ok le,though not as close as last time,but at least better than nothing...Just hope we would go back to what we used to be..,hehe...,right or not nu er???

Ok now,after basketball,the class finished maths lecture so went to the basketball court to celebrate fuwen kor's birthday,thout we forgot right,no chance kor!!!Bought him a cake and smashed it in his face,woah 1st time saw someone like him,don't chase us around after being smashed into the cake..,haha,pro kor.Gave him his present then set of for bio(hope you like the present kor),2nd break had to rush to library to rush our IDEAS project,last minute preparation,but in the end,managed to do a gd job,proud of all my team-mates cause you all did your best... (^_^) Especially ru long,you did loads for the group with the model,it wouldn't be possible without you.When school ended,had to go find vicky,someone from CYA to tell her that ru long and me couldn't make it for wednesday briefing as we have to go for our industrial visit,going to NewWater Plant,went there before le,but for the assignment marks,what the heck,just go lor..,anyway need those marks,haha...Ended up going for the briefing for those who did not make it into CYA but interested in NYAA,this is when shuo lun and tess may get another chance in getting into CYA,lolx,best of luck to both of you,hope you 2 can get in.

Ok now got a message for my nu er,hope you see this jingsi my nu er.Actually this is a song lor,but think that it really suits you right now,going soo much problems and stress,don't worry hor,got lao pa zai,support you all the way :D.Got xin shi must tell me hor,don't wanna see you sad and don't say you are not worth it,you are..,kkz??Well here goes:

Joey Mcintyre-Stay The Same

Don't you ever wish
You were someone else
You were meant to be
The way you are exactly
Don't you ever say You don't like the way you are
When you learn to love yourself
You're better off by far
And I hope you always stay the same
Cuz there's nothing 'bout you I would change
I think that you could be
Whatever you wanted to be
If you could realize All the dreams you have inside
Don't be afraid
If you got something to say
Just open up your heart And let it show the way
Don't you ever wish You were someone else
You were meant to be
The way you are exactly
Don't you ever say You don't like the way you are
When you learn to love yourself
You're better off by far
And I hope you always stay the same
Cuz there's nothing about you I would change
Believe in yourself
Reach down inside
The love you find Will set you free
Believe in yourself
You will come alive
Have faith in what you do
You'll make it through
Don't you ever wish
You were someone else
You were meant to be
The way you are exactly
Don't you ever say You don't like the way you are
When you learn to love yourself
You're better off by far
And I hope you'll always stay the same
Cuz there's nothing 'bout you I would change
No, there's nothing 'bout you I would change
Don't Change

End.

Well nu er,don't look down on yourself kk??And DON'T CHANGE,won't be the same le.Well think that's about it for today,haha,need to get back to practice my excel,tomorrow got small test.Must score,so i write in another time.XuXuBan/Shark is returning to his clouds to practice his excel(Yawnx),watch over his friends and family,pray for their happiness and of course carry out the task he had set for himself... (^_^) *Flew back to his clouds*

Chapter 20

2004-08-29T20:49:00.000+08:00

*Flying to earth* Yoz..,XuXuBan/Shark is back from the clouds.Don't know why,but it felt to me that i needed to write something or else i will explode soon..,haha,no lar just kidding,just felt like blogging.

Well today was an ok day,quite sianzz though,anyway to day went to send off my eldest bro who is in the navy.From today he will be sailing off to places like Thailand,Burnei and Austrailia for 1.5 months,training.Gonna miss his nagging and weekly visits to home from camp,but the good thing is that i get to use his com,muhaha...[though i don't quite like it as there is no sound when i use guest (T_T)...,can't listen to music] But seriously,gonna miss him and i am the eldest now,so have loads of responsibilty,haizz,more problems being piled up on me over these few days.Wished i could sail out to sea with him,feel the breeze on my face;blowing all my xin shi away into the ocean,never to be found again...,haha,i wish,maybe in the future when i go for NS.

Another 6 days from now to the gathering of my old secondary friends,sooo looking forward to it,wished it was tomorrow,then could tell loads of lame jokes and stories.Laugh together,bbq together just like the old times.Hopefully time flies by fast this week,then i won't need to suffer sooo much,haha..,where got suffer,was just joking.School has been fun since the begining though we do need to adapt to the time schedule and other stuff.Wonder who will be going on Saturday,really hope everyone i know goes,miss them all sooo much.

2nd day since something happened,still feeling lost,still feeling tired and i have no bloody idea what i am going to do...,guess that god is keeping it a secret to me and only wants to share it with me tomorrow when school begins again..,argh...(can i skip school tomorrow)Lolx,too bad can't,tomorrow got to present our powerpoint presentation for our project for IDEAS,lame course like i mentioned in the previous entry.My group members need me and if i'm not in school tomorrow,think some of my close friends in class will get worried,rather not...,rather suffer on me own than make others worry for me.Pls god,take away the pain asap,because i feel that it will hurt even more in the future...,haizz...But god pls don't take away something really precious to me and that is FRIENDSHIP,the friendship i had made with sooo many people over the years,if you do take that away from me,don't know how i'm gonna live,so no matter what,pls don't take away my friendship from any of my friends.Even though this friend may had given me pain,kkz??Thanx soo much.

Sianzz,salleh's hp and modem is down,can't really see him online anymore and now his hp..,poor you bro...,hope your hp and modem gets back soon,miss your nick appearing online,haha,share sooo many xin shi together...,together with kc,jia hao and many more...Well anyway congrats on making into CYA,gonna see you very often soon,muhaha,crap around again.But most of the time is sharing stories about our pathetic life,too bad kc can't join in...,haha,sorry kc.

Wondering whether there is such thing as "There's definitely someone out there for me"..,some friends ask me to continue waiting,some say that i have such good qualities sure very fast have one,lolx,well i have waited people and am going to wait some more with loads of cracks in my heart..,haha,due to some "accidents" in the past,getting them attended to,hopefully it heals soon,must get prepared for anymore of these kind of "accidents"...,(-__-"') lolx,getting lame again..,sorry arh people...

Tomorrow starts a brand new week,yeah,sooo looking forward to it,going to stress out playing basketball...,come on clock,why only 9.25pm,hurry,haha,gonna rot soon..,well anyway think that's about it for today,ahhhh,feel more better after blogging,hopefully i don't need to write everyday or else my results will go down,down and pit bottom..,haha,ok write in another time,till then XuXuBan/Shark is flying off to his clouds to think about life,complete his IDEAS project,continue praying for his family and friends' happiness and of course foget about all the bad memories and continue with like... (^_^) (oh ya,happy birthday fuwen kor=D) *Flew back to his clouds*

Chapter 19

2004-08-28T20:01:00.001+08:00

(^_^) *Flying to earth* XuXuBan/Shark is back,now slacking at home,later going to buy things for my IDEAS project,so sianzz,really hate this module,cause i can't see where it will help us unless we want to be an entrepreneur,well whatever,just another 6 weeks to go before it ends i think,haha,well lucky this whole week has not been busy or else think i will drop dead real soon...

Well let's see..,what have we done this week,hmmm actually nothing much lor,the usual,homework from school,reports for experiments,thinking of how we could do the prototype for our IDEAS project,joking,laughing and crapping around in school.School is getting more fun as time pass by,really getting used to poly life but as for the work,maybe need more time,haha. Other than that...,oh ya,went to watch the movie "Quill" with my best friends in my class,rulong (huo long),fu wen (kor),mark (god-son),jingsi (nu er),tess (hmmm..,still have not think of a nick for you yet...,lolx,will do soon,don't worry) and yvonne (my new found friend cum my nu er's lao pou,meaning wife) well the movie was nice and very touching,was about a dog trained to help the blind but other than that,he brough new meaning into the family.Yvonne and nu er was crying after the movie,well nu er not that much but yvonne was because she has a dog at home.Man can these movies really touch people.After that went to have dinner at Far East Plaza,had chicken rice though now Malaysia has cases of birdflu,as you can see,we trust Sinapore(i think,haha) and jus continue eating...,was delicious but the owner of the shop kept talking to us and was sooo stress while eating,for the 1st time in my life did i feel like that,man is life soo difficult that you can't even eat in peace???The best part was at the back,we took neoprints,1st time taking with my new class,well not all of course,or else i'm sure we will not be able to fit into the screen,haha,anyway turned out alright and was time for us to say goodbye.Had a fun day that day and think all of us did.

Yesterday,went to Bras Basah to buy our IDEAS project stuff with ru long,nu er and yvonne,had a tough time looking for the parts we needed,took us like 2 whole hours to walk around and find them,in the end managed to find them,phew what a relief.After that salleh came to my house to slack,talked loads of crap and xin shi,used the com for a while and then was time to say goodbye again,was a ok day yesterday.

What else is there to write,think will write something else bah.Feeling super lost now,well it's actually really nothing,but don't know why i'm feeling like that.Think i just need to be alone for a while and think or perhaps talk to someone i really trust.Hope monday and the days to come be great as how it was,some of you may get the meaning such as ru long and fu wen kor,hehe,anyway,you all don't need to worry about me hor,i'm strong,will get by this soon i guess,hehe...Even if i can't endure it,i will make sure i will,will get to see my usual self by monday,and ru long,thanx,oh ya remember to do the model hor,try to do some parts kk??Monday we will finish it together,muhaha,now left with the powerpoint show,nu er you also must do hor,if need help can ask me cause i now got nothing else to do,other than to prepare for Excel ICA nxt tues,haha...(remember hor all of you that is in my class,must practice,better not fail or else i will...,muhahaha...)

A new week is approaching and new obstacles will be seen in life,must get ready for all of them,no matter what it takes i want to live poly life to it's fullest,hehe (^_^),oh ya forgot,got into CYA,the thing i talked about in previous post,don't know which one though,got in with ru long and salleh,what a relief,not going there alone,but on the other hand sad cause most of my classmates that ewnt couldn't get in,haizz,... Looks like it's going to be more busy for me (-__-"')sianzz...,luckily there's going to be a friends gathering this nxt sunday at kc's house,sooo looking forward to it,miss all my old friends,want to see whether got change,haha,going to have bbq there,kc let's dual again in cooking,don't believe i cannot cook a tastier chicken wing than you,haha.

Think that's about it for this week,will write in someday soon =D if there's something to write of course,wished i had my very own basketball court now,want to de-stress,haha,oh ya if you guys have any picture of like a guy getting drenched in the rain,pls tell me,i want...,hehe,thanx fang ting for helping me find.Hmmm,well guess that's it so the XuXuBan/Shark is flying back his clouds to keep an eye out for all his family and friends,praying for all their happiness and taking away their worries. (^_^) P.S: To my nu er,congrats once again and may you find true happiness and i will be here for you always :D... *Flying back to his clouds*

Chapter 18

2004-08-23T19:21:00.000+08:00

Alright man,the stressful week has passed,all the tests and reports have been handed up,weeeheee,haha,think i must be crazy right??well,just overjoyed that everything has been done...But we never know,maybe the week ahead may be tougher...,haha,who cares just bring it,since i can overcome last week,think i'm ready for anything else.

Well last week was quite tough due to the tight schedule my friends and i had,woah was it tight,had to hand in 2 reports on the same day and they were both SCIENCE experiments,man those could have taken us years.Other than that,i had to prepare myself for the DCP day on wednesday where i had to do my solo singing of ronan keating's song for "Nothing Hill" the movie,you all should know, the song is "You Said It Best,When You Say Nothing At All".Well it turned out alright because my whole class was there to support me,THANX LOADS 1B/22,LUV YOU ALL...,mucks..,haha,yeah they were there for me all the way,shouting and screaming,man i was sooo touched (T_T)...After that some of us had to atten CYA(Changi Youth Ambassador) briefing so did not manage to cheer for my partner class..,sad,nxt time bah guys.Well the briefing was ok but long,interesting lor...,haha.When it finished had to meet up with group members to do the report till about 7++ then finally went home..,so shag...Next day,rush report,rush report,nothing nice lor,kinda disappointed with myself due to some reasons,but never fear,i will work harder and achieve better right nu er??We will work together..,muhaha,someday we will conquer the world...,lame...Managed to hand in the reports on time on friday and studied for the BIO test the nxt day,sat did the test and went for the interview for the CYA,hopefully i get it cause i really want it...(But there were sure some tough competitiors,oh ya won 4th for the DCP day,argh,sorry geng for not getting the 1st,nxt time bah,if there is a nxt time,muhaha...) [How could i forgot,thanx nu er for waiting for me to go home together,next time i wait for you kkx???] (^_^)

The weekend was fun i guess,loads of family outings,saturday after interview and all that went out for vegetarian dinner near mustafa there with my mother's side of the family,like usual,loads of things to talk about,went to do a little shopping and stuff then went to temesek club to relax,the nxt day,my cousins and aunts came to my house and we cooked up vietnamese food(oops,not me lar,sooo lazy,it was my cousins,aunts and mum)haha..,was it delicious,something new to eat,after that played a little mahjong with my aunts and parents then went out for dinner again...Though we had to wait long,the food was very nice,however forgot where the place is le...,hehe...

Today...,the 1st day of the new week for me and like all mondays,it was PE day for us..,haha, cause due to the 2hr break we have,we deicided to play sports such as badminton,basketball and etc...,today we played badminton,was fun but also tiring..,haha,after that went to the library to study some more and the best part was,we booked a room and slacked.THIS IS THE FUNNY PART..,well all of a sudden we were talking about ghosts and stuff and we found a website and were looking at the pictures,at one point of time,my nu er and friend,tess shouted sooo loud cause of one of the pics,was very scary..,haha..,nu er,dun scared hor,got lao pa here..,hehex...,and remember not to go to the website,later got nightmares...Well there was another incident today but it's not worth mentioning,it just spoils the day...,man that sucks..,haizz..,anyway EVERYTHING'S GONNA BE ALRIGHT...,haha...

One more thing,my nick now is " You Said It Best,When You Say Nothing At All [In chinese,traslated:i have given up but i will never regret the feelings i had for you in the past] Still Praying For Your Happiness".Guess by that,you all can tell loads of things,well guess love cannot be forced,just have to wait lor...,hehe,as a person you must learn to be open-minded,that's what i have learnt from my close friend,eunice mei mei and nu er..,haha,thanx loads you 2!!!(^_^)

Well think that's about it,tomorrow will definitely be a better day for all of us,just need to smile...,hehe,well now the XuXuBan/Shark is flying back to his clouds to revise his hw(boring) and look over his love ones(friends and family)praying for all of their happiness...

Chapter 17

2004-08-15T18:04:00.000+08:00

What the...,i have not wrote my blog for like almost 2 weeks le,sigh,guess that shows that i have been real busy and not in the mood to write.

Well today i will be writing something different cause i wrote this when i was doing homework with my friends one night and all of the sudden,the inspiration came to me,weird har??Anyway so i going to write what i wrote on that day,here goes:

"I miss those days,those days when everyday after school,we would hang out together to slack,play games,go out and sometimes rot,haha.Man,those were the days when everyone of us were happy,not giving a damn to anything,when we knew what we wanted most then,and that was to enjoy ourselves.Those were the days when we did not worry about test(but exams),about other problems such as projects though we did have some back then,but now it's piling into a mountain,sooo much worse.We did not need to worry about our love life;we need not care about which guy or girl that looked pleasant to our eyes or the one that we were chasing or were going out with,everything was a breeze.

Why can't it be the same now,why can't we live our lives as we did before??It is like,now,we are all having trouble making time for everything;work,studies,family,friends and of course love.At many a times,we would face stress coming from all these aspects and feel very fatigue.We do get hurt physcially but most of the time emotionally,especially when it comes to love.No matter how hard we try and hang in there,it always seems that we can never get love.It's always the case that the one we love has either a boy/girlfriend already(but that's ok,I'm sure we would patiently wait for them),or he/she has no special feeling towards us,unlike us to them.This means that they only treat us as friends,close friends or even best friends.Sigh, the stupid thing is that no matter what they say,we continue to wait on for them and during this period of time,we get more hurt as there are always moments in life that somethings will happen and tear open the wound that was inflicted on our hearts the first time.There are no words to describe the pain.

Is it a fact that the good guys never get what they want?Is there no such thing as true happiness?To me,the world around me(or my so-called world) is becoming darker everyday.Though there are some moments that brightens up my day,it is always never enough to light up my world.What can my friends and i do to improve on our current situation,give up on love and start afresh?Doubt that most of us can do that because it is far too difficult for us to give up on something we have worked and waited on for sooo long.

Don't just think that some people are happy just because they are smiling away,joking about everything in life as if they have no worries.In fact,these people are the ones with troubles hiding somewhere deep in their hearts.They just don't want us to know about it and spoil the day.Sigh,how i wish living life is so simple that i need not get tired or even hate it at times,especailly during those times when i get hurt,hurt in the heart that is.Somehow i guess that once there is a wound on your heart,no matter how long you let it to recover,it will never vanish(it's not like a scratch).It will just come back at times.Ain't that pathetic,but that's the truth.

Wonder if god really listens to our prayers and answers them,hope he does,as now i'm praying for all of my friends' happiness even those that has hurt my feelings.Just seeing them happy brightens up my day and i hope with everyone of them,they could somehow relight my world,making it beautiful once again.I want to learn not to hate or have any regrets when a friend scolds or backstabs me.I want to learn how not to lame them for anything even if it really hurts me,bad(But of course if it is for a bad course i would definitely hate them,if it was my fault then i cannot do a thing).Cause in this way,i think more of my family and friends will be more happy.

This is something i came up myself:

I wish upon a shooting star,
That may everything you do come out great.
Your life filled with joy,
Even though i may not be a part of it.
Cause just seeing you smile,
Will bring light into my life.
So,please remember to smile always,
No matter what it takes,
Even if it meant breaking my heart.
I will not blame you nor hate you,
I will be happy for you instead.
As then,you may have gotten,
Something that i may never get,
And that is happiness.

Now,as the wind rustle through the leaves in the trees,i try to forget all the bad memories that i have and continue with life.Always being there for my friends and family,taking away their unhappiness,hoping to give them happiness instead.Life must go on even without love.May the angels hiding in the clouds above bless and protect my love ones.ru guo you yi tian,ni jue de zi ji hen gu du,bu yao pa ying wei ni yong yuan hui you wo zhe ge xiong di/peng you zai zhe li bao hu he zhi ci ni,yi sheng yi shi.(translation:if there comes a day when you feel lonely,don't be afraid cause i'm here to protect you from harm and support you till then end,forever.)"

Well that's it..,haha,long right,think that will make up for the 2 weeks of not writing in my blog.Lolx,but now i really think that the smiles of others can bring happiness to one's self.Going to be another busy day,DCP day is this coming wednesday..,argh and i am performing along,hopefully i dun let down my GREAT class 1B/22...,all the way guys!!!Guess i will end of now,need to have dinner then rush my report already,need to hand in 2 by next friday.OK...,the XuXuBan/Shark is flying off to his clouds to live life to his fullest no matter how hard it may get,cause he belives that patience will give him love and happiness,with that he will contine praying for all his family and friends' happiness....

Chapter 16

2004-08-02T20:46:00.000+08:00

Wished i could just take away all the pain that my bandmates/close friends are having now and throw it away,they look terribly down and i just wished i could take all their pain away and put in on my own shoulders and let them live happily again,especially my brother salleh... I know how you are feeling now and i know,it sucks but this is life and you jus have to accept it though it is painful,but never fear cause i am always here for you in times of pain and happiness,remember that.

It's been another one of those weeks,hopeless,sad and really depressing weeks where more and more people around me have been down and out due to many problems(not to mention myself). Haizzz,why can't we live normally without going through sooo much pain and suffering,won't life be easier that way and much happier???Though there are good and bad times in life,somehow think that the bad times have occupied most of my and my friends' lives.To me,it seems so unfair,i mean i think that all of us have been real good,meaning helping others in anyway that we can and all those stuff,but it never seems that we get to get what we really want.And that is to have our "special" ones close to us,to give them happiness and spend memorial moments with them.Why..,why can't we have this wish,this fantasy that we have been hoping for???Can anyone answer that??I guess only god has the answer and he will only show us in the upcoming future....

It has been another busy week as well for all of us,in addition to all the lectures,tutorials,practicals and projects we have to do in school,we now have tests...,argh,just had my micro-bio test last saturday,it was kinda easy and it costed me and my classmates to stay up real late trying to remember loads of stuff,if we knew that it was going to be that simple,we wouldn't have bothered i guess,but what to do,cause this is counted in our report..,no longer secondary school style...,haha,missed those days where we would slack after school,play basketball and talk loads of crap plus joking around..,man those were the days...,i would give anything to let it all repeat itself again.Still got some more tests further down the month and i think i will have to work hard to get good results...,hehe...,i know i can do it as long as i put my mind to it,but for now,my mind is occupied with alot of thoughts and worries,guess i have to deal with these first before I can really start...

Another thing about this month is...,BIRTHDAYS..,argh,so many friends' birthdays and i guess i need to buy presents for all of them which will result a big hole in my wallet(omg,it's still smoking,HELP,someone put out the fire...)haha,lame sia,well anyway like today,it is one of my friend's birthday...,florence,happy birthday to you again though i have wished you this morning,(Still haven't got your present,will get it soon kk??Anyway i told wendy about your birthday today,she was in a shock,haha,you should have listen to her on the phone...)haha..,tomorrow is another friend's birthday,gwen if you read this may all your dreams and wishes come true..,enjoy your birthday tomorrow...(^_^) Oh ya how could i forget,Singapore's birthday is next monday,haha,but don't really understand why we don't get a another day of holiday on tuesday when even SAJC does..,so unfair,haha,guess that's the difference between JC and Poly...,too bad...

Sooo many choices in life that we all have to make and not all the choices we make are the right ones though we may think so.Sometimes the choices that we made brings regret later in the future and we do ask ourselves why did we choose that choice and no the other,how pathetic right??I really do hate making choices at certain points of time in my life,it's really very hard to decide and because of this,it brings depression and all that stuff,making life more miserable,haizzz...Wished fate could do all the decision in my life but i guess this is not possible,we all need to make decisions in our own lives,but i really hope that it can help me out with the one i have to make now...,give me a sign god or whatever...,show me the path...

Well guess that's all I'm going to write today,another summary of the week activities,my thoughts and activites(argh tomorrow got SPSU activity,wished i could skip it and take a long walk,in the rain if possible).The XuXuBan/Shark is flying back to his clouds to seek shelther from the pain and suffering of this world and wishes to bring his friends along,to take them away from it all...,if this is not possible,don't worry cause he is praying for his friend's happiness...,all of them...,cya and take care

Chapter 15

2004-07-26T20:11:00.000+08:00

Haizzz..,almost a week already right??ok then,so i will write about the past week,well what can i say..,think it has been a very painful,sad and remourseful week for alot of people(my friends of course),mine was ok i guess...,it seems that alot of my friends are having rough times during the early period of a new school life...,wished i could help them to get over their unhappiness and sorrow...(feeling super usless now,can't even help the ones that i love and care for...)

Guess i will not further explain or else more of the pain will surface and some of my friends that do come and read my blog may cry and i will be the cause of it again...,hey guys,if you all ever need a listening ear or shoulder to cry on,come find me,although i may not be what you want i just want to tell you all that i'm always here for all of you..,remember that hor(^_^)

It has been a tiring week for me,last friday,i went to queensway with my friend/classmate,mark to get my "new" basketball(now,it's no longer new,haha)...,got a converse one,not bad i guess then after that went back to meet my friends for dinner.But before that went to play a little bit of basketball with him and my new ball..,quite alright lar,tried teaching mark how to play as he is a freshie at this sport,hehe...,was alright lar,no one's perfect.After that i went to meet my 2 friends and we went for dinner at SWENSENS at holland...,guess you all can imagine a big hole still burning in my wallet,haha,no lar it was ok lar,the price is affordable and we had fun there...,after that we went to my friend's house(my 11++yrs long friend),we wanted to play basketball again but the court had loads of people so we ended up playing badminton,was vry fun though i was kinda ganged up,both of them played against me...tiring sia :P Around 9 went back with my other friend,wanted to walk her home buy she said she not used to it and wanted to walk back herself,was quite worried for her,in the end let her walk back herself...

The next few days was playing basketball but also did some studies,tried to help one of my friends/bandmate and close friend that needed to retake some subjects for O levels,but not much was done,think we need to push him even more or else nothing would improve and the O levels are not that far away,another 3-4 months till it starts and that to me is very little time...,buck up yeah desmond??We are doing this for you as we really want you to be able to join us soon in poly...

Loads of stuff is going to happen over this week and the weeks ahead,hopefully i am ready to take them on and overcome all the obstacles with my friends,just really hope my friends are happy as that is the only thing that i wish for them,so my friends out there,smile and stay happy always,life is full of happy stuff even though there are times when the dark side seems larger than the brighter side.But whenever you feel down,always think of me and your other friends,cause we are always here for you (^_^) To my 11++yrs long friend:"I am always here for you,rain or shine so if there is anything that you need to voice out,you can find me cause you have been there for me and this is what friends are for,kk???And of course happy 17th birthday to you,may all your dreams and wishes come true,also not forgetting stay happy always!!!"though it may be early,just want to wish you...,hehe

Well think that's about it for today,must go back study already,got test this saturday(can you believe that,a weekend going to have a test in school,think that's what's different with poly and secondary school)well catch up later..,XuXuBan/Shark is flying off to his clouds once again to protect his love ones and bless them with happiness!!!

Chapter 14

2004-07-20T20:34:00.000+08:00

Guess who's back,back again..,haha,XuXuBan/Shark is back and this time he's no longer feeling upset and this is all because i had a great day and sort of found a new way to relieve stress and my emotions in a different way...,so happy,happy until can go siao liao[crazy for those that don't understand,it really works,ok maybe for me lar] (^_^)

Hmmm,woke up at 7.30 today though lessons only starts at 10,some of you maybe thinking "what the,can sleep more don't sleep,what a moron",lolx,well i too know that i should have slept more but what to do sia when you wake up at that time and don't feel like going back to sleep.Ok anyway went to have breakfast which consisted of eggs,fried onions,sausages,bread and milo(very nice and filling sia).After that started to get ready for school and stuff..,blah blah,then slacked a while and left for school,took the mrt,was thinking about loads of stuff,but was quite in a good mood though loads of unhappy things have happened to my geng and me,but it's ok,think we will survive,right anot geng???

Well school was alright,got more bonded with my class and stuff,learned more chim(difficult to understand things,headache sia)sure to make it one day...,haha,after that went out wif my friends(my geng,eunice and wendy)went to buona vista cc(short-form for community centre)to play basketball,this is the way that i was talking about.The way that made me relieve my stress and emotions inside of me,the feeling was sooo good,especially after the match we had with some other people,was kinda on fire,so chiong lor(charge)haha....,my group won,but think it was quite an evenly matched match,there was a guy that was good in the other team...,but heck care..,muhahaha...,other than that i sort of accidently injured one of my god-brother/close friend/geng salleh,so sorry man,did not mean it,hope you recover soon...,after that went home...My other friend/geng,Jia hao was really sad today,but all i can say to him is to be relax and wait patiently for love to come and knock on our door.

Ok,i was feeling real bad about saying god teasing us few that to me has been real good,i was thinking about this on the train and at other times,i think that god has plans for all of us but now isn't the time yet for these plans to happen,so like what i said earlier,i will just have to continue waiting,praying and hoping that something good will happen for my poor friends around me and of course myself.Hang in there guys & gals.We got each other to hang on to and look for when we are having our downs,yeah??

Well,guess that's about it for today,also learnt something new and got some advise from one of my close friends(she has been my friend for like 11yrs already,isn't that cool,same primary,secondary and now same poly,haha,well she has been encouraging me,so eunice i have not let you down and don't you worry,i will listen to your advise,kk???)other than that,think today was an alright day for me,hopefully tomorrow will be a better day for all of us (^_^) For now it's time to say goodbyes,till next time,the XuXuBan/Shark is returning to his cozy clouds now to catch his rest and look over his friends and the special one... :D

Chapter 13

2004-07-19T20:44:00.000+08:00

It's been almost a week already and i am jus starting to feel the stress of being in poly,loads of stuff to do such as projects for english,IDEAS and i guess more and more will be coming up,hopfully i can handle it.Well other than that,i jus came back from SPSU recruitment drive camp last sunday.Was really tiring but fun and interesting,made loads of new friends,learned new songs and cheers but worse of all LACK OF SLEEP..,argh,only 2-4hrs of sleep everyday lor,so tired,but i guess like that then it's called a camp.Once again,SPSU ROX...,haha,sorrie arh jing si,c whether i can join SPSU,if not then consider CADC kk??

Well other than these few things,think last week was the one of the worse week in my life,somehow got rejected again by THE ONE and i jus mean somehow,dun think narrow or like how chinese say it bei xiang wai wai...,haha...Anyway back to the topic,super miserable.But think i will survive and won't give up to chase THE ONE,cause i really think she is THE ONE for me and even if she's not,really hope she will give me a chance to try and to show her how much she means to me...,haizzz,writing all these making me feel more emotionally(emo) again,help mi.

Somehow i really wonder whether god is teasing the good guys,it's like all my guy friends & some gals are facing the same problem as me lor..,it's like we are still waiting for the special one to us,hoping that he/she will give each of us a chance on becoming our steads.Not to mention that i think all of us are pretty good choices lor,the looks also quite ok wad.But somehow we don't get what we want in life..,to us i guess it's love,god really does not really see it or perhaps he has plans for us in the nearby future and i hope he does,good one too,or else i will have to change my first part of my nick to which i don't want to cause my nick for now is alright as it is and i like it.

Hmmm..,ok for the sad part already,let's jus hope that everything will come to a good ending,for both me and the friends around me.Not forgetting THE ONE as well..,haha...,think better get back to my work liao,write in soon(i hope,haha..)till next time,the Shark/XuXuBan is flying off to his clouds again to do what he is here to do...

Chapter 12

2004-07-13T21:03:00.000+08:00

Wei Wei people,5 days has pass by real quick and i guess i have forgotten to write in about what has been happening to this xuxuban/shark,haha,lame sia...Hmmm,these 5 days have been happy,busy,fun,sad,tiring and a lot more,hope you all are ready to read...

According to my calculations,the whole week last week,i have been going out wif THE ONE,you all should know who am i referring to if you have read my past posts,well kinda got the feeling back cause we are in the same school BUT different course,so sad(T_T)...,other than that,it's fine with me.Went out to loads of places,mostly is sending her back home,others is going out with my other frienz.Hopefully more of this kinda things will happpen more often.

Well,guess that's the happy part,the busy part is that now that school has started and we the freshmens have loads to do,like getting used to getting up early for lectures,absorbing what our lecturers have to pass on to us(knowledge i mean,certainly not rubbish :P),adapting to the new life-style,the SP life-style i mean,loads of projects are on their way and we don't really have loads of time to do them.If there is not enough time to do this,where do we find the time to go have fun,haha,actually my classmates and i have been doing that.Hanging around and exploring the school,eating together,go play pool outside and of course talking rubbish(which youngsters don't like that,muhahaha).I guess we just have to mangae our time and get adapted to the new life-style of poly soon,and then we will not have anymore problems.(though i say this,what am i doing now,blogging,haha,okok,will get back to work after this...)

That's the busy part,FUN=going out with old & new frienz,chatting,making noise,teasing one another,i think you all should be able to get my idea rite???Oh ya,today is one of my god-sis's birthday,she turned 17 le,Happy 17th Birthday to you Rui Rong Mei...,haha,may all your wishes and dreams come true,sort of celebrated it with her and a couple of frienz,went to meet her at her school which is also near our old school,decided to go there and cut the cake we bought her,kinda cool.After that went to PS to eat long johns silver,sorry arh,cannot afford much,not working nowadys so have to be budget.Haizz,too bad i cannot stay long,my dad was passing by so picked me up,kinda lucky/unlucky.Lucky is because it was raining heavily,so did not get soaked,unlucky is because i wanted to spend more time with them,what to do.Nxt time bah.(^_^)

Ok,here comes the sad part,but i think i won't write it,cause it's really personal,just give a few hints,it has to do with THE ONE and me...,haizz,jus thinking about it makes me sad again.Makes my world become sooo dark that i can hardly see or feel the warmth,so sad...(T_T) But i will survive,i will be patient and wait for her all the way.(To THE ONE:i will always wait for you,cos you are the reason for me still being here)

The tiring part is actually because of homework,the constant thinking of THE ONE and perhaps the adapting to the new life-style in SP...,hopefully this tiredness will go away soon and let me enjoy life in SP to the fullest(ok not only SP,my whole life bah) and hopefully i will get together with THE ONE soon,really hope that it could happen and last between us...,haizz,but for now,just have to wait.

One more thing,created a new nick for myself,well sort of a group and some of my frienz have joined in cause we all are having the same problems..,haizz,sad isn't it,all gd guys but we don't really get what we want...,well this is the group: The Reason Why I'm Still Here Is Simple,It's You... After that we just write what we got to say lor...(^_^)

Think that's about it,and woah is that alot of things for you all to read,haha..,hope you all enjoyed it,will write more the next time yeah,till next time then,the XuXuBan/Shark is flying back to his clouds...

Chapter 11

2004-07-08T19:24:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to Me,
Happy Birthday to Me,
Happy Birthday to Meeeeeeeeeeeeeeee,
Happy Birthday to Me!!!

LOLX..,yeah,it's my birthday today and loads of things happened yesterday and today,loads of presents given by all my friends,sms-es sent by my other friends from SLC,you all rock!!!But the best was my new class singing me a birthday song during one of the breaks we had,THANK YOU ALL SOOO MUCH,made this a special day for me and i will always treasure it.Sooo much goodies,haha...(& finally 17yrs old..,haha)

Well,yesterday was real shitty/gd,some of my juniors came and gave me my birthday presents,so touched,then we took pictures and stuff outside the DOVER MRT girls toilet ,lolx,funny sia,oh ya it was also one of my new class,classmate's birthday,happy 17th birthday to you Cindy.We all sang her a birthday song right after one of our lectures,super cool man...,haha.After that,at night,i was blogging and was suppose to put up a new post,but when i was publishing,the webbie said it cannot and when i tried to publish again,all my stuff were gone,poof,disappeared,i was sooo pissed,haiz..,haha but i'm here to write now.

Hmmm..,well today was a great day,birthday and all,tomorrow another of my classmates birthday,Happy Birthday to you Shun Long,now how cool is that to have 3 birthdays straight,haha,loads of july babies in my class.

How do u tell whether someone is hinting you???Well,my god-bro,salleh says that another friend of mine is hinting me that i should ask her..,you know,that.But it is sooo difficult to tell whether it is true or what lor,so that's kinda why i did not ask and stuff,wanted to make sure that all these that she is doing is what my god-bro says,if it is then maybe i will try,but if it fails i will not regret anyway...

Feels super shiok now,so nice to be one year older,haha.Tomorrow got a class outing,but i don't know whether i going cause she will be in school till 4.Then maybe go there and fetch her home,anyway i want to give her something,a book that i promised her that i will get for her.Most probably will go fetch her,but who knows rite??See whether i got the mood lor.

Well tomorrow things tomorrow settle,think that's all for today,think i better save a draft 1st before i publish,later the same thing happen then can die sia..,haha,once again to all my family members and friends,thank you sooo much for making this day sooo special for me,now this xuxuban/shark will return to his clouds and sleep tight with all his goodies today..,haha...,till next time,take care all...

Chapter 10

2004-07-06T21:24:00.000+08:00

Wooohooo..,today's class started at 10,more sleep for me,haha..,can't help it,i luv sleeping whenever i can and this time i CAN!!!haha...,well today's classes were quite ok,more notes,introductions,you all get my point right??the usual and stuff...

One different thing today was the whole class was gathered for 1hr to discuss out informal class outing due to the fast teaching of our tutor teacher/one of our course teachers, Miss Tan,thanx sooo much Miss Tan.We discussed about where we were going this friday,what we are going to do,where we going to meet and what time.It was fun cause it's the so-called 1st time the whole class sat together and discuss something that we are all interested in,as long as it's fun,we are there...,haha.Met more people and know more about them,anyway we finally "finallised" that we will be going to Hougang plaza for our class outing,going to go K-box(meaning karaoke)and play pool..,that is if the K-box got enough space to fit in all 22 of us.1B/21's class rep is vry jealous of our class cos his class is like not doing anything to know one another better.But i guess they will sooner or later.

Hmmm,oh ya,finally found the stupid booth for the bowling cca,haha,signed up for the cca,hopefully my friend,salleh and i get in,but i also think that this cca is going to be real expenisve,the ball,shoes,training...,argh,but i guess it's going to be worth it for something that i am interested in..,haha.Well the other qn is whether i should join SPSU,still deciding and time is getting lesser...,argh.

Should i write about something on my mind..,think so bah,well it's something to do with what my friend,salleh said,he told me that one of my other friends,a gal is giving me "signs",somehow i just think that it's nothing special lor,but if she is,then perhaps it's gd for me..,haha,not going to write why though.Anyway think it's possible to deduce it...Also found out that one of my old primary school friend is in the same school as me,Chemical & Life Science School...,hope to see him soon and catch up.

Haizz..,sooo much happen today,really hope days will be much better in the future for me and my friends.And i really hope that something may happen between my friend,of course the girl and i.If not then,it's alright,as long as she is happy,i'm fine with it.

2 more days,and wo hui pian cheng duo yi shui lao le..,haha..,hopefully it will be an enjoyable one,if i do have a wish,hope it comes true too...,well think that's all for today,anyway,it's quite long,so will be flying back to the dream clouds and enjoy life,watch over my family and frienz... (^_^)

Chapter 9

2004-07-04T21:07:00.000+08:00

What a weekend..,haizz,wars have been happening in my house and i am caught in the middle,well the wars that have been happening is between my younger bro and my parents again,the reason is the same as the last time,bgf(for those who do not understand,it's boy-girl relationship/boyfriend & girlfriend)argh..,why does this kinda thing have to happen,don't they ever get tired,i know that i am.But i cannot actually blame them,cause my parents wants the best for my bro,so they kinda confiscate his handphone,computer so that he can concentrate more on his work(this year he is having his O levels anyway),trying to get him to forget about his girlfriend for now.But like what youngesters will do,they do not get the whole situation and try to get all the chances they have to talk to their "love ones"..,and this caused the whole arguement...,hopefully they will get over it soon,and my bro will finally awaken and find out that he has to cast his relationship aside for now or he may regret later like my friend who is retaking some subjects as a private candidate...,really don't want to see my own brother going down like this cause of relationship problems,it's just not worth it.Luckily for me,i escaped from this problem when i was in sec 4,phew...

Hmmm..,other than that,my weekend has been full due to work at my store...,quite ok i guess,well school is starting tomorrow and i don't think i can work as many days as i used to have,sad,cannot earn $$ and cannot see my dear collegues at work..,argh,will miss you guys,try to get used to SP life then come back yeah??

Some things are sooo easy to understand that before it happens,you would have already know what is going on,likewise,there are also some things that are sooo difficult to understand,you know that it's trying to tell you something,but no matter how hard you try,you never seem to get it..,that's what i am feeling now,a mixture of confusion and depression and i have no idea how come i am having this,perhaps it's due to past events which i do not want to mention...how can a person be both envious and jealous that he/she is not how someone else is...,think i'm one of them,kinda both envious and jealous that my friends can be sooo successful in bgr and stuff,but what the heck,don't want to talk about this any further,later i talk nonsense,haha...i guess that's where all my confusion ad depression is coming from...,argh,help me...

Well think i will stop blogging for today,try to straighten out my life now,try to get the answers that i need now,well off i fly/swim to,to look over life and my family and friends... (^_^)

Chapter 9

2004-07-01T21:13:00.000+08:00

Yeah..,as what i wished for yesterday,today was a great day though we have to do flag day in different parts of Singapore.Think the days in SP will be great and memoriable..,muhahah...,guess i made the correct choice...

Well to start off with,the guys in my class went together to do the flag day,we talked loads,got to know one another better and stuff,had loads of laugh,while doing flag day,it was the same,saw my frien's frien,kendy..,doing at the same place..,haha,what a small world..,well after a couple of hrs,we retired,went to grab some lunch and also decided to play a bit of pool before returining back to SP.Though some of us had no xperience playing in it,those who have taught them and we were having fun..,think our bond has gotten stronger and stuff...After that,went back to school to count the money and stuff...,we guys decided to give our loose change to the one wo had the most so that at least one of us could get a prize,sort of being as one to achieve something..,turned out to be $100++..,quite impressive,dun u think..,haha,that's wat you get for working as a team.(shsssh..,dun tell ani1 hor)

Gd for us guys..,but now the problem is,i dun even know one of the gals in our class...,looks like have to wait for the semester to start then start to know one another lor..,perhaps organise an outing to know one another..,maybe that will work...

OK...,now after the flag day,were suppose to go out,but ended up onli mi and jia hui going out,but aniwae we went our diferent ways,i went to meet my frien who's frien i saw at amg mo koi doing flag day,accompany her to buy some story books she wanted to read and a birthday present for her collegue...,had a fun time together,saying one another,laughing and stuff.Owe her a treat due to the snack she bought me,which i do not know why she got me,haha..,now still with me,think i going to eat later for night snack(argh..,need to excercise lar)haha...

Overall..,it was a great day and hopefully everyday will be just like today,happy with no worries (^_^),well think that's all for today,so now this xuxuban/shark will return to his clouds above to watch over his family and frienz ;p

Chapter 8

2004-06-30T21:52:00.000+08:00

Another day is approaching to it's end and all i can say is..,it's been a great day...,think today was better than yesterday,orientation day..,cos now more used to seeing the faces of my classmates le..,so think now can get to know them better..,haha,guess it will be 3 great years at SP if i put in effort to go enjoy it,and i think i will,haha...

Well today kinda sianz..,went to school cos of SPICE training..,was vry blur at 1st..,thought it was gardening stuff when i 1st heard it,but it turned out to be some kinda internet stuff we have to learn as for the next 3 years,we will depend on it on certain stuff,phew,lucky got go..,haha...Got over it in less then the time they expected us to finish,maybe bcos we are pro bah,haha,who am i kidding..,got to know loads of stuff,getting more fit into SP le,watch out SP,cos the shark/xuxuban is coming..,muhaha,lame,i noe..,but wat to do...

OMG!!!FLAG DAY..,and it's tomorrow,but i think i don't mind doing it,cos i think it's for a good course and we are helping loads of people that are in need of our help..,don't you agree guys???BUT..,y all the way to WOODLANDS!!!yesh you read right..,i have to start off at woodlands which is kinda far lor(not to mention kinda x to,jus to get there...,argh,think we all have to play our part bah,so i guess it's ok)...,think i most prob will go orchard that area,perhaps my old school and store to get the money..,muhahah..,jus like the other flag day me and one of my best frienz,salleh..,that was last year..,pro man..,haha...

Hope tomorrow will be a great day as this..,well guess i write in tomorrow,haha...,to those of my frienz that suffer the same fate as me tomorrow.,meet up yeah??and to those frienz who are sick take care of yourselves..,smile always (^_^)

Chapter 7

2004-06-29T19:25:00.000+08:00

What the...,it seems that i totally forgot to blog for like 10 days already,haizzz..,looks like i am really getting busy or lazy that i don't blog that often le...,sad rite???haha...,try my best to blog every week lar...

So let's see...,wat news do i have...Oh yes the poly life is starting already and the worst thing about it is we have to start making frienz all over again which is not a bad thing of course...,it's just that sooo ma fan if you get what i mean of course..,for those who dun..,i explain..,TROUBLESOME...,yeah but what to do...,new school=new frienz..,yeah man..,hopefully can make loads of new frienz like how jia hui jie does it...,wah today went for the orientation,it's like wherever we go,there will be people that will know her lor...,sooo lao qui..,haizz...,will try my best to make as many frienz as she has..,haha..,watch out jia hui,the SHARK is on ur tail...,muhahah...

Well new school also means new cca to join..,now i kinda getting troubled oever this lor..,it's like i don't quite know what cca to join..,argh..,getting headache le,cos i scared that when i join 1 cca,i may regret later..,but i think i will not regret joining SPSU(Singapore Poly Students' Union)which looks like loads of fun...,but i guess when i join sure very shy and stuff but think i will get over it asap... (^_^) Pls let me fit in nicely,haha..,if not the SP bowlers looks cool too..,the best part is training at CINE!!!how cool is that..,muhaha..,smooth lanes...,near my place,shopping,arcade...,must join sia..,haha...,right brother salleh??another thing that i think i must do is that be more open-minded and stuff..,be more outgoing..,think that's how it is now for poly life...come on wen xu...,u can do it!!!!haha..,trying to help myself,convince myself that i can do better...,pathetic right...,haizz...,so sad...

Well think that's all for now...,nothing much about my love-life..,cos nothing is really happening lor..,haha..,sad case...,but staying single is quite ok for me,haha..,but just not too long... :P well then,write in another time then..,cya...

Chapter 6

2004-06-19T20:08:00.000+08:00

Back from SP floorball camp..,and boy was it tiring...,now having cramps all over my body especially my legs and back..,pain man..,haizz,but another thing was that the cca got loads of malays,not that i am being racist or anything..,but i was kinda lost in the camp as they were speaking malay all the time..,don't even understand..,it's felt like you did not belong there if you understand what i mean...,haizz,wat a disappointment...,but i did have fun and will and not regret that i went..,haha...,what am i talking...

OMG!!i jus found out that i have another camp coming up,it's the mass orientation camp(MOP)for all freshmen of SP...,argh..,think i am sooo going to fall flat when i come back...,sooo many things happen during june and lesser time to work,this means lesser $$$ (T_T) some more after school starts will have lesser time to work..,haizz..,sad case but what to do..,cos i really want to do well so that i can enter U,better if i can go overseas to study..,but i guess for now just stick to the Us here in S'pore..,haha...

School starts-->HW-->lesser time to go out & stress...,argh..,though i am looking forward to have my studies in SP..,it seems that i am still in the holiday mood...,lolx..,better get out of it soon,or else i may get into trouble once school starts which is 2 weeks from now..,but another thing that i am looking forward to is to see familiar faces in my course:CHEMICAL PROCESS TECH..,some of these people are my sec sch friends:Brother Salleh,Jia Hui,Jian Yang,Qili,Benmin,Shu Fen & many more..,think that life in SP will be great..,haha..,and i hope so too.. (^_^)

SLC=STUDENT LEADER CONVENTION..,where are you guys...,missed you all sooo much and hope to see u all soon..,but i know that most of you are having your Os this year like my bro..,so perhaps have vry little time to go out and stuff..,but stay in contact yeah???

Well guess that's all for today...,may tomorrow and the rest of the year be a better one(actually all the days till we pass aways..,haha..,but what the heck..,we live today and look forward to tomorrow)the Shark/XuXuBan is flying back to his clouds now..,haha...,to watch over all his friends and family... (^_^)

Chapter 5

2004-06-14T21:50:00.000+08:00

Wei Wei..,back at last to write in mi blog..,woah let mi count,it has been 1,2,3,4,5,6,7 oh mi god more than a week since i wrote in on mi blog..,haizz,so busy and cannot take out the time to write mi blog..,so sad...

Well the pri 5 camp was vry fun though it was tiring,hectic and had trouble here and there wif both the teachers and puipls..,glad that it is over wifout ani1 of us getting harmed or killed..,lolx,jus kidding...,though some kids were cute and all,some were reallie giving us attitude lor..,wanted to give them a piece of our mind...,argh..,but wat the heck...,all went well in the end.Thanx guys meaning the instructors..,for all the help and i think u all enjoyed it as well rite??(^_^)

Well now that is over,it's time for another..,lucky this time it's a chalet then mi "geng" and i hab been planning since feb i think..,it better b worth the money and time...,wanna reallie enjoy miself..,muhahah...But 1 gd thing abt it is the place we are having the chalet,it's at SENTOSA..,so cool,beach and stuff..,no nagging from parents and stuff not that i'm complaining cos i noe that they nag for our best...,loads of sun to tan mi skin...,sooo white,like ghost like that...,not surprised if at nite got c scary things..,choi..,lolx...sooo looking forward to it..,at it's onli 2 more hrs away..,yupz..,it's tomorrrow..,YEAH!!!Sadly i think i can onli stay for 2 daes onli though it's onli 3daes 2nites..,wat the heck..,cos need to go for another camp the nxt dae...

Well this camp that i'm going to is the cca grp camp that i will b joining once i enter sp and that is floorball..,how cool is that..,b4 school opens got camp for the cca grps,ok mayb mine cos i dunno whether the other cca grps got anot..,haha...,miss playing floorball although i onli played it for fun during pe lessons in secondary school,but sure had fun...,another 3 whole daes away from home...,looks like when i reach home..,i will stay for quite some time..,lolx...

Hmmm..,anithing else to sae..,think not bah...,wrote sooo much liao..,perhaps after mi chalet and camp got more things to sae,rite??haha..,well then i write in soon..,gonna miss mi blog..,haha,jus kidding...,signing out...

Chapter 4

2004-06-04T22:15:00.000+08:00

Woah...,it's been quite a while since i wrote in..,all thanx to the organising of the camp and the last few daes b4 it is vry crucial...,wat a pain...,plan this,do that..,argh the agony...,well at least i am gonna enjoy miself there wif mi frienz...
Well watched harry potter on the dae b4 it opened wif mi family and mi younger bro's gf...,it was quite nice lar but i think that the 1st 2 were nicer...,i think bcos it was to predictable and not much action..,perhaps due to the fact that the director is a different person and the previous headmaster passed away..,it was like this new one is too energetic...,lolx...,sorrie arh guys..,that i did not watch it wif u guys for the 1st..,but cannot blame mi lar..,mi family outing mah...,especailly to salleh...
2 more daes till the Radin Mas Pri 5 camp...,sooo looking forward to it and hopefuly it will b unforgetable camp...,but for now still habing some probs such as not having this equipment and that..,but i guess tomorrow will b settled..,muhahah...
Well think that's all..,now going to chat and stuff so cya...

Chapter 3

2004-06-01T23:17:00.000+08:00

HAIZZZZ....,y,y god,y can't i go for both the radin mas pri 5 camp and mi store camp at pulau ubin,sianzz...,how i wished i could go for both cos i noe that both will b super fun...but i noe that there is always another time for mi to go to these kinda stuffs again...,so it's alright..,hey geng at Starbucks Holland Village...,mus enjoy yourselves hor wifout mi...,although it will not b the same wifout mi there...,lolx..,jus kidding... (^_^)
Well todae worked again...,was kinda ok wif shah and kristie...,shah was sooo funny..,so blur that we cannot stop laughing..,but it turned out ok lar...,then after work got store meeting abt the outing..,and i did not noe lorz...,heng i got work todae..,haha...but all they talked abt was the outing and other stuff lor...,the other stuff were important..,but the camp..,argh..,i cannot go..,sad...,mayb this is y i am feeling that i hab no mood todae..,but wat the heck the dae is abt to b over...,lolx...
Tomorrow is Vesek Dae..,going to go to the temple..,pray then dunno go where..,c 1st lar...,but hopefully do something interesting and fun..,or else i sure die...,well guess i will b working nxt week while mi other partners enjoy the camp..,but i will too enjoy the other camp...,lolx..,well signing off now..,wirte in tomorrow...

Chapter 2

2004-05-31T22:35:00.000+08:00

Wat 2 daes it has been for mi...,planning more things for the camp and stuff...,got no time to write mi blog...,sad...,but i am sooo looking forward to the camp...,it's sooo gonna b great wif all mi pals and stuff..,haha..,but the bad thing is mi store's outing will clash wif mi camp...,argh..,and i sooo wanted to go...,hopefully the place is sentosa so that after mi camp breaks i can go there and then hab fun...,wah jus heard from kristie(partner from Starbucks)that we habing store cleaning on the 11...,sooo cool...,1st was salleh's store...,now mine...,haha...
Sianzz...,it has been 2 whole daes of all work(organising) and no play daes for mi..,ok lar got play a bit of basketball and com...,but i would prefer going out...,but dun think mi pals got time....,they r either working or studying...,sad...,but hopefully when school starts..,things will b more interesting...,ya rite???
Well mi bro jus had his mid-year chinese O level xams todae..,he said he will die..,but hopefully not..,well if u do bro...,study harder..,stop using the com sooo often(let mi use it..,haha..,no lar..,for u..,i can dun use...)well for all mi junior frienzz..,if u think that u kinda screwed up todae..,dun worrie kk..,u all still got another chance and pls use it wisely..,this is vry important...
This whole month of june will b SUPER DE DUPER BUSY for mi...,and hopefully i can write in mi blog when i hab the time...,if not wait till further notice pple...,muhahaha...,well gtg sleep liao..,tomorrow working..,signing off...
[Wif her in mi arms...,everydae is a perfect dae....]

Chapter 1

2004-05-28T23:01:00.000+08:00

Wooohoo...,we got the camp back from the sec 4s due to the time we hab left to prepare for the camp which is abt 1 week and a few daes...,that's not a lot...,so we r back in business once again...,and thank u god for making it happen...,muhahah...,but back to headaches again...,argh..,but wat to do when u wan to get things done...,K.C...,hu's the man...,haha...,we r the man not the sec 4s...,lolx..,well pple hu r attending the camp there is a meeting nxt saturdae,5th june at 2pm at radin mas pri school...,pls try to go..,it's important...,hab to learn how to pitch tents(i noe it's boring but pls go) after that we hab to brief u again abt the new schedule and stuff...,that 1 will b at edric's hse...,lolx...,finally the results of working mi ass off...
But yet another problem surfaces...,mi store's outing is on the 8th-10th...,during the camp lor...,wat the hell sia...,and now is like it seems i am getting them into a mess...,sorrie herman...,i did not mean it...,but this is mi last year..,try to understand..,if it was on the 9th i will definitely go after mi camp breaks...,kk???
Well todae is one of mi frien's b'dae...,and it's none other than loh shi mei...,muhaha...,happi 16th b'dae to u..,can watch nc-16 le..,haha..,and dun worrie u can do well in ur chinese Os jus like every1 else...,cos i believe in u guys...,haha...,well getting tired after a long dae todae...,so signing off now...,write in tomorrow...

Wat a Dae...,tomorrow is going to b another stupid dae...,argh..

2004-05-27T21:04:00.000+08:00

well todae was working dae for mi again...,wat a pity i neber write in yesterdae...,aiya..,nvm for now..,well todae 1 of the partners cannot come..,then short of man power...,some more slam abt 9-10 like that...,damn chaotic sia...,but lucky we manage...,haha...sold quite alot of cakes todae...,haha..,made seng kinda angry..,jus playing yeah???
well now in mi room...,wif mi gd frien/bandmate/organising committee salleh...,doing somethings wif the camp....,wat a pain in the ass sia..,now the teacher wans us back..,she finally realise that gene was sooo SLOW...,sianzz...,haha...,but we hab to wait till tomorrow then can comfirm we r of full control...,muhahaha..,hopefully can get it...,lolx...,but the damn part is we hab to follow their sooo called plan...,think i will try to discuss wif her whether we can do it ourselves...,pls god..,make it happen...,WE DO BELIEVE IN MIRACLES!!!lolx...,yeah..,found out mi store habing store outing during or after the camp...,sooo xcited...,so mani things happening in june...,can't wait...,well now i got a prob as well...
A gal jus confess her feelings...,but somehow no feeling for her lor..,the prob is she will wait like forever for mi..,but i guess..,she will give up and pick other choices in the future..(wishing that it will)...
2morrow 1 of mi frien's birthdae...,and 3 daes after that...,it's the CHINESE Os for them...,gd luck to all mi juniors this year..,all the best yeah???well write in tomorrow..,quite long sia todae..,haha...m (^_^)

Hmmm...,am i feeling better???think so bah..

2004-05-25T22:14:00.000+08:00

SOOO BORING!!!wat a boring dae it is todae...,no work,no meeting,no nuthing..,so jus slacked at home the whole dae,mindlessly...,sianzz...
well think i feeling better lor...,after a gd nite rest...,slept till 11 sia..,wat a pig u all mus b thinking... (^oo^) but hu cares....,lolx..
well since i slack sooo much at home...,think i hab nuthing to write...,besides no mood sia..,write in tomorrow...

I feel like,i am lying to myself jus to make myself happy..,but actually,i'm not...

2004-05-24T21:21:00.000+08:00

Haiz...,wat a dae...,work as usual...,blah blah blah..,found out that i onli working 2 daes sia this week...,looks like i am gonna hab loads of time to prepare 4 the radi mas camp and slack around...,lolx...,but also quite gd lar...,use this time to settle mi stuff...
Haiz...,wonder whether do all of us once hab a moment that we think that we are lying to ourselves to make ourselves happy but actually we are jus harming ourselves more...,well think that is how i feel now...,i alreadie noe the answer to the future between mi and her..,cos she gave it to mi...,but somehow i am still reluctant to accept it...,still trying mi best to pursue mi dreams;and that is to hab a relationship wif her..,but think that is impossible...,haizz...,the agony...,the pain...
Addition to that i got now 2 other gals that like mi but i somehow dun dare to commit..,cos i dun wan them to end up like mi or mayb worse...,like wat her nick saes in the last part...,it takes forever to forget...,think that will b the time i will need to heal...,unless a miracle happens which i doubt it will happen...
If u ever get to read this(u noe hu u r)i am sooo sorrie to hab to put u thru this...,i guess that u r jus still thinking whether to move on or to stay put...,that u will need time...,all of us need time...
The past is repeating itself again..,and i think it will again if i dun every stop wat i am doing...,but it's sooo hard to change...,haizz...,but i will try mi best to do so...,think i will stop writing for todae...,not in the mood...,wished i hab neber had feelings at all...(T_T)

Dunno y..,but i feel vry tired..,think going to b sick soon..,die (-__-"')

2004-05-23T20:25:00.000+08:00

It's a SUNDAE alreadie!!!sianzz...,tomorrow going back to work liao...,and i still think i haben got enough rest yet...,haha..,mus b slacking too long to think like that...,well woke up around 10 like that..,got mi stuff and went off to 1 of mi dad's club to practice mi basketball again..,saw mi bro's stead there but it's not a surprise cos it's like every sundae she will b there i think..,quite choi lar..,well at least better than mi hu haben got ani...,lolx...,after that played cs at the lan shop there..,no kick sia...
After that..,bcame quite a boring dae..,went home..,took care of mi nephews..,soooo cute(well that wasn't the boring part...)then played mahjong as well wif mi family members...,but of cuz no money..,i wouldn't dare...,not earning enough money yet...,then went to eat at a thai restaurant around east coast..,was nice..,but i was too full from the heavy lunch...,ate 2 waffle ice-cream..,yuppie...,haha...
Now i am back here slacking on mi com..,writing abt mi dae,blah blah blah...,wat a tiring and boring dae..,feel that i am going 2 b sick soon..,hopefully not or else i may not b able to go for the radi mas camp that we hab worked sooo much for...,argh..,now toking abt that..,jus remembered that some sec 4s r tagging along..,how annoying..,grrr...,and the teacher hasn't comfirmed how mani..,slow sia.., feel like rotting to death then waiting for her to comfirm..,lolx..,well signing off now..,write in again tomorrow... (^_^)

An average Dae..,BORING!!!

2004-05-22T22:34:00.000+08:00

lolx..,well todae was quite a boring dae for mi..,nuthing reallie interesting happened...,but i noe that not everydae will b interesting but sometimes it depends on ourselves..,whether we wan to make it interesting...,so i guess i wasn't trying mi best to make it interesting..,lolx..
Well 1 thing for sure..,we got the camp back..,HURRAY!! Well done lar guys...,haha..,but the bad news is that some sec 4s will still b tagging along(sianZZZZ)& that means that we hab to kick out some sia..,unless they help out wif the camp fire and other stuff..,which is not a bad idea...,haha...,hopefully the gay hu almost ruin the camp for us will not b coming..,rite guys???the teacher better tell mi how mani sec 4s r going nxt week..,or else i will sooo strangle her..,haha..,but how i wish no sec 4s r going..,can't they c that nxt year they still got chance while we may not..,sianzz..,kids r still kids..,dun c the whole pic....
Well kinda went out todae to mi grandma's hse to hab a so called reunion dinner wif mi other relatives and after that went to PS to go make mi sis's specs..,did some shopping...,but mostly was vry boring...
Wonder will the nxt dae b a much more xciting and wonderful dae...,hmmm..,well jus hab to wait and c..,lolx...,well guess i write in again tomorrow...,oh ya hab to help michelle do her blog...,hope to do a gd 1 for her..,haha

Everything is back to normal,YEAH!!!

2004-05-21T21:43:00.000+08:00

WeeHee..,like wat u read on the tittle..,it's true,everything is back to normal le...,haha..,feels gd(^_^) think it's bcos of wat mi parents toked to mi younger bro...,glads that he can accepts it..,and ya bro..,if u read this..,sorrie for the nasty words i said...,i said it cos u reallie did not understand mum's feelings then...,dun take it to heart...
Well todae will b another boring dae if i did not choose to go back to qtss and hang out there wif mi juniors..,lolx..,think it has became a habit...,but was surprised to c doreen and jia hui to b back there as well..,lolx..,by the way like to wish mi 2 god-sis a happie 17th birthdae..,lolx...,sorrie haben gotten ur presents yet..,but dun worrie will do kk??
Well heard from mi partner,Kristie from mi store jus now that it was a hectic dae todae..,nuthing reallie went well 4 them..,feel sooo sorrie for them but somehow i feel lucky..,sorrie arh guys if u all read this...:P relax ya??hopefully the nxt few daes will b back to the old self..,the happening starbucks holland village..,ALRIGHT...
Wonder how i will pass mi weekend sia wif no work and planss...,perhaps ponder on some stuff...,dunno wat yet..,but definitely some stuff..,lolx..,well write in tomorrow..,running out of things to write...

wat the hell man..,at 1st happie then became sad....,wat a dae...

2004-05-20T20:26:00.000+08:00

thout that todae would b a great dae for mi after meeting her and toking to her and stuff..,but it had to happened...
well work was ok lar toade..,not alot of slams(meaning busy hrs) but somehow i felt tired lor..,perhaps it's the lack of sleep...,hu noes..,mayb due to the thinking of someone out there..,heex...,finally after punching out..,met her at mi store..,returned her the phone and sat down and had some drinks...,toked alot..,boutght a slice of cake and she ate it...,but time flies sooo fast we were soon out of mi store and she was heading for her store to rest b4 working..,wat a disappointment..,but it's ok...
after that,went back home..,on the bus kept thinking of her while listening to songs..,neber did i xpect to find such a scene at home when i returned..,mi younger bro was arguing wif mi mum..,haizz,got involved and was like..,argh...,so hard to xplain..,but i think those hu hab these kinda incidents b4 will understand..,sianzz...
hopefully everything will become back to normal again..,if improve that will b sooo much better lor...
haizzz...,all i can sae that time heals everything and i think this will take some time to heal...,till then i can onli pray for the best to happen...
still waiting for the teacher in charge for the radi mas camp to comfirm wif us whether we r going..,so fustrating man..,right anot gang??haha...,well hope tomorrow will b a better dae for all of us,ya???

2morrow meeting her again...,shld i b happie or sad

2004-05-19T21:51:00.000+08:00

todae was quite an ok dae..,went to school,got wat we wanted...,haha now we 80% can go to the camp le..,poor pitiful gene..,but i feel bad not letting those in his grp go...,cos they r my frienz as well..,sigh..,perhaps nxt year bah...

well tomorrow meeting her again to return her phone...,lolx..,hope that i can tok to her for a long period of time again...(^_^) well other than it was quite boring..,perhaps tomorrow will b a better dae...,i hope that it will...haha..

hope the feelings 4 her come back and that our relationship will pass jus friendship..,dun wan this to b another failure or else i will definitely go bonkers le..,haizz

well signing off cos nuthing left to sae..,perhaps more to come later on..

wat is wrong wif mi???

2004-05-18T21:44:00.000+08:00

May 18th 2004,Dae 1 of the life of THE XuXuBan;Captain's log...,wei wei..,wat the hell sia..,haha jus joking...
well here is how it all started...,woke up,went to work,blah blah blah,ended work then met up wif HER,chated at mi store 4 a while..,sort of sent her to her working place then went to bugis to get the hp back..,went home...,now stuck here writing this loaf of crap...,lame rite..,haizz,y???
cos dunno whether i got the feelings i once had 4 her..,sianzz...,y does luv hab to b sooo tough and pple sae that gd pple would hab blessings later in the future...,somehow it does not seem so...,but wat the heck,always look on the bright side of life..,crapping again...,well tomorrow going back to old sec school to tok abt the camp..,hope we succeed in getting it...